Vengeance of The Broken Lycan Prince [BL]
Chapter 237: A Whole New World To Explore

Chapter 237: A Whole New World To Explore

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Tamiko’s heart felt heavy as he headed towards the palace. He couldn’t deny the way that his heart was seeking him out. He was losing the battle between his sanity and the state he so very wished to be a part of.

It was a truth that he had known the moment his heart beat faster when Kosta ran away. It wasn’t supposed to be like that and yet it had become the one thing that had defined his movements.

He was bothered by the way that Kosta had reacted and he felt stupid for trying to force a rejection down his Erasthai’s throat. Granted, he was a broken kid, but that didn’t mean he had to be the harshest of people with the man he had sworn to love.

There were so many things that he could have done along the way and yet none of all that had made sense to him. Perhaps he had been bound to be the monster he had always been scared of.

Would it ever be a difference though? Would it ever make the ache he was feeling disappear or was it just going to be one of the many emotions he would have to deal with when he flipped the switch on his humanity again?

Oh, but Tamiko was conflicted.

There seemed to be so many things that needed his attention and he wasn’t sure if this was the right path for him. Maybe he was deflecting like always, or maybe he was just spent from trying to make it out of the shadows alive.

Perhaps this was the one time he didn’t even have to play the strong man, right? But would it ever be okay for him?

Would the madness be the one thing that anchored him to the world of the living, or was this just going to be the worst test that he had ever had to deal with?

So many things had gone wrong along the way and Tamiko hated that he hadn’t been able to make shit alright. Maybe this time all would be well, no?

"Hey, are you doing?" Danny asked, interrupting Tamiko’s endless line of thoughts. Tamiko had long reached the palace and had gone to Danny’s chambers. He knew that that was the one place he would feel safe and relaxed, even just for a moment.

His brother was the one person he trusted with all of him, and perhaps that was why he was so sure that Danny wouldn’t push him. Then again, what the fuck was Tamiko running from when his mate bond was out there in the open for everyone to see?

What exactly was he trying to hide from and why the fuck did he feel more suffocated than he had ever felt in years? This was supposed to be this complex, but here they were, with the fates, trying to play the game of who did what when they didn’t even have any probable cause.

Perhaps it was what life would be like for them.

Maybe the sun would rise and they would surely try again, but fuck it if this didn’t make his blood boil all the time. His state was pitiful and Tamiko hated it more than anything he had ever spotted in his entire life.

Perhaps he just needed to take a break from the realm and the madness that it came with, right?

But who was he supposed to run to? His father – the man who was waiting for him, or his uncle who would surely push him towards the mate bond he wasn’t sure he could embrace right now?

Oh, but Danny was constantly proving to be the safe space but would Danny just let him drown out the bond that had made him the happiest? Oh, but Tamiko was at a crossroads.

"Never been better. How’s being the new Lycan Lord taking you? Anything you need me to help with?" Tamiko asked in earnest like he wasn’t having the nagging feeling to come clean to his best friend.

He had wanted to let Danny in, to tell him of what had happened, but he also knew that Danny wouldn’t take his side on this one.

He knew that Danny would try to push him towards the bond and listening to Kosta which was something that Tamiko himself knew was a possibility, but Tamiko didn’t want to.

He didn’t need all that drama in his life right now. He didn’t have the energy to face the shit he had started, and honestly, it was driving him crazier than he had ever been.

Maybe this time, he would have to come clean and face the wrath of everyone who was holding onto him, waiting for something, anything. A sign that things were alright, but even that seemed like a hassle that Tamiko wasn’t ready to embrace.

He didn’t have the strength to go forth and seek that which was waiting for him. It was too much of a hassle. But were his heartbeats that had grown so erratic, a bother still? Was that what Tamiko would lay forward for his best friend this time?

"Nothing yet. I just miss training with you. I also wish to know the extent of the abilities I got when your father made me your Lord," Danny said as he looked at Tamiko.

He could see that something was wrong with his best friend and honestly, he had already expected this fine the way that things were in the kingdom.

He had learned to try and be patient with Tamiko in the past few days, and honestly, he was still hopeful that Tamiko and Igor would make the right decision for both of them.

Danny had been the greatest advocate for their love and while the man hated Igor Konstantin, he loved Tamiko enough to accept that Igor was Tamiko’s happiness. It was something that even the blind could see.

The fates couldn’t even fight that truth because, at the end of the day, it was what life was meant to be for them. It was what life had determined for the both of them and regardless of what happened, they would have to find their way back to each other.

At the same time, the burden of being a Lycan Lord was something that Danny wasn’t sure he could understand with ease. The king had just thrust the position on his face and he wasn’t sure what the job would entail.

Granted, he was sure it would have to do with Tamiko but was that really enough explanation for the man who had strived to make amends for this best friend? Was it ever going to make sense when Danny was trying to think of what this was supposed to be like?

He was confused and it was understandable because not even Lord Sadako had spared him the time of day as a lord, and that was the one person who knew what it meant to be one.

Lord Sadako knew what Danny was expected to deal with and he would have helped. But where was he? Maybe it would make sense eventually when Danny found a way around the life he had been thrust into, right?

Perhaps figuring out the Lycan abilities would make more sense. But how?

"That’s easy. Come. Let’s go sparring. I don’t have much to do since everyone seems to be walking on eggshells around me. I doubt they would ever let me into Papa’s study to start thinking of helping the kingdom," Tamiko said casually.

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