The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 502: You are Jabi

Chapter 502: You are Jabi

Jabi

"Please,’’ Lenny begs as I bite into him.

there is blood everywhere. So much blood but I want more. I want to completely devour him. I want to rip him to shreds.

There is pain in his eyes and all I derive is pleasure. Joy from his misery.

I love the pain he feels.

I want him gone.

I want him to be nothing but a memory.

I want him to be dead.

I open my eyes and I am in a room on a large bed. My hands stretch out for him and the fear hits me immediately when I notice I am alone in the room--alone on the bed. My heart starts to pound as I try to remember what happened. Everything comes swarming like a

cloud of black smoke in my head.

I killed Lenny--not only did I kill him but I destroyed his whole being. I fed on him, watched him as he begged desperately.

I don’t know how I feel about it all but there is an ache in my chest. I don’t know how Darrien feels about what I did. He is not here, he left me alone, and maybe he is disappointed in me. Maybe he now sees me as the monster that I have become. I sit up on the bed and I am only wearing boxers. I look at my hands, all the traces of blood from yesterday--I don’t even know if it was yesterday. I have lost sense of time. I don’t even remember coming here. I don’t even remember getting cleaned up.

My hands tremble as I try to stand up from the bed. My knees are weak and I am caught between being afraid and being sick. My stomach aches and my head spins. I grab the edge of the bed to steady myself. It feels like I am going to puke, maybe that is what I need to do. Maybe I need to get it all out of my system.

I feel it coming out of me and in an instant, I run into the door that leads to the bathroom. The room is big, so it takes me a couple of seconds to get there. I fall to my knees and immediately my stomach is rushing up and filling my mouth with bile. I try to scream but not a sound comes out. I fall over and land on the tile floor. I struggle to breathe as I hear the door to the room open.

I know it is Darrien immediately, I feel his worry, his fear. I feel all of him like I used to before Lenny took me. I feel the connection, the bond, I feel all the things I had gotten used to. I try to lift my head from the floor as I feel a hand on my back. I open my eyes and Darrien is there.

"Jabi?’’ he whispers.

"I’m ok,’’ I say as I push myself up. Darrien helps me to my feet and I gasp for air.

"Are you ok?’’ he asks me again.

"Yeah, I am fine,’’ I say as I wipe the tears from my face. I didn’t even know I was crying. I don’t even know what is happening with me and Dar can see it. He knows me better than anyone and I can tell he is worried about me.

I am worried about myself.

"Come on,’’ he grabs me by my arm and I don’t fight him as he helps me to the sink. I don’t protest as he turns on the faucet and splashes some water in my face. He continues this in silence for a couple of seconds. His hands are cool as they touch my face.

He opens the cabinet to take out a towel.

"You can sit down on the toilet if you want,’’ he says softly.

"No, I am fine,’’ I tell him. I feel strange after everything that has happened.

"You can’t continue thinking about it like it was a bad thing,’’ he interrupts my thought, almost like he read my mind.

"I killed him, Dar.’’

He nods "He deserved it. I was going to kill him too. You just beat me to it.’’

I shake my head "It’s not just that I killed him, it was the way I killed him. I lost control and I am scared that it could happen again.’’ He studies my eyes for a moment.

"Do you feel like you are losing control right now?’’

I close my eyes even though I know that he is watching me and waiting for an answer. For now, I just have the lingering fear of everything that happened. I feel the same way I used to feel in the apartment, in the community. The fact that it could be so easy to put that day behind me, scares the hell out of me.

"No. I’m not losing control.’’ I tell him honestly. I feel that the last few days have been the first time I have faced being myself. Being Jabi.

I need to know if Darrien sees me the same way.

I close my eyes and I can feel his lips on my cheek. Soft and reassuring. I open my eyes.

"You are Jabi,’’ he whispers. "You have always been Jabi.’’

I nod and his fingers trace my jaw.

"You aren’t gonna lose control again.’’

I shake my head I can’t even find the words to tell him that I don’t want to.

He leans in to kiss me.

I close my eyes and I am lost in his kiss.

It feels so familiar. It feels like I haven’t kissed him in years. Like I am getting all I have ever wanted. A reminder of our love. His tongue dances inside my mouth as he kisses me.

My hands reach up and I touch his face. He lets me explore, he lets me taste every part of him and I never want it to end. I kiss him, I feel his hands slip down my back and he holds me close.

I close my eyes as I feel his lips on my neck. He doesn’t stop as he snakes his way down. He pulls my boxers off and I help him at the same time kissing him.

He cups my butt softly and lifts me up, slowly, I wrap my legs around his waist as he places me on the edge of the sink.

He stares at my face for a moment before he kisses me again. My heart beats against his chest as I claw at him, wanting every bit of this intimacy. Wanting to feel him inside me.

A day, two days, feel like an eternity and he feels the same way.

He puts his hands on my hips and he kisses my neck. He lets his legs fall and places his hands on my thighs. He kisses my stomach and I hear him sigh.

"I want to make love to you,’’

I close my eyes and I can feel his smile against my skin.

"I want to devour you’’

"Please’’

"I will take you to a place where no one can find us.’’

"Please’’ He begins to kiss his way to my lips. He stops, he looks at me gently "I love you Jabi. I will never let anyone make you feel this way again."

It is a promise, one that I completely trust in.

Because he is the one.