The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 222: More manipulations

Chapter 222: More manipulations

Gyles.

What are you doing?

I don’t know.

This is fucked up.

I have never done anything this lowly in my whole life. I hate this as much as he will after this happens. My wolf is trembling. The fact that I know I shouldn’t do this makes me want to even more. I am attracted to blue. I think about him when I got to bed. He will always linger in my mind. I will always wonder what he feels like. This is something I have to do, even though deep down, I know that I shouldn’t do this.

Rex mentioned that we can’t have sex until the mating ceremony which is supposed to happen during a full moon. I know that he mentioned consequences. I don’t care about the consequences. I don’t care about mates and werewolves. I don’t care about the goddess of the moon. They want me to be what I am not. I will not succumb to them.

This is the only way that I can do this.

I have to find a way to cut this without being the one to cut this. I don’t know if he will agree to this but I see the desperation in his eyes. If only he reads me, with his powers. He will see that this is malicious. Yeah, I want him but I also have other intentions.

My eyes stay on him as he leans into me, kissing me again. Kissing has never felt as good as it does with them. Both of them, have me in ways that no one else ever had. I didn’t come here to ask him to have sex with me. I really had no thoughts when I walked to his house. This plan was not preconceived. It happened on the spur of the moment. I just thought about it the minute I asked him to kiss me. I am not the monster that I seem like right now.

You are a monster.

My wolf insults me. The fact that I keep shutting him out of every decision I make must make him angry. I want to shut him out to the point where he doesn’t exist anymore. I don’t want this part of me. I might seem like the villain right now and maybe I am. I loved the monster.

The boy that I fell in love with.

A part of me must have always been evil. Selfish and vindictive. I don’t even have a shred of guilt inside me—fuck, that is not true. I feel like shit right now. I don’t like that I have to stoop so low. If he knew about the mating ceremony. He wouldn’t be doing this?

Right?

"This is crazy,’’ his voice echoes in the silence of the room. I open my eyes and he is above me with a smile on his face "Rex wouldn’t like this. I don’t think we should,’’ he exhales deeply. I reach for him, wanting a lot more. Why would Rex think this is not allowed when it feels so good? At this point, I am not even thinking about the consequences. It is just so maddening that I could want him this badly—especially since I don’t want him.

It makes no sense, I know but at the same time, it does. I reach for his dick and he moans loudly against the touch. My eyes close as I start to stroke him, slowly increasing my speed. He gets harder the faster I go but I don’t want this to just end with his orgasm. I want him inside me.

"G,’’ he moans my name as I stop slowly, leading him to my entrance. There is doubt in my mind that I want him to take control of this. I know he is an Alpha male. He has it in him to take charge but I know he is scared. Terrified that I would retreat from this and pull back.

My mind is already made up.

I want him to fuck me.

"Can we not fight this, I know you want me as much as I want you,’’ I whisper into his ear seductively. I have never been this kind of person, desperate for another man’s touch but at this moment with the way my body is responding to him—I want to feel everything.

For the first time in a long time, my heart is responding to someone. It is aching desperately. He must feel the same way. He loves me.

Then don’t do this.

My wolf cries. I feel it giving up on me. He is begging me right now because he knows that there will be repercussions. I don’t care about the repercussion because I don’t want to think about them. Maybe this is just me proving that I don’t deserve this end that they all want me to have.

"You know I want you more than anything. This is the closest we have gotten since I met you. It is a gift from the deities.’’

A gift from the deities?

I call that bullshit.

This is not a gift.

He seems to think this is some sort of blessing from the gods. That I am finally giving in to him. I don’t want to give in to him. I just want him so badly. I arch my back forward until I feel his dick against me. He grunts loudly. This is torture for him. The kind that can drive a person insane.

I keep grinding into him because I am all out of words. I want him to reject me right now. I am suddenly the desperate one in this situation. This is a damn the consequences situation.

Are you giving him the opportunity to know about the consequences?

My wolf asked quietly. I am not getting the same anger from him. He seems defeated. It is nice that I finally made him this way. I made my wolf give up. This should be a celebratory moment. I am sure Blue is smart enough to decide this on his own. I am not making him do anything he doesn’t want to.

"Please give in to me," I beg him desperately.

He closes his eyes and I take that as his go-ahead. Slowly, I push him into me. At first, all I feel is pain, this kind of intense pain in my lower region. I even star5t to think it is punishment for what I am doing. My body stiffens against him and he tries to pull out of me but I quickly grab him by wrapping my legs around his waist, which in turn pulls him deeper into me. He moans loudly, opening his eyes and looking at me. He is worried about me. It warms my heart.

I take a deep breath as I try to acclimate to him. Make the pain, subside and start to feel the pleasure that I already know will come.

"Are you okay?’’ he exhales with a tone that tells me he is worried.

All I see are stars around him. This is not how I thought it would feel. Even with the pain, my heart is screaming for him. "I am, please keep going,’’ I assure him with an urgent need for me.

He smiles slowly, his eyes fixed on me. Slowly, I feel him move, at first he is gentle but the second all I feel all of him. My body finally adjusts to him. "Yeah, more,’’ I urge.

This is unlike anything I have ever felt. I start to imagine it with the two of them. Taking turns to fuck each other. My dick hardness at the thought. All the excitement that I have been refusing. The stubbornness that I have. It all completely evaporates at this moment. I start to imagine more from both of them. The love that they could give me. The life I would have with the tow of them.

Then stop this.

Don’t do things this way.

My wolf begs me. I stiffen suddenly as he pushes into me. This time, he doesn’t sense my change in mood. For the first time, I have regrets. I don’t know why this has to happen now but everything that I have don’t up until this moment, flashes right before my eyes.

The way I have treated him.

The decision to make him do this even though I knew I shouldn’t. "Wait,’’ I grab his waist as he tries to kiss me. He stops immediately because that is just the kind of person he is. He cares too much and I have not even appreciated him once since I came here. I used him and manipulated him.

I treated him like shit and I had no remorse.

"What’s wrong?" he manages with heavy breaths. His face is red, his eyes are dark. This would have been a perfect sight, if not for the situation. The fact that I might have ruined all the chance I have of being with him.

Fuck.

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