The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 223: The rejection

Chapter 223: The rejection

Blue.

"What’s wrong?’’

I ask him because he is as white as snow. There is an expression on his face that I can’t sense. I am always good at reading people. My willed sense is not working with him. It hasn’t been working all night. Maybe all my emotions have been clouding my strong sense of judgement. It was overwhelming. The fact that he was here with me. He wanted me for the first time and my wolf just couldn’t handle refusing him.

We gave him what he wanted because we are weak. So weak that we couldn’t even control ourselves.

Don’t blame me. This is all you.

My wolf denies having any part in this. It wasn’t just me but maybe a stronger part of me. I mean, I am the one that accepted to do this even though I knew that it was not right excluding Rex. I just think that he would understand this.

The mating ceremony.

It’s just a thought that comes to my head. I don’t even know why I am thinking about that. He hasn’t even agreed to be with us. He is still in his denial phase. I don’t think this even means anything. He won’t just accept me all of a sudden. That just seems too good to be true.

He pushes out of me and I feel as alone as I did just before he came to see me. I don’t know what I could have done wrong but the regret kicks in. he grabs his clothes immediately and I see the tears in his eyes. He looks so terrified. I want to read him right now but it is not working. He is blocking me out. I don’t even know how he does it but the wall that I am always able to penetrate him is blocked.

He grabs his clothes and I watch him as he hurriedly puts them on. I get up from the bed and grab him quickly before he can escape out of my room without explaining to me what is wrong "Hey,’’ I mutter quietly.

He wipes the tears from his face "I got to go, I am sorry.’’ he manages, his eyes fixed to the door. He wants to escape from this without talking to me about it. We had sex. No matter how much he wants to deny this—it happened.

I shake my head because I refuse to just let him go "This is not a big deal. We can talk about this without any problems. Rex wouldn’t mind. He will understand.’’

I try to reason with him but all he does is cry and shake his head "You wouldn’t think so after you find out,’’ he manages.

I furrow my brows because I don’t know what he is talking about. I know that Rex shouldn’t be kept out of these things but we are in this relationship together. There are bound to be times where we will have intimate moments with one person absent. This whole thing is confusing. I don’t still understand how it works but I want to make it work. If he is scared about how Rex will react then I will talk to Rex. I will make this right so he doesn’t have to worry.

"We will work this out,’’ I assure him.

"It’s too late. I messed it all up,’’ he shouts at me. Finally, I get into his heart. He shows me everything and slowly, I let go of him because I can’t comprehend this. How much could he have not wanted this that he would sabotage it all?

He closes his eyes as the tears fall.

I take a step away from him because suddenly, it all makes sense. How could I be so stupid? How did I not know about this?

I was present for Beau’s ceremony. I should’ve asked Jules. I should’ve understood the process. Sometimes I feel like I know everything but now it is clear to me that I don’t know the things that are important. My happiness is suddenly snatched away from me in the blink of an eye. How will I tell Rex? What do I even say to him?

Will he ever forgive me?

"What happens now?’’ I ask him.

He knows that I already know. There is no way I would’ve If he didn’t want me to. He showed that to me intentionally. He wanted me to see what he has done. He wanted me to feel this pain that is gnawing at my chest. My heart is shattering and it is all thanks to the person that is supposed to protect it. I see him and my future with him is slowly slipping away. I am slowly losing everything just because of him.

"I don’t know,’’ he cries and I watch him run his hands through his hair from the frustration of it all. I take a deep breath because I have no words. I don’t have the answers to this for the first time in my life. I am speechless.

"You didn’t want me. You were so clear on that. Why did you do this?’’ I ask him because I want to know what he was thinking.

How selfish could he be?

"I don’t know. I..." he doesn’t answer me. He doesn’t say anything sensible at this moment, even though I am so sure that this move he made was vindictive. He knew what he was doing and he knew that I had no clue. He knew that I would do anything he wanted and he took advantage of that. i am so angry. My wolf is angry too.

"I feel everything now. I don’t want to deny this anymore." He confesses and this is the moment I have been waiting for. This is everything that I have wanted, from the first day I met him but it doesn’t feel the same anymore.

It took breaking me completely to get him to want me—now I can’t have him. Or at least it feels like I have lost the opportunity to.

He tries to touch me but I take a step from him and shake my head "I need you to leave,’’ I tell him. I am done fighting for him./ I have fucking tried and he hasn’t even helped me once. He makes me think that I have a chance and he completely crushes that chance. I won’t be taken for a fool. It seems like this isn’t going to work.

"Please, I don’t want to. I can’t right now," he begs. I feel his pain but this doesn’t mean anything. It is just the guilt of the whole situation. I know he is not a bad person. I just don’t think this thing between us is going to work. I can’t be with someone that would deceive me or trick me.

He keeps saying he doesn’t want to be controlled, that he wants to choose. Well at this moment, I am choosing to let him go.

"You finally have what you want. I am fucking done. I will never ask you for anything. I will never expect anything either.’’ My words are cold and my wolf is crying, begging me to look for a solution to make things better, instead of shutting him out but I can’t anymore. I see things clearly now and nothing is going to change how selfish he is. he will always think about himself. He will never fully live me as much as I love him.

There will always be something that will make him do things and I don’t want to be here for it.

What about Rex?

Rex will have to choose. He will have to decide who he wants. I don’t want to do this with Gyles. I don’t want to have anything to do with him again.

"You thought you would be the one rejecting me," he shakes his head incessantly.

"I don’t want that. I want to try. I want to make things right. I want things to work between all of us. Please give me one last chance." He cries.

He is trying to pull my wolf in.

I look away from him because as much as I want to deny this, my heart still beats for him. Even though it is shattered now and bleeding, it is still responding to him. I am not going back from this. I am not taking this back.

"I am rejecting you, Gyles. This is your chance to be free. No more control.’’ With those words, I see the light in his eyes dim. I have never come across a rejected wolf. I never thought I would but I see it in his eyes. The light is gone and with that, he would wither, until every bit of him slowly dies. The anger in me is too much to even feel anything. He has succeeded in making me numb to everything.

I leave the room for him, not even taking a glance at him.

I am fucking done.

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