The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 220: I can handle all that you give me

Chapter 220: I can handle all that you give me

Blue.

"There is someone at the door for you,’’ Jules walks into my room without even knocking. I look up from my phone and the last message that my mother left. I don’t know what is going on in the coven because she hasn’t told me anything but it seems like there is something wrong.

Mom has always been clingy. She has always kept me on a tight leash but this is a lot more than she has ever done. All the calls, messages, begging me to come home. I am still upset with her but the love I have for that woman gets on my nerves.

I need you home. This is a 911

Even as I watch Jules leave, I linger on the message because I don’t know how to respond to her. Another message pops up.

Please call me when you get my messages.

I drop my phone on the bed and walk out of the room. I am sure it is Rex and Jules being the person he is probably didn’t let him in. he is a very conservative man. He likes to keep to himself most time. I guess that is why he has survived as lone wolf for so long. His room door closes and I sigh loudly. He is leaving the pack in two days, so that is why he has had a snarky attitude with me. He doesn’t understand why I want to stay, and yeah, I haven’t told him the reason—at this point, I don’t even know why I am hiding it from him.

It’s just that a part of me feels like he wouldn’t understand or support this. Especially with how avoidance and unaccepting Gyles is. I open the door and shock takes over my face.

"Gyles,’’ I manage, shocked that he is the one that is here. After last night, I didn’t think I would see him for like a week. He is very good at avoiding things.

"Were you asleep?’’ he asks nervously.

Why is he nervous?

"No, come in,’’ I move aside to give him space to enter the house. He does that hesitantly. He is in my house, on his own. I don’t know what it means but I can’t help but be excited.

I lead him further into the house until we get to my room. He sighs loudly. I can sense his aura. He is freaking scared.

"You don’t have to be scared of me,’’ I tell him calmly.

He came here on his own. I didn’t force him to come here "Are you doing that thing you usually do?’’ he asks me.

I furrow my brow as I smile slightly "What thing?’’ He walks over to the bed and stands at the edge "You can sit,’’ I tell him.

He shakes his head and then obeys "The thing where you use your powers to read people?’’

My willed sense is not a power that I use. It is not something I can just switch off. It is something that happens on its own.

"I am not using it. I just sense things a lot deeper than others,’’ I explain. We are having a conversation about my magic like that is the most important thing to discuss right now. I don’t know how he feels about today.

Why he is even here in the first place?

"I am sorry,’’ he blurts out loudly at the same time getting off the bed.

I nod.

He runs his hands through his hair and his shirt rides up. I can’t help myself. I am not thinking of anything sexual right now but it is almost a full moon. My wolf is horny and the v line of his waist isn’t helping.

"Why are you sorry?’’ I manage with a cough. I need to get my mind out of the gutter because there is no way he is here to get it down with me.

Fuck, who says get it down?

I don’t even know.

"For being a major jerk. Shit, I didn’t rehearse that. Don’t think I did,’’ he takes a step away from me and walks all the way to the window. The moon is shining brightly.

"It is almost a full moon,’’ he voices out my thoughts.

Connect with him.

My wolf pleads. I have never sensed as much desperation from him as I do at this moment. I don’t blame him. We are both in this together. Both unwanted.

"Why are you here Gyles?’’

I can’t dilly dally and pretend like things aren’t rocky. I made a promise to him earlier. One that I don’t want to keep and Rex seems to think that I should go the other direction. Lie to him and make him remember everything. I think he would hate me more if I do that but I am all out of options. I don’t know what else I can do to win his heart. It is not like it is ready for me to take. I have tried everything. Tried to be a friend, tried to help him with his issues. He has felt the pull. The one thing that weakens a wolf who doesn’t accept its mate and he is still stubborn. I am all out of options.

"I don’t know,’’ he confesses and I can tell that his confession is taking a lot from him. I have never known him to be vulnerable and maybe he is that way with Rex but he has never been that way with me.

Right now, I sense a lot of vulnerability emanating from him.

I walk closer to him, he turns around immediately and I don’t stop walking until I am in front of him. Our eyes meet. He pulls me in completely. I don’t know if it is the same for him.

"Is this about helping you forget, is that why you came?’’

He shakes his head. We are so close. I want to reach out and touch him. Get the same feelings I got when he hugged me.

"I thought so at first but now I am not so sure anymore.’’

I sigh "You don’t want to anymore."

There is this part of me that is already excited. If he tells me that he doesn’t want to forget anymore. Then I don’t have to do anything that I don’t want to.

"I do but that is not why I am here.’’

Fuck, so much for being hopeful.

I nod because I don’t know what else to say. He came here on his own but I don’t want to get too excited about it because at the end of this visit, all my expectations might be crushed with just a couple of words from him.

I wait for him to speak. Let the words come out on his own. I don’t want to assume anything and then be disappointed.

"I don’t know why I am here. That is the truth. I just found myself here,’’ he confesses.

My heart thuds against my chest.

He came here because he missed you.

My wolf is fishing. Looking for a light at the end of our very, very dark tunnel. I don’t know what to think or how to feel about his confession because I don’t even know what it means.

"Why?’’

He moves back, I move forward, we do this until his back hits the wall. I am not trying to ambush him, I just want to be close to him. My body is acting out on its own.

"I don’t know, maybe this all happened because of the hug. I don’t want you but something keeps pulling me to you.’’ he cries.

I don’t feel his pain. I like the torture he is going through. I want him to suffer all the emotions that come with this. He can’t act selfishly and then expect me to just give him what he wants. I reach for him. He is blaming the hug. I know it has something to do with how he feels right now.

"I don’t know what I am doing, I will probably regret this in the morning but can I kiss you?’’ he asks looking up at me. His eyes are dark, sensual. Everything I have dreamed. Right now, he is here. In my room and I like to think that is progress.

Kiss him.

My wolf cries out, desperate for a little affection from the man standing in front of me. You know how when you meet your other half, you get a sense of completion within you. I don’t feel complete with Rex, he is just part of the process. I need Gyles to feel that way. We all need each other. So none of us will ever be complete without the other.

This is something that I can’t refuse because no matter how much he pushes me away, or how bad he treats me, I will always want him. I will always go back to him. I get that it is a messed up situation but no one is ever given more than they can handle.

I can handle everything that Gyles throws at me.

Even this.