The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 181: Certain but confused

Chapter 181: Certain but confused

Rex.

"Why?’’ he raises a brow at my question. The suspicion is obvious in his eyes. He is wondering why I want to do this. I don’t even have the answer to his question.

"You asked him to stay. I thought I’d use this opportunity to welcome him to the family.’’ I smile nervously, hoping he doesn’t catch me in my lie. They are all going to the neighboring community today. I asked Gyles to join me tonight at the gathering. I still don’t know if it is a good idea but I want him to come with me.

He watches me. even I don’t believe my words. I like to keep to myself. I am not the forward type. The person that would invite someone somewhere. So now, I can understand why he won’t believe me "You sound suspicious, why?’’ he asks me.

I take a deep breath because I don’t know what to say to his questions. He keeps asking me why when I don’t even know myself "Do you think I should not have, just tell me and I will revoke my invitation,’’ I put it to him to make the decision. I don’t know why Beau asked Gyles to stay in the pack but he must have his reasons. If he doesn’t want me mingling with him, no matter how curious I am. I will take a step back. I mean, yesterday, I was so sure that Blue was my mate. Now I don’t even know again.

"This is not about me. I actually don’t think he is a threat to us. That’s why I suggested he stay. I just want to know why you are so curious about him.’’

I furrow my brows wanting to dismiss the thoughts he is having in his head "I am not curious. I just feel bad for him is all.’’

His brows are still quirked with curiosity "Are you sure about that?’’ he asks. I nod my head immediately, in hopes that he will dismiss this conversation completely "You would tell me if there was something up?"

I nod again.

I am not sure about anything yet. I don’t even know if blue is my mate. If he is, why am I feeling some type of way with Gyles? The whole thing is still a mystery to me; so, I don’t want to involve Beau yet, until I am one hundred percent sure.

"Great, so enjoy your party with Gyles. Just keep an eye on him. He might still be wobbly with everything."

I smile in contentment, glad that he actually agreed to this. It would be good for Gyles to go out of the community. Meet people. I don’t know why I am so excited.

I leave Beau and head in the direction of my room. Blue catches me off guard in the hallways of the house. His eyes light up when he sees me. They shine as bright as a diamond "Hey.’’

I look at him closely. Wanting to remember all his features while he is away for the weekend. He is dressed in black slacks and a plain white shirt. This is the fanciest anyone has ever been in the community. He has this manner about him that just screams class.

"Hi,’’

He stops walking once he gets to me "So we are leaving in a couple of minutes,’’ he buries his hands inside his pocket. I try to keep my eyes on his face but the top button of his shirt is loose. I can see his skin, it has me imagining all sorts of things. I wouldn’t mind seeing him naked.

Fuck, what the hell am I thinking.

I think the problem has to do with never having had sex. Maybe I just need to find someone. Anyone that would help me get rid of all this hunger within.

"Yeah,’’

He takes another step towards me. there is a faint smile on his face. He stops walking in front of me and cups my face again. Just like the last time. All the butterflies attack me. all the emotions that I want to explore with him pour out. I am not even thinking about Gyles at this moment. All I can focus on is him and all his glory "I want to pursue you. Do you feel this thing between us?’’ he breathes into my face, his breath hot and heavy.

I close my eyes because like I said earlier, it seems like I am sex-starved. If he chooses to kiss me. I will not push him away.

"I know you feel this too,’’ he continues. The sound of his voice melting my heart into goo. I feel it too. I want you to pursue me.

I say those words in my head. The cowardice part of me keeps the thoughts. I am too much of a coward to say that out loud.

"You know what this means?’’ he asks me.

I want to pull him away from me because we are in the middle of the halls. Anyone could walk out of their room and see us. I don’t want to be caught by Beau. Especially when I just denied everything to him. His hands slide down from my face and down my chest. I am dressed in a pair of very short, shorts and a tank top. I am very sure he can feel the pounding of my heart against my chest. There is no hiding how I feel. He can see—or rather feel right through.

"Rex, do you give me permission?’’

I open my eyes at his question. His eyes stare at me hungrily. I don’t know what he sees as he is watching me but it seems like we both have the same expressions on our faces. "Permission for what?’’ I stutter nervously. My voice is low, husky...sounds unlike I have ever heard before. These are the things he is doing to me.

"First," he slides his hand lower and around my waist. This is the closest I have ever been with anyone. This is a lot but it is also exciting. I feel the chills as he pulls me closer. I feel the butterflies dancing with joy "Permission to kiss you,’’ he finalizes at the same time my heart stops against my chest.

I am shocked at his directness. I didn’t expect him to be so direct, so soon. Fuck, I want him to kiss me. I wish he didn’t ask. I wish he just went ahead and smashed his lips to mine but now that he has asked. I don’t know how to answer him. The part of me that is terrified will fight this beautiful moment. He moves his hand around my waist. My shirt rides up just as I feel his hand on my skin. The goosebumps crawl all over my hands. It feels so good to have him touch me. I wish he never let’s go.

"Rex,’’ he calls my name. it sounds strained, almost like this is hard for him. Like this is some sort of torture.

"Mhmm,’’ I mutter, speechless at this moment.

The fact that we are still in the middle of the halls is at the back of my mind. I don’t even care that anyone could walk out and see this. All I want to do is kiss him. His fingers play around until he is on my chest through my shirt. I feel him brush against my nipple. This gets a moan out of my lips. I cover my mouth to hide the fact that I just moaned from just a touch but it is too late. There is a smile on his face—he is letting me know that he heard that. I hide my face in his chest from the embarrassment, but he is already pulling me back again to look at me.

"One kiss,’’ he pleads.

I nod my head slightly. This is the only way I will say yes. It is so subtle that I am almost sure he didn’t see it. "Thank you,’’ he manages, and in that second, his lips press to mine roughly. I didn’t expect him to be rough—or rather should say, I never expected to like a rough kiss because as he pushes me to the wall. The hit entices me. I only feel pleasure as his tongue slides into my mouth, as his hand roams around my body. I kiss him as hungry for him as he is for me and in that moment, in the split second, my life flashes right before my eyes. All the talks about finding your mate. How it will be. It all engulfs me completely.

I pull away from him and there is a smile on his face. A dreamy expression plastered. I can’t even stay in this beautiful trance because from my side-eye, I feel someone watching me. I look over Blue’s shoulders subtly and Gyles is there. In front of his room. His eyes are sad. I feel his pain.

Why do I care about his pain?

When I am so sure that Blue is my mate now.