THE Knight's Hidden Princess
Chapter 58: Panicked Thoughts

Chapter 58: Panicked Thoughts

The scent of herbs and flowers filled the room as more healers from all over the kingdom came inside my room to attend to me. Different salve had been applied on my body all of them of different smell but the good thing about them was that they were effective. After some days, I noticed that the bruises around my eye and my mouth were starting to fade away.

Madam Heidi had also manage to get some of the tears of a mermaid salve which sped up the healing process. I was able to now walk without feeling any pain or discomfort. I was almost completely healed, faint for the few bruises on my face and some places on my body, I would be fine.

I was grateful for the rebels in a way because Madam Heidi had frowned at the scars on my shoulders. She ended up muttering some very colorful words at what the rebels did to me not knowing that it was injuries I had sustained from fighting with Reagan.

Another thing that changed was the way everyone seemed to be careful with me after finding out I was pregnant. Madam Heidi made sure everything was in place and had begun teaching me classes along with Amelia who was no stranger to it.

They had listed out food that I was going to be eating and listed things they deemed as too harsh for the baby. Amelia was surprisingly gentle with me and it was probably the closest that we’ve been and the longest words we’ve said to each other as she shared tales about her pregnancy and the mood swings and the craving that was sure to get more intense with each time.

Madam Heidi on the hand was quite strict with me. Every meal that was brought to me was inspected thoroughly by her and every move I made was under constant examination. It got to a point she started telling me what positions to sleep in and where I had lost it was when she had started talking about sexual positions that would be suitable in my condition.

Amelia had also chirped in telling me there would be a time in my pregnancy when I would be very horny and the sex would get more intense but the best way to have sex was with me facing down. Amelia and Madam Heidi seemed oblivious to my discomfort and they were so into the conversation they didn’t notice when I had slipped out of my room.

Gods above! I sighed heavily as I leaned against the door, at this point I do not think my body belongs to me anymore!

Pressing a hand to my face, I heaved out another sigh. My near-death experience led me to think I would face many things but listening to Amelia and Madam Heidi talk about positions for pregnancy sex was not one of them.

With a slight shake of my head, I straightened from the door and drew in a deep breath before I decided to proceed forward. Walking into the hallway brought a refreshing air that was a welcome relief from the herbs heavy odor in my bedroom. I drew in a deep breath selfishly welcoming the fresh air which was exactly what I needed at that moment.

I needed enough space to be able to breathe and to hear my own thoughts.

I don’t think anyone understands how I truly feel. How suffocating it was to be constantly reminded of a pregnancy I wasn’t sure I felt about yet and one the father didn’t know about. Although my body seemed foreign to me but at least I could decide on what to do with it.

Or so I hoped!

I was still lost in my thoughts when I suddenly collapsed into a hard chest. Warm strong hands, suddenly reached out to steady me and I looked up only to find my brother looking down at me.

"Bjorn." I called startled.

"What’s gotten your mind so preoccupied sister?" Bjorn asked me, "Are you sure you are okay?"

Heaving out a sigh, I stepped away from him. "Apart from the fact that ever since I’ve gotten here, I’ve been constantly fussed over, treated like I’m fragile and my body doesn’t feel like my own? I’m fine!" I said the last part having more bite than I intended.

Bjorn arched a brow up at me, "I’m guessing this is one of the pregnancy hormones that they spoke about?"

"By the hells Bjorn!" I groaned as I shoved away from my brother, "I swear if I hear one more talk about the pregnancy, I am going to scream."

"Alright, alright." Bjorn chuckled as he raised his hands in mock surrender, "But I thought you would be happy. Apart from the fact that a pregnancy is something most women look forward to, I thought you would be happy with all the attention you are getting."

I sighed, raking a hand through my hair in frustration. "Maybe that’s the point. I have gotten so used to not getting any attention that this feels strange to me!" I said before I turned back to look at Bjorn who was watching me with a wary look on his face, "Besides, it’s not the kind of attention I want. I can’t breathe, I can’t think, I can’t fucking hear my own thoughts and now I have to watch the way I sleep or I am going to kill the baby, it’s like my body doesn’t fucking belong to me anymore!" I yelled loudly.

Bjorn’s eyes immediately darted around, no doubt checking to see if we alone and no one had witnessed my outburst. Satisfied that no one had been there to witness it, Bjorn turned to look at me. "How about you calm down Dahlia?"

"That’s the thing, I can’t calm down." I said starting to breathe heavily, "I can’t calm down, no one will listen to me, no one listens to whatever I have to say, I can’t calm down Bjorn, I can’t..." St this point I was already starting to hyperventilate, my breath came out in sharp pants as I tried to speak.

Bjorn already knowing what was wrong with me immediately grabbed me and wrapped his arms around me firmly, "It’s okay Dahlia, you are okay now."

In the arms of the only person I ever considered, I allowed myself to break, sobbing while clutching him tightly and Bjorn allowed me even though he wasn’t supposed to. We were breaking a lot of protocols by being like this. Anyone could walk in on us at any moment, but I didn’t care. Right now, he ws my big brother and I was his sister he was trying to comfort.

"I don’t know what’s going on with you Dahlia," Bjorn whispered, "But whatever it is, you are going to be okay, I promise you."

I sniffed as I nodded my head still clutching Bjorn close to mine but deep down I knew, it was never going to be okay. His promises meant nothing to me since I knew the truth. Things could not just exist as it had been. Everything that had transpired made it impossible to return to the previous circumstances, not with everything that had happened. The child inside of me carried a weight that served as a reminder of my consequences, a tether I couldn’t escape.