It's Just A Picture (BL)
Chapter 308: The tumor in their hearts

Chapter 308: The tumor in their hearts

(TRIGGER: Emotional moment coming up, so keep your wipers, tissues, and handkerchiefs nearby.)

(Okay, I feel I wrote this Chapter a bit too deep and I started confusing myself that I might’ve not made sense in some places and mixed things up. If there’s anything that you don’t get, feel free to ask. I will gladly rectify and explain. And if you feel I wrote it right, no errors, just tell me how you felt about it in the comment section. Thanks.)

"I wanted to apologize," Minwoo said and let out a laugh. "But it seems there’s no need for that now."

"Yeah, no need for apologies."

"And..." Minwoo added, his smile slowly falling. "... I wanted to talk about this seriously. Please, don’t take this the wrong way but I feel..." He managed to raise his gaze and met Dongwoo’s eyes. "We both need therapy."

Dongwoo paused. What did Minwoo just say? Did they both need therapy? Why would he say that?

Minwoo looked at Minwoo’s stunned eyes and immediately began to explain, hoping he did not get the wrong idea.

"So, you see, you passed through your own share of traumas and I did mine. The doctor told me," he paused, pursing his lips as he felt his next words would only make things worse.

"Don’t stop." Dongwoo surprisingly said. "Tell me more. No one... No one ever advised me to get therapy before. I don’t even know if getting therapy was available for me. Maybe I didn’t suffer enough to need it. So, I wonder why you think I need therapy."

Minwoo looked at Dongwoo with shock in his eyes. It was like he had heard the most terrifying news ever.

"Hyung, you... You self-harm." Minwoo pointed out.

"Well, it did become an issue, and I guess it got worse because of Shinwoo, but I didn’t think too much about it. I got better after I stopped thinking of it."

Minwoo was even more shocked.

"So, you... You’ve been suffering, even before Shinwoo or any of your boyfriends in the past?" He asked and Dongwoo gave it a thought before letting out a sheepish smile.

"Yeah. But it’s all in the past." He said but how was Minwoo going to overlook it just like that?

As he stared at Dongwoo, his lips quivering, unable to let out any more words, a single tear rolled down his left eye.

How was he going to overlook that his brother suffered, was traumatized for unknown reasons, and just decided to shive it at the back of his heart, letting it grow like a tumor, only for it to affect his emotional status regularly?

How was he going to ignore that?

How has no one ever told Dongwoo that...? He was clearly suffering so much. He was... Just how did he live these past few years? His heart ached.

The cause of his traumas, the things he had to face later while enduring them, and the people he communicated with. How did he cope with all that and still not break down completely?

Wasn’t he close to anyone who could point out that he was suffering? That he should see a doctor? A therapist or a psychologist?

His soul was crumbling, and he did not know.

Ah...he grabbed his chest, his eyes rolling down, still in shock.

Or... Did he live his life thinking he did not need therapy? Staying strong and moving on? Just as his parents had told him to do instead of wasting time on useless pain.

More tears rolled down his cheeks, which was quite disturbing to Dongwoo.

"Minwoo, are you okay?" He asked but Minwoo could only cry, feeling pain beyond measure. "What’s wrong? Is it something I said?" He sat next to Minwoo and Minwoo hugged him.

’I want to know how much you suffered but at the same time, I’m scared to know how much you suffered. I feel it will only make me crumble. Just what... What have you been going through?’

Yes, there were signs of trauma but he felt it was just because of his past boyfriends who made him feel insecure, Shinwoo who downgraded him, torturing him mentally, and maybe because of how he lost his grandmother, the old lady who raised him.

So, it was more than that?

Just how much...?

"Minwoo, you’re scaring me." Dongwoo said and Minwoo raised his head to look at him with his teary eyes.

He held Dongwoo’s hands and smiled.

At least he was here with him now. He was no longer alone.

He did not know if the twins knew of this but chose to overlook it but he knew one thing. He would help his Hyung get rid of that tumor in his heart.

He smiled amidst his tears, looking relieved.

"Hyung, you are by far the strongest person I have ever met." He said and pressed his forehead on his hand. "You’re so strong that it’s stifling and scary. You don’t have to stay strong at all times. You don’t have to hide it. Don’t... Don’t hide the pain. I beg you. It will only make you suffer more. Please, Hyung. Don’t hide it."

He looked up and saw tears rolling down Dongwoo’s cheeks.

Then, Dongwoo, who had been stunned by his words, blinked and then touched his cheeks to find them wet.

"Ah, that’s weird." He said. "Why are my cheeks wet?"

He didn’t even realize he was crying.

Minwoo rested his forehead on his brother’s chest, interlocking their fingers and looking at them.

"Hyung, I want to be with you for a very long time." He looked sadly at their hands. "I don’t want to be separated from you. I... Love you so much."

(This is ominous, my God. What does the future have installed?)

"Minwoo," Dongwoo called and brushed his hair. "Let’s go for therapy." Minwoo’s eyes shot open. "If it’s as you said if I am suffering so much that it’s slowly killing me, then I should get cured as soon as possible, right?" He smiled down at him. "I know I’ve passed through painful moments and have never been happy till the twins came into my life a few months back. So I guess there was a reason for that. I just thought my life was just messed up. But it’s because of the traumas weighing me down." He looked up in the distance. "Now that you’ve pointed it out. I am starting to understand it clearly. I really do need therapy."

"Hyung," Minwoo called softly.

"Let’s both get our hearts treated, hm? Dongsaeng?" He tilted his head, smiling purely, and Minwoo nodded, smiling softly.

"Yes, Hyung."

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