Beast Alpha and His Cursed Luna
Chapter 267: Complicated emotions

Chapter 267: Complicated emotions

MAVERICK’S POV

I didn’t know what to do.

I have never felt helpless other than the night my parents died, as I am feeling right now, even after everything.

Standing before the door of the hotel room Valencia was staying in, I sighed.

She didn’t want to return to the council chambers and face anyone.

No. She didn’t tell me this, but her gaze did.

She, my girl, hasn’t spoken a word since I found her, and her silence has been killing me since then.

I would rather have her throw a tantrum, scream, cry, wail, yell at me, blame me for not being there sooner, for not saving her on time, or for letting so many things happen because I couldn’t deal with Cordelia earlier, but this silence.

I placed my forehead on the door, closing my eyes helplessly, trying to listen to any tiny voice to let me know she was moving inside the room and not sitting like the lifeless doll she had become.

My heart trembled for the umpteenth time as the sight of her looking back at me in that dungeon, her chest exposed and her eyes lifeless, flashed in my mind again, haunting me.

"Valencia, talk to me, please," I tried to fumble with the doorknob, but just like I had thought, the door was locked from inside.

’Can we not break the lock?’ Reaper asked, feeling equally powerless, and I sighed.

We can’t. Those guys had already invaded her privacy and dignity, and she felt broken and shattered from within. If I broke the lock and forced my way inside, I might break something I can never correct.

’No,’ I whispered before leaning on the door and sliding down, sitting with my back to it.

Shadow walked inside the corridor I was sitting in and looked at me pitifully.

I know what he was thinking about.

"Sir," Shadow whispered.

I shook my head at him. I didn’t need his pity or comfort.

After everything Valencia went through because of my incompetence, I didn’t deserve anyone’s emotions, be it of any type.

"Sir, you did good. I know it must’ve been hard for you. To look into the eyes of the person who destroyed the meaning of love for you seven years ago and took away the people you loved at the same time, to kill your biggest enemy that resided within you and fight back and kill your mate, it must’ve been hard," Shadow said.

He placed his hand around my shoulder, and I looked down at my hands, suddenly feeling emotional.

Was it hard?

The images of my parents’ dead bodies, blood oozing out of their wounds as they looked at me lifelessly, had flashed before me. The way I had found Cordelia with my brother and the blood-tainted knife in his hands and her smug face had flashed before me.

It was hard for me to move for a second. But among all those images, one image flashed the hardest before my eyes: Valencia’s humiliated eyes.

It was the disappointment in her eyes, the disappointment in not just me but within herself. In the image where I saw her hands burnt to a degree, I wasn’t even sure if the healing would remove the scars.

That image and the promise I made to her to protect her with my life, that she was my everything, echoed in my head, and it was enough for me to take that split decision and kill Cordelia.

I know I would be facing issues because of what I did.

An Alpha killed his mate before the council members without any evidence or proof, without the actual verdict being held, and I was going to face some punishment for it for sure to make an example for others.

However, I was ready for it.

As long as it ensured my woman would be fine, I was ready for it, but she...

Tears brimmed my eyes, and I quickly blinked away, not wanting to appear weak before my beta. Though he was my best friend, he was my subordinate, and it was my duty not to show my weakness to my people because, for them, I was their shield.

A shield can’t appear weak.

"Sir, you know you can --" Shadow started but took a deep breath before standing.

"I will send something to eat for you guys," He looked at the locked door before shaking his head.

"I hope you understand that what she went through is enough to give people a lifetime of trauma, sir. You need to handle the situation with utmost sincerity. She...," Shadow sighed before he left.

I placed my hand on my face, covering my eyes to wipe away the slight moistness that was threatening to leave my eyes and let everyone know what I was feeling.

I knew my woman was hurt. Who could know about it better than me?

I didn’t want to force my way into her sadness and comfort her. Why? Because I was scared.

Yes, the strongest alpha of the alphas was scared. He was scared of losing his woman.

Taking a deep breath, I again placed my forehead on the door.

"Please open the door, Mitsuki. Please, I beg of you. I... Just let me be close to you. I won’t make a noise. If you want, I’ll stay inside the room like the non-existent air," I whispered. Thinking she wasn’t going to open the door anytime soon, I was about to sit back down when the doorknob fumbled.

Valencia opened the door.

I looked at her. She had just been freshly bathed and was wearing a new set of clothes. Her eyes were dull but not lifeless like earlier.

"I’m sorry. Did you wait for too long? I was taking a bath," she said nonchalantly and walked inside the room.

Are you okay? I wanted to ask her, but the sentence stuck in the back of my throat.

She dried her hair in the large mirror and took a deep breath.

"I am hungry. Can you ask someone to arrange food for me?" She asked with a smile, and I nodded at her.

I mindlinked Shadow to bring food as I continued to look at her.

She plopped on the couch of the living room before using her phone.

"By the way, I heard you made some invasions in the rogue’s head bases. What was that like? Do they have any new weapons that we should be caring about?" Valencia asked without looking at me, and I hummed.

I walked to her and sat close.

I wanted to hold her hand, but for some reason, I wasn’t able to find the courage to touch her today.

It was almost as if...

"I am not sure if I told you this, but I have a rogue team that I built slowly when I was a rogue. They will be attacking the rogues who have been invading the packs and trying to take over. This way, we can weaken their force. Those rogues are loyal to me and are even ready to make a pack of the pack I want. Can you send me -" Valencia paused when she got a call.

She stood from her place and walked to the balcony to receive the call.

’She seems fine,’ Reaper said.

I gulped.

I knew what he was trying to say here.

She seemed fine, but she wasn’t exactly fine. All Valencia was doing was suppressing her emotions and sadness deep within her heart, smiling and faking her positivity and nonchalance so she wouldn’t have to face what she went through.

This was even worse than before, and I bit my bottom lip, unsure if I should provoke her and make her release her emotions right now or give her some time.

I looked at the girl who was talking to someone with a serious expression and noticed her hands trembling while she stood, clearly indicating how she was struggling with her emotions.

Shadow entered the room after knocking and placing the food on the table.

He looked at Valencia before looking at me.

"Is she okay?" He asked.

I noticed Valencia’s expression slipping as soon as Shadow said those words, the expression that she masked completely behind her half-serious, half-smiling look.

I looked at Shadow before ordering him a few things about dealing with this matter and the news that would spread about my beast killing once again.

"Don’t let Valencia’s information appear anywhere. If they want, they can say that I did it to take revenge on my mate who had betrayed me," I told Shadow.

He paused and looked at me, knowing all too well how bad this would be for me, and I might be stripped of my position as the most potent alpha in the world.

They might even go as far as banning me from future meetings and my pack members from attending any werewolf facilities, such as hospitals, schools, corporations, and many more.

I knew it all well but would rather suffer than let anyone taint her name.

Shadow took a deep breath before sighing and nodding.

"We are with you in your decision, alpha," He said, and I hummed before dismissing him.