World After Worlds
Chapter 224 - 224: AUTHENTIC

"Can you hear yourself? Are you losing your mind?" Yashnile laughed with no humor, "You're being ridiculous each second." Yazeno gritted his teeth and glared at the clear water beneath his feet.

'Losing his mind? Ridiculous?' How could Yashnile understand him, anyway? Why bother to explain?

"You don't understand, you wouldn't understand me!" He exclaimed and formed a fist on his hands. No one would understand what he was going through. "My feelings are authentic, you don't know how much it pains me whenever I think that she's my sister and we can't be together and she has someone else to love. I've been repressing and keep on reminding myself that I can never have this for her, but I do. I do, Kuya, and I am not ashamed, but I'm scared, I'm terrified that she will… loathe me and never see me again. I can't, I can't let that happen. I don't want to lose her even if she's not mine." Yashnile didn't know what to say, he could see that Yazeno was not lying about his confession.

Nonetheless, Yashnile couldn't accept it, Yazeno's claim was nothing but atrocious. They are family, how could Yazeno think of Yanarym as someone that he could love romantically? No, this isn't possible…

"She's our sister." Yashnile muttered with a grave expression, "You were not really in love with her Yazeno, you can't be. That's all an illusion, you are in heat and you see Rym as someone---"

"She's my sister, I know that Kuya, I knew it well and I love her too, more than just my sister, I love her as a woman," Yazeno said in conviction, he stared back to Yashnile's confused eyes, and yet Yazeno had a determined and assured emotion in it.

"You can't love her." Yazeno paused, he crossed his brows and couldn't comprehend what Yashnile told him.

It seems like Yazeno was not the only one who was baffled by the circumstances. He could understand that Yashnile will never consider this love he has for Yanarym as an emotion.

Yashnile is a perfect man, he had never committed any mistake but Yazeno doesn't consider these feelings as mistakes. Instead, this was the only right thing that happened to him.

"Why can't I? Why can't I love Yanarym?" He refuted his statement and felt displeased hearing Yashnile's reason. "We came from the same mother and father but that's not a restriction. We have the same blood on our veins but that won't be the reason why I can't love her."

"Zen, you sound real..."

"I'm not bound to those norms Kuya, those laws are only making me feel bad for myself. But I am happy whenever I am with her, and I know for sure that this is not temporary, this was no illusion because if it was I wouldn't long for her over and over again..." Yashnile couldn't say a word, "And believe me, I tried, I tried to turn this feeling to someone else, but I keep coming back."

"She won't recognize your feelings, do you know that?" Yazeno bit his lips inward after hearing this from Yashnile. Certainly, he was aware, that's why it hurts like hell. It's like living hell and heaven at the same time.

"Of course, I was prepared to keep it hidden." He sighed and looked at the transparent water coming from the falls. "I won't do it again, so please don't tell her." He continued to beg him and Yashnile didn't know what to reply. "I will keep my distance from this point on."

"You can't do that."

"What?"

"She will be worried, if you want to keep that feeling of yours, don't make it hard for her."

"You believe me?" Yazeno was surprised looking at Yashnile's serious expression as if he was contemplating something. Yashnile saw Yanarym and Cailly coming back from the forest and didn't answer Yazeno's query.

"They're back, wipe off your snot, you look like I mistreated you."

"Kuya! Zen! Are you not done yet talking? The water feels refreshing, come on!" Yanarym yelled at them and the two joined the two women.

The sun was setting and they returned to the vacation house. Yanarym bids good night to everyone and heads to her room as soon as they get home. Yazeno and Yashnile had a conversation to continue on the balcony, so Cailly was left alone in the kitchen. As she was cleaning their things, she heard a ringtone in Yazeno's bag. And saw Yanarym's phone with Lawrence on the caller's ID.

Suddenly, she had her palms and feet cold. Her heart raced and she panicked looking at the caller. She took deep breaths trying to calm her nerves. It's been a long time since the last time she talked to Lawrence. When the graduation happened and he indicated the love she had for him, she started to deliberately avoid him. She doesn't want to cause trouble and she was hurt by the fact that Lawrence had told her. Because maybe he was right, he wanted Yanarym's spot at his heart that why she tried to ruin them with Movu's name. She doesn't want to become a person with bad intentions and use love as an excuse for her evil deeds.

She wanted to move on and used her masters to get away and forget. She thought she had already forgotten him but she guessed wrong. Seeing his name-calling on her sister's phone, made her heart jump out of her chest. Was it wrong to feel happy that she could hear him again? Or expect something from him if ever they had a conversation? It is. Because he's someone else.

She took a deep breath, trying to dissipate all of her thoughts. She counted one to ten and if the phone kept on ringing she would answer it, and it kept on ringing when it died, he immediately called again. This time, she pressed the green button but had another deep breath before answering it.