Vengeance of The Broken Lycan Prince [BL]
Chapter 256: This Much Desire, Together We Are Winners, No?

Chapter 256: This Much Desire, Together We Are Winners, No?

[TAMIKO]

"He was captured for five days, uncle. Five long days and all I ever did was murder people and question his best friend over and over in the worst of ways. If he knows what I did to Akila, he will never forgive me.

"It’s already hard enough that I failed to rescue him in time. Hell, I wasn’t even the one who got him back. Papa had to step in and help me out, which was even more embarrassing.

"I can’t sleep without thinking of what he went through, uncle. I feel angry all the time, even when I see him smile because I know he is hurting and there isn’t much I can do about it," Tamiko sighed as he stared at the palace kitchens.

This place was a beauty, Tamiko just released. It may have been an ancient setup, but it was the kind of beauty that seemed to be pulling Tamiko in. He had to get a break from the madness he considered his life.

He had come here to try and clear his head and yet it seemed like there wasn’t much of that happening. His stress was more than obvious and it was making even his uncle feel it.

Anyone close enough would have known what it felt to be in that space and frankly, it was terrifying for Tamiko.

This was not how he had imagined that life would go and yet here he was, desperate for something to hold onto while he tried to figure out the best thing for his Erasthai. Was it too much for him to ask though?

"Has he told you that?" Sadako asked softly.

He could see the way that Tamiko was struggling and frankly it broke his heart too.

His nephew deserved all the love in the world and yet as they stared at each other, as time kept going on and on without stopping, Lord Sadako could see that there was always going to be more to this.

He wanted to say something to ease his nephew’s pain, but there wasn’t a thing in the universe that he would ever be able to let out to put Tamiko at ease with the demons in his head.

That was a painful truth and the Lycan Lord hated every bit of it. Maybe there would be better days and they wouldn’t have to suffer through the long horrifying scary nights, right?

"No... I can’t even begin to ask him. I pushed him away for two weeks after he was kidnapped and now all I want is the head of these will hurt him, I don’t even know what to do. What I know is I can’t sleep peacefully without getting him justice.

"But uncle, am I supposed to be killing everyone I meet along the way? What if I never get back home to him? What if I go on a murdering spree and stay the monster he doesn’t recognize?

"What if I become the person he can’t stomach? What if I am too weak to even protect him again?" Tamiko asked defeatedly. He had been thinking a lot about this and Sadako could see that.

For a moment he wanted to tell the kid that this was the one stage of life that was filled with so many uncertainties, but that was not what Tamiko wanted to hear, and that too from his uncle dearest.

Perhaps the Lycan Lord just had to improvise right? But even if he did, what were the chances that any of this would ever be able to make sense to anyone, much less the palace they were at emotionally?

"Love is not easy, Kaito. It doesn’t come with a manual. What I know for certain, is that overthinking things will not get you anywhere. You can blame yourself all you want, but at the end of the day, you will still be in the same spot;

"... unless you ask the right people the questions whose answers you need," Sadako said as he poured Tamiko some of the coffee he had prepared.

This was a hard night for them both, and while Tamiko had always been curious as to why his uncle never slept at night, he did not want to intrude.

There were just some limits that even he couldn’t cross no matter how much his uncle loved him. This was one of them and Tamiko just stared. It was all he could do as he listened to his uncle try to make sense of everything that was happening to him.

It didn’t matter how long this would take as long as they found a central ground, but was there any hope for that where they were now?

Was it something they could cling to or was this just an uncle and a nephew meeting that would forever end in misery and unsolved mysteries in their lives then?

"But uncle..." Tamiko tried like it was supposed to make Sadako have a change of heart.

"Your Erasthai is a highly trained Lycan Chief, kid. He is always, always alert. Do you think he doesn’t notice that you haven’t slept the night beside him all these weeks? Do you think he doesn’t probably blame himself for that?

"You managed to ease him into accepting himself as an omega, and yet you are here, not even on the bed with him. By daybreak, you both will be doing your work only to end up on the same bed, but you will still be out of it for longer.

"Did you ever stop to think of what the omega is feeling?" Lord Sadko scolded, snapping his nephew back into the reality the kid was running away from.

The Lycan lord knew that this could be the easiest of things for the young prince, but surely, he had to be able to take care of his mate’s needs, right? His Erasthai was always going to be seeking him out regardless of what he did.

And it was even more insulting to Kosta for Tamiko to assume that such a highly trained warrior wouldn’t feel the shift in the balance. Perhaps he just had to wait it out and see where the tides sent them no?

Then again what if there was nothing left after all of that? What if it was just pain and pain until the very end just because none of this would be easier for them?

"I can’t face him, uncle," Tamiko complained as he drank his coffee.

He was worried he wouldn’t be able to be the best version of himself for Kosta. Maybe he was blaming himself a little too much, but he had a man who loved him and who was waiting for him.

There was never going to be an excuse mature enough to explain what he was doing to Kosta right now and he needed to face that. Perhaps Lord Sadako would be able to guide him through, right?

Surely that wasn’t as hard as having to go to war daily, right?

"The longer you stay away from him, the longer he will feel unwanted and start questioning himself or even what he believed was there for you both. Omegas who don’t have one to rely on, either die from extreme heartbreak, or they seek comfort elsewhere..."