Vengeance of The Broken Lycan Prince [BL]
Chapter 246: Somewhere Over The Rainbow

Chapter 246: Somewhere Over The Rainbow

* Happy Valentines y’all

[KONSTANTIN]

"Lost for words, are we? You seemed to know what you wanted three weeks ago. How interesting... things have changed," Tamiko taunted and Kosta just stared at his Erasthai’s feet.

He didn’t know what he could do to get Tamiko to trust him again, to look at him like before and it was stressful. If this is the reality he would eat live in, Kosta was sure he wouldn’t survive another week.

It was too much and he was never going to be ready for that.

But then it seemed like realization had hit him so suddenly because he lifted his head to look at his adamant Erasthai who was staring at him with a bored face, something that unfortunately Kosta had started getting accustomed to.

It was better for Tamiko to look at him boredly than to not be paying attention to him at all. Maybe Kosta was grasping at straws, but he could not be blamed for hoping.

"So, you’re mad at me... you don’t hate me... you’re just mad at me... what a relief," Kosta sighed in relief like he had just been amazed to solve the toughest equation just yet. It had been a long three weeks and frankly.

If he had lost Tamiko, Kosta was sure he would never recover. Perhaps that was why he took a breath as he stared at the most beautiful man the fates had given him. If Tamiko ever got to forgive him, Kosta was sure he would never try to fuck that up.

The time he had suffered felt like it was more than the endless years he had spent bounty hunting while hiding the fact that he was an omega. Even these times hadn’t been as hard as the past few weeks and even the moon goddess had to have known that.

The only problem was whether Tamiko was willing to compromise. Kosta had hurt him and it was no secret. So, what the fuck were they going to do this time then?

"What?" Tamiko asked sincerely.

He wasn’t sure who they had gone from whatever that was to this like it wasn’t that essential to them. In that passing moment, Tamiko’s rigid face fell and Kosta saw the person he had hurt, just enough for Tamiko to pull his guard back up.

It was a high that would haunt Kosta for years and he could only hope that the coming days would be kinder to them. Was that even a possibility this time? Would it ever be alright for the both of them?

"Let me make this right... I’m sorry, my soul. For all of it, I’m so sorry," Kosta pleaded, repeating the words he had been singing each time he ran into Tamiko.

They were the words that had become his mantra and a symbol of his desperation to get his Erasthai back, he loved him, and everyone in the realm had to have known that.

All he wanted to do was get into Tamiko’s good graces again and frankly, he’s willing to do the impossible just to see it happen.

"Good for you," Tamiko said dismissively and Kosta sighed in defeat.

"I... I have never been scared my whole life... but that day, I was, and it horrified me," Kosta spoke as he got up and walked behind Tamiko who was still ignoring him.

Well, as long as Tamiko wasn’t commanding him to leave, Kosta could handle the little space they had between them, the space he had instigated. Oh, but it was a mistake he would never make again.

His life had been shitty so much that he wouldn’t want it to ever get to this appointment if they ever got out of this stance.

"I wasn’t scared because I am an omega, dusha. I was scared of what being mated to me would mean for you. It was easier being with you when I knew you didn’t have to have to always be on the lookout for anyone who was hurting me.

"I didn’t want to pile that responsibility on you and I didn’t want you to always think that I was a burden. I was scared because I would just drag you down and you just got to know your father.

"You didn’t get to explore the shelf away yet and there was already an ultimatum in your life. That’s why I chose to die instead of you. I had known that that day would come eventually given the way the ministers had been plotting against you, but I didn’t think it would be that soon.

"Maybe I acted irrationally, maybe I should have told you about it. But you seemed happy. You were happier with me and I couldn’t be the reason your happiness ended," Kosta breathed as he stared at the man he had been mated to.

He knew Tamiko wasn’t going to take this kindly, but Kosta had always sworn to be honest. He wanted his Erasthai to know what they were getting into and what this meant.

Perhaps that made him a dumb fuck given the way that Tamiko had been treating him, but he was the bastard who belonged to the Lycan prince, status or not. He was just a man who had wanted to make things better but instead had managed to make it all worse.

Maybe he shouldn’t have pushed Tamiko away, but then knowing Tamiko, shit would have still gone sideways. It wasn’t even debatable seeing as their lives had changed so much in one day.

It was like they never had a thing to hold onto and now that their fates had been jumbled, Kosta didn’t even know what to think anymore. So defeatedly, he continued.

"If they took me to the dungeon, I would spend at least a hundred years before I would’ve let out. That isn’t a long time for us who have been cursed with eternal life. I just didn’t expect that you would fight back and embrace your true nature.

"I never wanted you to come out as the prince unless you were ready, and let’s face it, that day, you weren’t. That’s why I couldn’t ask that of you. I could not burden you with the cruelty of a realm I had lived in my entire life.

"I promised to make you happy, perhaps that’s why I had intended to tell you that I would be going out for a bounty for a hundred years and would be back as soon as possible. Maybe I was too selfish, but everything I did, I did it because I love you.

"I don’t know how to live in a world that doesn’t have you in it, dusha. I don’t know how to spend my days without you by my side and I’m sorry I pushed you away. I just didn’t know what to do.

"I didn’t mean to get kidnapped too, but if I had to do whatever it took to protect you and see you happy, I would do it again, differently this time, but I would not think twice about saving your life or being there for you.

"You don’t have to say anything now, I just wanted you to know that I really am sorry about what happened. It wasn’t fair to you and I should have thought hard about it before deciding unilaterally.

"I love you... I’ll go now," Kosta said even though he was not sure what this would mean for the both of them. Maybe this was relaying it, but a part of him still hoped that Tamiko didn’t have a heart of steel for him.

"So, you’re just going to leave me again, hmm?"