The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 546: Guilt

Chapter 546: Guilt

Blue

I look around this place.

This place that he has made his home and it feels like a prison to me. I don’t think he is genuinely happy in this solace.

I know that deep down, Major deserves more and I wish there was a way I could convince him to come back with me. I wish there was a way I could get him to help me. I wish I was good at convincing people but here I am. Under this tunnel, seeing all these people in hiding. People that I have known all my life.

Living like sewer rats.

This is not a good life but he can’t see that and I don’t know how to convince him. Gyles wants to leave, he doesn’t even think it is a good idea to involve Major. I know that he doesn’t trust him but I also know the kind of magic that Major is capable of and I know that he can help us.

Truly help us. But he won’t. I don’t understand why he is settling for this when he could have so much more.

"So I guess this is it?’’ I manage, trying to hide my disappointment.

He nods as a kid runs past us and I watch as he stops in front of a large man who just lifts him up.

"Is this the life you want, this constant struggle to stay hidden? You brought all these people here, hiding from the people that did this to you."

I know I am manipulating him to get his attention. I know that Major doesn’t like the situation. No one will just accept this kind of situation and make it normal. If there even was a way to make this right. I know he would help. I know that he would. "This is not the life you want for yourself, Major. You wanted more." He shakes his head, "I don’t know what I want anymore. I want to help you but I don’t want to risk all these people’s lives. Do you know all the things they have been through?"

I completely understand "You have to believe that I will fix this."

He scoffs "You didn’t fix things the last time, why should I believe you now when you left me, knowing full well that I was in trouble."

So that is what this is about.

Suddenly, I feel a pang in my chest. The guilt that I have been keeping inside me. Major helped me when I needed him. He brought Rex back to us and I never got the chance to even properly thank him. I never got the chance to even return the favour.

At that point, I didn’t have the time.

I didn’t want to leave him but he said he was going to be okay. He told me to leave, so I don’t even know where this is coming from.

"You told me to leave, I didn’t have a choice at that point."

He scoffs loudly "Everyone has a choice. You chose to leave and I don’t blame you for that. I don’t hate you for leaving, I just don’t want to be dragged into another mess because when it comes down to it, you will only protect your mates."

"You know that is not true."

He shakes his head "We don’t have to argue about it. You do you Blue. Make sure you don’t get swallowed back into the coven.’’

"Major." He looks at me, "I am not going to tell you what to do but I also wish you would just think about this.’

He looks away from me and I see the look in his eyes. There is no convincing him. He has made up his mind.

"Okay, I get it. Thank you anyways for all the things you have done for me. I will never forget it."

I leave the tunnel with Gyles and we get back to the car. There is a defeated look on my face and I am sure that he can tell but he remains silent until we get back to the hotel. Once the car is parked, I turn to him.

"I don’t know why this is affecting me as much as it is. I actually thought he was going to help us."

He reaches for me "He is scared, I completely understand where he is coming from. He doesn’t even owe us anything.’’ I know that he is right but I am not ready to move on from that point. "I know, I just wish I could have convinced him to. If I knew how he felt. I wouldn’t have left him. I would have found a way to bring him with us.’’

"Stop dwelling on the past. I need you to focus on going into the coven, I need you to focus on getting to your mother and fixing things. That is the only way Major can move on from the past. That is the only way everyone can move on from all that has happened."

He is right.

"I guess you are right. I should head over to the coven,’’ My eyes dart to the clock and I see that it is eleven in the night. Almost midnight.

"You should come out and say goodbye to Rex.’’

I nod and we get down from the car together. Rex opens the door immediately and his eyes are filled with worry. He has been waiting for us. He was worried but he waited.

He jumps into my arms immediately and he is small against me. The warmth I feel from his body is overwhelming and everything I need at this moment. It takes away all the worry and I feel like I can breathe again. He looks up at me, "Thank God you are back,’’ he reaches for Gyles and somehow we fit perfectly together.

The three of us in an embrace. It is like it was meant to be. I had never felt this close to anyone ever. It feels so right. This is the family I want, the family I always wanted. I have always felt alone and this is my family and I belong with them.

For the first time in a long time, I feel complete.