The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 455: A part of Lanis

Chapter 455: A part of Lanis

Beau

I open my eyes and I am back in the room, in his arms.

I saw him in my dreams but it felt so real. I don’t know how long I was out but I want to go back to that world where he is awake. I don’t want this world where he is covered in bruises and lifeless.

Do the right thing.

His words come into my head as I turn to look at him. He wants me to do the right thing, which just means that being in his room, twenty-four-seven is the wrong thing.

I thought the right thing was to stay with him, but he says it is to leave.

I wish I could make him wake up. Make him see that I am not going anywhere, even though that is what he wants me to do. It is hard for me to just walk away from him right now but if I don’t, I know that he will never forgive me.

Lanis would not want me to suffer like this.

I have to do the right thing.

I stand up and place a soft kiss on his lips. Leaving this room is harder than I thought it would be. I am lingering by him, hoping that he will wake up and stop me from leaving.

I have to do the right thing.

I take a step and then another and then I am out the door. I close it gently behind me and take a deep breath. I can do this. I can leave him, for a couple of hours. I can choose to focus on something else. I want to see our babies. I want to hold them; I want to feel them. I need to do that.

I walk down the hall and go into the nursery and there they are, my babies. I reach out and run a finger over the top of their heads. They have soft hair, just like their Lanis. I am still getting used to them being here, to the fact that they are real.

I reach out and stroke my hand over their heads and when I do, they move. They move under my touch; it is the first time they have done that. I am so happy, to feel them move. I have been waiting for this moment for so long but now that it is here, I can’t help but feel sad that he is not here with me to share this moment with me.

This little milestone would have meant so much to him. I need to find a way to make it mean just as much to me. I don’t want to be sad and I don’t want to be angry with myself. I want to focus on what he wants me to focus on but it is really hard.

I look at them and they look so much like him. I know it is too early to tell. They are only ten days old but I can see the similarities. They are small and pink and their hair is already coming in. I can see their fathers’ eyes in them.

I smile at them and reach out to touch their tiny hands. They feel so small in my hands. I hold them and I can’t help but think about how small and fragile they are.

I am afraid that I am going to break them. I am afraid that I won’t be able to take good care of them, that I can’t do this on my own.

You don’t have to do this on your own. Give it time, he will come back to you.

My wolf tells me calmly, almost like he knows something that I don’t. I wish I could have a dream of the future right now. I wish I could see another happy time with all of us. One that will assure me that he is going to be okay.

I look at the babies again and I want to believe my wolf. I want to believe that things will be alright and that my Lanis will come back to me. I want to believe that everything will be alright. I let go of their fingers and get ready to pick one up.

I don’t know how to do this but I want to be able to do this. I want to be able to hold my babies like I know that Lanis will. The door opens just as I am about to and I look up to see Bells by the door.

She opens her eyes wide, probably shocked that I am here right now. Bells has been one of the people that has been trying to convince me to come out of the hospital room. She has been trying to get me to come and see them and right now, mixed with her shock, I can see the joy in her eyes.

"You are here,’’ she breathes out walking closer to me.

"Yes,’’ I say slowly.

I am not sure what to do right now. "You know they have been crying for you. Why don’t you carry one of them.’’?

"I don’t know how,’’ I say to her.

"You will learn,’’ she says. "I will help you."

"I don’t want to hurt them.’’

"You won’t, you will be fine. They are your babies. You will learn how to take care of them, they are a part of you.’’

"I am not sure what to do with them. I am not sure what to do with two of them.’’

"You can start by picking one up,’’ she says.

I look at her and then at the babies and slowly I reach out and pick one up. It is so tiny, so fragile. I don’t know what to do with it. I hold it close to me and look at her.

"What now,’’ I ask, my voice full of fear.

"You are holding him,’’ she says.

I look at him and I can feel his tiny heart beating against my hands. I can feel his tiny chest moving up and down. I can feel him.

"I am holding him,’’ I say.

"Yes, you are. You are holding your son,’’ she says and I can see the tears in her eyes.

I look at him and I think about the fact that he is a part of Lanis. I think about the fact that he is a part of me too.

I have been so stupid avoiding them. A part of me was scared because they are a part of Lanis but now, that is the one thing that makes this more magical.

I have pieces of my Lanis and they are here with me.

Search the lightnovelworld.cc website on Google to access chapters of novels early and in the highest quality.