The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 228: The memory I wanted to forget

Chapter 228: The memory I wanted to forget

Gyles.

Memories.

The ceremony is supposed to start in an hour. In the ceremony, they are supposedly going to wake me up and make me who I really am.

I am in my room, or should I say the basement. I hear a knock on the door "Come in,’’ I shout already knowing who he is. Fenris walks into the room with a smile on his face. He is so excited for tonight—a lot more than I am. I am just doing this for him. I want to get to the point where he trusts me so that I can go and look for Roger. I have missed him so much. I have been thinking of the things I will say to him.

He must think I am already dead.

He might have moved on?

I never asked him to wait for me and I will completely understand if he has but there is a part of me that hopes he doesn’t move on. The part of me that loves him so much. the part of me that gave him my heart.

"Are you ready for tonight,’’ he asks.

I grab the pair of shorts on the bed. Apparently, that is all I am supposed to wear. Shorts. He said I will turn, so I shouldn’t have more than shorts. I haven’t really accepted the part fo me that is Lycan but I will do this for him. I will accept it all for him because the man in front of me has been through so much. I think about all he has gone through and all the anger that I felt for him killing my family wipes away. Revenge is not the best thing. It eats at your soul, turns you into a monster and I don’t think he is a monster. He had every right to kill them. He wanted to get his son back.

I have been rationalizing his actions. Trying to understand him and slowly, I have been coming to understand him.

"I guess I am,’’ I tell him.

He smiles.

"Would I be able to leave this basement once it is done?’’ I ask him.

He nods immediately "of course. You know you are not a prisoner. You know that this is just for your own safety.’’

I nod because he has explained it to me so many times. At first, I felt like a prisoner but now, he leaves the doors open. He makes sure I can come out when I want to bit most times, I just want to stay inside. It is comforting knowing that I don’t have anything to do most times. I know the responsibilities will come. I know that eventually, I will have to take on some things in the pack, but for now, there is not too much pressure on me.

"Yeah, I know, thanks,’’ I tell him.

He smiles, I can see the excitement in his eyes. It took a long time for me to be here but I have finally reached a place of acceptance. I know who I am and I am going to take it all with pride. There is no denying anymore and I will not hate the man that has gone through so much. I have accepted him as my father and I will not let him down.

Nighttime comes and all l the nerves that I have been feeling all day dissipate. There is a bonfire outside, from my window, I can see glimpses of people. Their shadows most times, but there is no curiosity in me to know what is happening outside.

Will walks into my room with a smile. "You ready?’’ he urges me but in that instant, we both hear a scream so loud that it echoes through the walls. I freeze at first because this just feels like de ja vu. I already know that something bad is about to happen.

"What was that?’’ I ask Will.

He looks at the door for a couple of seconds and I sense the fear inside him. he knows too that something has happened "Stay here,’’ he tells me before walking out of the room. I hear the click of the lock. He just locked me inside. There is no way I can come out now.

The sounds of cries get louder. This is all too familiar. My body responds to the cries like the last time something like this happened. An ambush. The last time we were attacked. I walk over to the window. I see the fire, it is still bright and booming but here I am, in my room unable to do anything. I try to budge the doors open but to no avail. He kept it tight in order to protect me and now I can’t do anything to protect them. The door opens finally but it is from the outside.

I see the man. His eyes are red, and there is an evil smile on his face as he tries to grab me. I am dressed in only the pair of shorts I was given for the ceremony. I try to dodge him but he is too fast. "what do we have here?’’ he asks as he grabs me around my neck. I groan from the pain of his grip. I try to push him off me but he is too strong.

His scent is strong. I recognize him as one of my kind. He is a vampire. Just like me. he drags me out of the house until we get outside. I see everyone, the whole pack. murdered in cold blood. My eyes search for him. Fenris, the man that has suffered in his lifetime. I pray silently, that he found a way to escape, that he didn’t suffer the same fate as his people.

My eyes find him immediately, in a corner in the compound. There is a hole in his chest. His eyes are open and the smell of death enters my nostrils. I push away from the man that brought me out and he lets me run over to him. I grab him immediately; I already know that there is nothing I can do. He is dead, everyone is dead.

They killed them all.

"No,’’ I manage as the tears fall out of my eyes. I don’t know what to do. There is nothing I can do. They killed them all and they will do the same to me.

"What is a vampire doing in a werewolf community,’’ the man walks up to me.

His eyes are still red. He is murderous right now and he wouldn’t spare me. one of the men with him walks over to him "What should we do to him. he is one of our kind. Cassius never told us to kill vampires." He asks.

The other man grabs his phone from his pocket and I watch them unsure of what to do. I don’t even have the energy to run. I am weak right now because now it seems like I am the problem. I cause pain for everyone around me. people that are around me always end up dying. There is nothing I can do but be alone.

"Hello boss,’’ the man breathes into the phone.

I close my eyes as they continue the conversation "There is a vampire here, what should we do with him?’’

I wait, i hear the voice on the other end. It sounds so familiar. My heart hurts even though I can’t pinpoint it right now.

"Is he one of them?’’ the person on the other end asks.

"It seems like he is."

’’Kill him,’’ he tells them. I am already numb to it all and now dying doesn’t seem like a bad idea. The best thing for me to do right now is die. The vampire ends the call and releases a heavy sigh.

"I didn’t sign up for killing vampires. This is not what I agreed to.’’ He tells his partner. Who just shrugs nonchalantly. They came here with the intent to kill and now they are acting like they are decent people.

"Just lock him up in the basement, he will eventually die,’’ one other person walks over to us and suggest.

They drag me back to the basement. The place I have spent the last five years and they close the door on me. leaving me to rot.

I sit on the bed as my heart breaks. I don’t know what I was expecting but I just needed a break. I just needed the hurt to stop. Slowly, I close my eyes, and then I do the only thing that makes sense right now.

I shut it off.

My humanity, everything that makes me, me.

I let go because there is no point living. The walls I am in will close and I will perish with everyone here. The way it should be.

When this is all over. I will finally be free. I will finally be away from all the misery and I just don’t want to remember this day.