The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 227: Remember

Chapter 227: Remember

Gyles.

You can trust him.

I want to listen to my wolf because everything that has happened to me has been because I have refused to listen to my wolf but I don’t know if he is sincere right now. the look on his face tells me everything I need to know.

He hates me right now.

He hates me because of the things I have done and I don’t blame him. I have been selfish and I used him and I don’t blame him for the way he feels about me. The moment he reaches for me, my heart skips a beat from his touch. I still don’t understand how my feelings could just change overnight but for the first time in my whole existence. I am sure about something. I am sure that I love him. I am sure that he and rex will make me the happiest I will ever be. I have been so blind to it all and maybe having sex with him needed to happen. Yesterday made me see things clearly for what they really are and even though I might have pissed him off along the lines. I want to make things right.

Rex is on a mission to figure out how we can make things right in time for the next full moon. I don’t know what it means. I don’t know what we have caused by what we did last night but I want to fix it with him.

I want to make things right.

He seems to have shut me out completely but deep down I know that as long as I am alive. There will always be a part of him that will love me. just the same way, I didn’t want him but always found myself wanting to be around him.

I close my eyes because his touch is electric and he is not even doing it on purpose. I hear him murmur so low. It almost sounds like he is speaking another language. We are in the middle of the compound. Right now, I am using all the strength I have to stay on my feet. Ever since yesterday, I have felt weak. I don’t know why but it must be because of how angry I made him. he cut ties with me and my wolf felt the most of it. he has been pretty silent all through the night. I know I said I wanted him to shut up but now I miss him. it feels like a crucial part of me is being shut off and it is not a nice feeling.

I will help you.

That is what he said but why does it feel like he doesn’t want to help me. it feels like he wants to hurt me. I want to trust him because this is all my fault but a part of me doesn’t believe that he wants to help.

"You have to loosen up,’’ he bellows at me. I open my eyes and he is watching me with this inpatient expression plastered on his face.

"What do I do?"

He sighs loudly "Close your eyes,’’ he orders me. I do exactly as he asks. "Now think about something that makes you happy?’’ he breathes out.

I open my eyes "Is this going to work?’’ I ask him.

He grunts. I don’t actually think this is the time for this but I want to forget so bad and he wants to help me. I know he hasn’t forgiven me or even accepted me but this could be a start. Maybe this will make things better.

I close my eyes again and this time the only sounds I hear are the sounds of his breathing. Slowly, I feel a chemical pull. At first, I think it is just in my head but after a couple of seconds. I feel an out-of-body experience which in turn feels like my soul is being ripped out of my body. My mind travels far. The first thing I see is his face.

These are the memories I want to forget.

All the time I spent in the pack.

Why am I seeing his face?

No, no, no.

I try to pull myself out of it but I am stuck. I know what he is doing. he is punishing me. making me suffer for all I did to him. I should be upset but I called for it all. This is all my fault. The only reason why he would do something like this is because of how much he hates me. that is the only explanation I have for this and I deserve it.

It has been years.

Slowly, I am getting accustomed to life in the community. I even started calling him dad. It is weird but he has shown me a lot that makes me feel safe with him and my plan is to find Roger once he gives me a chance to leave. he said I am not a prisoner and as each day goes by, it feels like I am not but he still keeps me in the basement. He says that is the safest place for me until I am strong enough. He is scared that something would happen to me. he worries all the time that something would happen and I will disappear just as I did when I was born.

I have never really told him about my plan to find my one true love because I don’t want anything to ruin it. it has been ten years already. He is probably all grown up. I keep thinking about the kind of person he would’ve become.

I imagine how he has aged. How beautiful he would be. There are so many thoughts that run through my head concerning him. I know he will always be my favorite person. No matter how old he is.

"Are you ready for tonight?’’ Will, one of the people dad sent to watch over me. I have become close friends with him. somehow being alone all the time is not the easiest thing to deal with.

"Not really,’’ I tell him. tonight, is my awakening ceremony. Finally, my father wants to bring out the wolf inside me. he has prolonged this ceremony for so many years. He wanted me to be completely ready for it and for the first time in a long time, I feel like I am.

"Fenris looks more nervous than you. it almost seems like you’re the only hope he has left." He tells me jokingly.

Yes, he lets me know that every time. He doesn’t have any family left. His best friend and brother killed his wife. Took me away from him—so I completely understand why he has trust issues. After finding me, he has been on edge. Worrying over things going wrong.

This is the only chance he has left and I want to make him proud.