The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 205: Desperate for you

Chapter 205: Desperate for you

Blue.

It was just my luck.

I came out for a stroll and then he was just there. Lying down on the grass. At first, I wanted to leave him. Rex was already going to organize a meeting. I have been thinking of a way to get some alone time with him. I want to get him on board because I need him to make this complete.

At first, I was so sure that Rex was the one for me until I met Gyles. Now I want them both. I haven’t even touched him. the only confirmation that I need to know. I am scared to, because feeling your mate once is explosive and now, I have to feel it twice.

He agreed to let me help him. maybe I did this for my own selfish reasons. Helping him come into his wolf would give me a chance to be with him. if I spend some time with him, he will feel this thing. He is in denial right now. I see it in the way he looks at me. I know that he feels this thing but he doesn’t want to admit it. I will get him there; I will show him that he could open up to me.

"When do you want to start?’’ I ask him with a smile.

He looks at me with hesitation, I can sense that he is already regretting agreeing to this but I will not give him a chance to change his mind "Is tomorrow good for you. Just think about all the haunting you would be able to do after this is over,’’ I am trying to entice him.

He raises a brow "Do I look like I would like haunting?’’ he smiles faintly.

I chuckle. He actually looks like he would love it. I sense this dominance from him. the power to lead. He might act like this is of no interest to him. I can see right through him but I will just acrt like I can’t. I don’t want to scare him off.

"Okay maybe not hunting. How about just the strength that comes with it."

"I have strength,’’ he smiles.

He is challenging me and I like it. I like him a lot.

"Oh, so you don’t need this?’’ I ask him, teasing. I know he wants my help so I know he wouldn’t turn it down.

"Oh, I don’t mind and besides, you can’t go back on your word, you already said you would help me.’’

I can’t help but smile because the conversation is light and easy. Just the way it is with Rex. how could my heart respond to two guys at the same time? How is this happy and why does it feel so easy?

"I should go back in,’’ he breathes out.

I look away from him because I have to get used to separating from him. I wish he would come back with me to my room. I wish he would sleep next to me but I know that is too much to ask, and too soon.

"Why were you out here?" I ask wanting to know what made him feel the need to come out alone at night. I am not saying he can’t handle himself but I would love to be his company whenever he feels the need to be out at night.

"Had a nightmare,’’ he confides.

"Do you want to talk about it?’’ I wish he would share this with me but I also know that it is too soon ot expect that.

"It’s nothing serious, I am sure you’ve heard my story."

I nod, he continues "So you know that I am kind of messed up. There are things I don’t remember. Things that keep haunting me.’’

His past.

The past that I wish he would let go of. There is a reason why he was asleep for so long. There is a reason why he woke up now and maybe Cassius might have been the key to his lock but it all ends with us. Me, him and Rex. I don’t want him to think about the past but it feels like it is bugging him. if he doesn’t remember, he will keep having those dreams.

"Do you want to forget it all?’’ I ask him. I can help him forget; I have a spell. My magic would wipe it out immediately.

He raises a brow in confusion, I explain "I have my ways,’’ I wink at him and his cheeks redden.

"I don’t want to forget.’’

I kind of knew he would say that "I want to remember; I want to understand why this happened to me. I want to know what happened to the pack. where they are now,’’

"Memories come when you are ready. The fact that you don’t remember means you are the one that is blocking it all out. You are not ready to know the truth.’’

He nods because deep down, he knows that it is true "So why don’t you take things one step at a time. They will all come when the time is right.’’

He smiles, my heart thuds in my chest. I want to reach out and touch him. I want to kiss him but I know this is all too sudden and I am not ready to push him away when I just got a chance to be close to him. we both stand up from the grass and he walks by my side slowly.

"Why is your hair so long?’’ he asks with a smile.

I shrug "It is part of my macho man act,’’ I inform him jokingly.

This gets a laugh out of him. I have made him laugh twice today. This feels like an accomplishment. I want to always see a smile on his face, I want to bring him joy. I want to be everything for him.

"Are you serious?’’ he asks trying to control his laughter.

I shake my head "I come from a coven. This is how we keep our hair,’’ I tell him the real reason.

He stops laughing but there is still an amused expression on his face. "I heard about you. How does it feel to not know who you really are?’’

I think me and Gyles are similar—or rather, should I say we have similar situations. He is a hybrid and I am also one. My mother is a witch and just like him, I found out about my werewolf side recently. We have so much in common that I feel like I can help him. growing up, I always felt my wolf. Just like him, my wolf was stuck inside me. there was no awakening until I had grown and come of age. It was a lot for me to handle, I would have dreams. It was the scariest time of my life. My mother didn’t want to tell me anything. she wanted to keep it from me forever. She thought her magic would be able to suppress it but I guess my wolf was stronger than she thought.

At the end of it all, I became who I was supposed to be. Even till now, I have an identity crisis. Sometimes, I feel lost. I feel confused. I feel like I don’t belong anywhere.

"I know who I am,’’ I tell him blatantly.

He smiles "and who is that?’’ he asks calmly.

I don’t have to think about it too much. "I am Blue, I am your mate.’’ This is the only identity I want to go with. This is the one identity that will make me happy.

He opens his eyes wide, probably shocked that I am so direct "You don’t have to say anything. I am just letting you know."

The shock expression wipes out of his face and is replaced by the smile "What about Rex?’’ he asks.

I smile "Oh we can’t forget that. He is just as important to me as you.’’

He takes a deep breath "What if you are wrong about this? what if this is just a fluke in the mating system.’’

This is his doubt playing in, just like I knew it would. It will take time for Gyles to come to term with all this and there is no rush. There is no pressure to get him to us. As long as he doesn’t reject us.

"It is never wrong; I am so sure about this.’’ I assure him. the way my heart is responding to him just tells me everything I need to know. I know he feels this too. I can sense it and it is coming off very strong from him.

"Okay,’’ he breathes out into the night.

We get to the front of his house. The fact that he and Rex are under the same roof makes me feel better leaving him. there is no way his wolf wouldn’t feel him. as long as he has one of us, it will be okay.

"So, I will come look for you tomorrow,’’ I say with hesitation.

I don’t want to leave him.

He nods "Thanks Blue,’’ he says my name. I love the way it sounds. I love him so much that it hurts.

I watch him walk into the house and my wolf cries silently. Desperate to be with him. desperate to touch him.

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