The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 193: Can you choose me?

Chapter 193: Can you choose me?

Gyles.

What the fuck am I doing?

Why am I messing with him?

Why does it feel like I am losing my fucking mind all over again?

The past comes crawling in. those times in the basement. The loneliness. They all come crawling in. bits and pieces that I tried to forget. What really happened after I was kidnapped.

"Fuck,’’ I shout out to the sky.

I ran out of his room. I still don’t understand how I felt when I heard Blue’s voice or why I even felt anything in the first place.

Maybe because he is yours.

That fucking voice in my head screams. I look up at the sky; I don’t know what is going on. Everything is happening too fast. All these emotions, feelings that I have never felt in all my life. It wasn’t even like this with Roger. There was no confusion, no fear of loss. Now all I feel are those things.

"Get your shit together Gyles." I scold myself. That is a thing I do. I am the only one that can tell myself what to do. I only listen to myself.

I run my hands through my hair, pacing back and forth in front of the house. I left to clear my head but it feels like the fog just intensified. I want to be back in that room with him.

Them.

That fucking voice again.

I keep hearing that voice. I want to push it out. I want to fucking get it out of my head. What is even that voice?

Why is it pushing me to do things that I don’t want to do?

Maybe you should listen to me.

The voice shouts at me.

I close my eyes. It gets worse. I feel another person inside me. almost like coming to this pack awakened something inside of me.

You are a wolf.

You are me.

"Fuck,’’ I cry out.

I need Rex. I need to be in his arms.

You should go be in his arms. He is your mate after all.

This fucking voice. I wish it would just get out of my head. He must know by now that I answered his call. Would he be upset? I don’t want to do anything that will upset him. I like where we are. This weekend bubble that we have been in. They will all be back tomorrow. I wouldn’t get the chance to be alone with him.

Fuck.

I need to be with him.

I run back into the house and in the direction of his room. Once in front of his door, I take a deep breath as I open the door. He is standing close to his bed; his phone is pressed to his ear. He is on the phone with Blue.

Blue.

What a beautiful name.

My favorite color.

I shouldn’t be thinking about Blue. I don’t even know him. the person I know is standing right in front of me. He is so beautiful. He is perfect. I walk over to him; he mouths the word phone. I don’t fucking care. I just want to feel him. Remember why he is perfect for me. I don’t want to think about that voice. I don’t want to think about the insane thoughts that are running through my mind. I try to block out the sound of his voice. I can hear Blue through the phone. Almost like my abilities are choosing to work perfectly at this moment. I grab him because all I want to do is taste him. all I want to do is feel all of him and he said we can’t have sex. It is unfair that I have to try and control myself when all I want to do is be inside him.

Fuck.

I eavesdrop on their conversation as I lay kisses all over his neck. Rex is trying to stay strong but I feel him weak in the knees. I push him until his back hits the wall hard. I shouldn’t handle him roughly. He is delicate, like a beautiful flower. He is my flower. At this moment, I am trying to control myself. Which is a lot harder than I thought. He is shirtless. His rosy skin is calling out to me. I move away from his neck to his chest. My hand is all over him. there are goosebumps on my skin. I feel the softness of his. Almost like he hasn’t worked a day in his life. I will gladly do all his work for the rest of our life.

Shit.

I am thinking about the future.

I close my eyes for a second as I grab his nipple into my mouth. It hardens immediately as his breath spikes up. I am surprised Blue hasn’t noticed anything weird.

Now I am thinking about him again.

Blue.

I feel his dick against me, he is as hard as a fucking rock. Not like there is anything different with me. I like that I make him hard. I like that he responds to me well.

My mate.

I ignore the voice even though this is the loudest it has ever been. I don’t want to think about that right now. I want to focus on tasting him. I go on my knees, not taking my eyes off him. He opens his eyes wide, probably shocked by my action. I keep my eyes on him as I pull his shorts off.

Now he is naked in front of me.

This is what I wanted when I came back into the room. He shakes his head immediately almost warding me off him but it is too late. We have come too far already. "This is not sex. I just want a taste."

I give him the best assurance that I can. I don’t know if I will be able to control myself all through the end of this but I want to try my best not to make him regret this. I just want to show him all the things he could get from this. I want to know how he tastes. I am sure he will be as delicious as he looks. I take him into my mouth and his dick throbs against me. I feel it get even harder if that is even possible.

He ends the call with Blue and I am happy that he chose me. I am happy that he is here with me and not him. even if it just for the weekend.

His breath spikes as I take all of him deeper into my mouth. I feel him in my throat. He trickles and turns me on. I love the way he tastes. Just as I expected. Sweet with a little bit of salt. My favorite kind of treat. I don’t think I can go back from him. He grabs my hair in his grip and it is hard. The strands of my hair feel tugged at. This is already intense. So, when I bob my head up and down, he responds even louder. I don’t know how many people live in this house but right now, it seems like we are the only ones in the house. I haven’t bumped into anyone all weekend, which means he can scream as loud as he wants.

No one will be able to hear him.

This gets me excited and I move faster, feeling him shake and shiver against me. we keep at it; I don’t want to stop. I like giving him this pleasure. I want this moment to last forever.

God, I don’t want this to be a moment. I don’t want this to be for the weekend. I want this to be permanent.

I want him to want me.

The moment I feel him stiffen, I pull into him even deeper, this gets a louder scream from him and I feel him spill into my mouth. He falls to his knees at the same time I swallow all of him. he is drenched in sweat. His breath is heavy and hot as he rests his head on my chest. He is still shaking.

I like that I did this to him.

"Wow,’’ he breathes out shakily.

I look at him, slowly wiping the sweat from his forehead. His eyes are still closed. I just made him climax. It feels like the greatest accomplishment of my life. I am glad that Blue is not in my mind anymore. Doing that with Rex just made me realize just how much I want this with him.

"You have to choose me,’’ I blurt out the thoughts in my head.

He opens his eyes immediately, confusion and maybe shock on his face "What?’’ he asks nervously.

I sit up properly on the floor "Can you choose me?’’ I rephrase my sentence. I don’t want to demand; I want to ask him to.

Blue is the major contender but I wish it could be me. with me, he doesn’t have to conform to the deities. He doesn’t have to do the whole mating shebang. He can just be with me.

"That’s not how this works Gyles. I can’t just choose you."

"Why not? You said I am your mate.’’

He nods "I think you both are. Somehow, my wolf is calling out to the both of you.’’

I shake my head "I don’t want to share you. I want you to choose.’’

He sighs. I already know his answer before he even says anything and maybe all this is in my head if it is so difficult for him to make a decision.

Maybe this is all me.