The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 187: Will you think about him if I kiss you?

Chapter 187: Will you think about him if I kiss you?

Rex.

He basically called me out on that.

He knows I have been staring. He knows that I have been having thoughts that are not so innocent. Okay, maybe he doesn’t know that but at least he can sense that something is going on inside of me. he knows and I don’t even know if I am ready to admit those words out loud.

I don’t even know how I feel.

"You don’t have to say anything. I know this doesn’t make any sense to you. Hell, it is confusing to me.’’

What is happening right now?

I just wanted to make sure he was okay. That Is why I came out here. Why does it seem like he is pouring out his heart to me?

I remain quiet. I don’t know what to say. he reaches for me and I watch him as he caresses my face gently. The gold in his eyes brightens, almost to the point that they look like they are sparkling. He closes his eyes immediately, almost like touching me is affecting him gravely.

"What is going on?’’ he mumbles almost like he doesn’t want me to hear him. I reach for his hand on my face and he opens his eyes immediately. my hand stays on his. We are in the middle of the backyard just staring at each other. I want him to kiss me. I want to feel his lips so badly but I also know I will never get the courage to do that on my own. I hold my breath as he grabs my hand over his and squeezes it gently. At the same time pulling me closer. I look up at him through the mist of my glasses from all the heavy breaths I have taken since I came outside.

"Are you sure he is your link—" he corrects himself "mate?’’

He is talking about Blue and now remembering him, I feel fucking guilty. I shouldn’t be doing this without talking to him about it.

This might be your only chance to know for sure.

My wolf growls at me. he wants this to happen. He is desperate about this kiss. Somehow Gyles is a piece of meat that he must have. My wolf is the stronger part of me. he is in control now—especially with all these lustful thoughts running around my head.

I can’t. what if this is a mistake?

I ask him. I am having a conversation in my head with the primal part of me. this is his time to shine. He has been searching for a mate for so long. Longing for that feeling and now, I have the same feelings for two people at the same time.

Does that even make sense?

Kiss him. Find out if he is the one.

It is more like a command. Almost like he is telling me to do what he demands or else. It is not like I will lose anything from kissing him. I want to kiss Gyles as much as my wolf wants me to. My eyes dart to his mouth. His plump lips. This man is sexy. So sexy and he could be all mine.

Yes, he is.

It feels like Gyles woke my wolf up. He has been silent all this while and now he won’t just shut up.

"Are you,’’ he asks again and I realize that I didn’t answer him.

My mind is in a fog.

"I don’t know.’’

That is a lie. I know he is my mate. I feel it but I also feel like Gyles could be my mate. If I tell him that I am sure. He might now kiss me again.

"I don’t know much about mates. I lived with vampires all my life,’’ he gives me an insight to his life. "I and Rogers were brought up by vampires. I really wished him to be my Link. That was the plan.’’

Now we are talking about Cassius.

Fucking bastard.

"What if you are wrong about that guy,’’ he asks about Blue.

I am not wrong.

Even at this moment, my heart still yearns for him. I miss him, even though I just saw him. I gave Blue the green light to pursue me. he will be back after the weekend and he will do just that. I don’t know how he will feel If I tell him that I am also craving someone else.

Will he give up on me?

"You are thinking about him,’’ Gyles echoes, the disappointment evident in his expression. I look away from him from the embarrassment of being caught. How do I juggle two guys at the same time?

"Yes." I don’t deny it. I don’t want to lie to him. I need him to know that Blue is in my heart. I don’t even know if he is there too. Everything is happening too fast. All I want now is a kiss.

"Would you push me away if I kissed you? Even though you are thinking about--,’’ he pauses and looks at me "What’s his name?’’ he asks.

"Blue.’’

He smiles, pulling me even closer. U focus on his face, I want to remember this man, even after everything. I don’t know if he will eventually settle in our pack. Beau is still trying to convince him. Maybe he will stay for me.

How many people do I want to ask to stay?

What the fuck is wrong with me.

"Would you push me off if I kiss you?’’ he repeats.

My heart is racing against my chest, I can feel the pounding of his too. He can’t even hide it or deny it. we are too close to ignore this.

Kiss him.

My wolf demands. I feel the hunger and need inside me.

I lean forward, our heads are now pressed to each other. There is still a smile on his face, his eyes are still shining brightly. If they do not dim when we go back in, it could be a problem for us.

Right now, I can’t think of that. We are about to kiss. The anticipation of this kiss tormented me all night and now it might just happen.

I feel his hot breath on my lips. This makes me close my eyes. It is finally happening. I am going to kiss Gyles.

"T-rex,’’ I hear Freida’s voice from inside the house.

Fucking hell.

Not now.

I open my eyes and Gyles’s eyes are open. He must have heard her too. Having super hearing doesn’t help right now. I wish I could ignore her because we were finally about to kiss.

"Your friend,’’ he tells me.

I groan which gets a laugh out of him. He lets go of my waist. I wince internally because I like it when he holds me "Your eyes are still glowing,’’ I remind him. He closes them immediately, at the same time Freida walks out the steps of the backyard.

"There you guys are,’’ she exclaims, skipping down the stairs. I have always been fond of Freida but at this moment. I hate her cockblocking ass.

"Is he okay,’’ she stops in front of me. Gyles’s back is turned to us.

"he has a headache. I think we are going to call it a night,’’ I tell her. I need him away from this crowd. Whatever is happening with him is out of his control.

I think this is enough for one night.

"Oh,’’ she tries to go over me but I stop her.

"Do you need a ride home? I could drop you off,’’ I suggest. She should take a hint and leave him alone. He is not interested in her. she is my friend and I am embarrassed for her.

"Oh, no need. I will just call a car,’’ she brushes it off.

I get Gyles away from the party and back to my car. He smiles once we are seated. "That was close,’’ his eyes are still golden.

We ride all the way back to the community in silence. The fact that the moment went the minute Freida interrupted us, kills me. my wolf is disappointed. He had so much expectation and it was crushed in a second.

We get to the community and he gets down from the car.

His eyes are still gold. "Why isn’t it dimming down?’’ I ask him as we walk side by side into the house.

He shrugs his shoulders "Maybe I want to kiss you so badly,’’ he suggests.

My heart thuds. I don’t want to get my hopes up. I don’t want to think about this too much and then have it crushed when it doesn’t happen.

"You’re joking again right?’’

He chuckles "Yeah. Thanks for tonight Rex, it felt good to go out again. Haven’t done that in a long time.’’

We are in front of my room now, I don’t want to say goodnight to him. I want to keep talking to him. I want to get to know him.

I am pathetic.

"no problem. We can try the movies next time, what do you say?’’

He smiles "I’d like that,’’ he whispers painfully. "Goodnight Rex,’’ he hesitates as I open my door.

I don’t want to leave him but I do the opposite of what I want. I go into my room and I close the door. Regretting how the night turned out. Resting my back on the door, i slide down till I am seated on the cold floor.

"Fuck,’’ I run my hands through my curly hair.

After a couple of minutes, a knock gets me up on my feet and opening the door again. "Is something—" he pushes into my room and grabs me again before I get a chance to complete my sentence.

Our lips meet and, at that moment, I jump for joy.