The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 142: You will always be my wolfie.

Chapter 142: You will always be my wolfie.

Jabi.

Just like last time.

He told me.

It doesn’t feel like last time. When I turned in front of Dar and we went hunting, I was weak. I felt like I was deteriorating. Dying slowly. Now I feel incredibly strong. I have never felt this way before. In all my life. Something has changed. Not just the hunger for blood. My body seems to be running on a kind of fuel that I didn’t know I had.

I don’t want to say anything to Dar because I don’t want him to worry. I can already feel a shift in our relationship. He used to treat me like I was fragile, he wanted to take care of me but now It feels like he is treating me like I am dangerous. I don’t blame him, I hurt someone. Marcella. I know her. So hearing that I caused harm to her is distressing to me. This strength inside me comes from whatever is going on. It is selfish of me to be a little bit happy with the way I feel. The pain of not being able to do anything. Dying slowly with no cure still haunts me and now this feels like a second chance to me. I always knew that being with Darrien would give me a second chance. A new beginning. A happy life.

He seems to think that I will be banished. At this point, I don’t actually care. As long as he is in my life. I will never feel deserted. Beau is the only one in this pack that actually cares about me. He will not banish me. I know that much. He tries and I appreciate him for it but the minute I realize that I am a danger to everyone here, I will leave on my own. I won’t live my life as a threat.

I don’t want that to be my new normal.

’’Come on babe,’’ he urges with a warm smile on his face.

I am naked in front of him and not even a bit shy. Our relationship has gone further than this. I love everything that he brings out of me. I love this man so much.

I close my eyes. Turning is the most painful experience for me. I usually am unable to handle it most times but somehow, this time seems different. As I feel my bones bend and the skin tear open. It doesn’t hurt as much as I thought it would. My eyes stay fixed to Dar, he is smiling at me warmly. The patience he has for me is remarkable. I know how he is with everyone else, so it just makes it all the more special. He treats me different. The things he can tolerate or accept from me, he wouldn’t with others.

’’That’s it,’’ he encourages me luminously.

For the first time since the ritual, I feel my wolf. This is all on him, the eagerness to come out. He is finally awake.

I close my eyes as I round off on the transformation, slowly going on all four. The moment I feel my fur spring out, I get even more excited. This seems like the best of both worlds. I am still me. I am still a wolf but I also have this power looming inside me. I can feel it. Even without Blue, I know something is different inside me. There is curiosity trying to crawl out. I want to know how far I can go. Once I am fully turned, Darrien moves closer to me, his smile wide.

I know he has been worried. He didn’t want this change to happen, that is why I couldn’t tell him how happy this is making me feel. No one understood how weak I felt, all my life. I would watch others, knowing I was different. Even Rex being an omega is different from me. I was always different and now I feel like I will finally belong to this world.

’’You’re doing it,’’ he mutters excitedly. Patting my fur in the process. I close my eyes to his touch. My wolf already getting excited. ’’Nothing has to change. You’re going to be alright.’’ It seems like he is trying to comfort himself. Somehow his assurance is not for me.

’’How do you feel?’’ he asks.

I send him a mind link because that is the only way I can communicate with him.

I feel alive.

That is the truth. I have never felt more alive than I do at this moment right now.

"Can you wait here for a second?’’ he asks even though he knows I will do whatever he wants me too. ’’I want to try something.’’

I nod and he plants a soft kiss on my fur. Suddenly he speeds away from me like the flash of light. I sit down on the grass as I wait patiently for him. It takes him less than a minute to get back. He is holding unto a black nylon bag. My nose tingles as the smell gets into it. I know what it is without him showing me.

Meat.

’’You want it?’’ he asks with that teasing smile on my face, almost like he knows that I want it. My wolf reacts immediately, my legs move forward until I am in front of him. I didn’t think I would want raw meat again. Being the way I am now, it didn’t seem like it would ever be craving but there is a hunger that has always been there.

This part of me that he fell in love with still exists. I feel my tail move back and forth as he waves the bag in the air. Now he is teasing me, there is this happiness radiating out of me which only makes me all the more excited.

I move even closer to him, my face now so close to his. Gently I bring out my tongue and splatter it all over his face, kissing him. He starts to laugh and then he drops the bag on the grass and wraps his arms around my neck.

’’I love you so much,’’ he whispers into my ear at the same time letting go of me. I reach for the bag and push it open with my nose. The smell becomes stronger, more inviting as I take a bite off the leg of the deer. Never have I ever had the opportunity of eating the whole leg of a deer. I always got the leftovers. Now Darrien is providing for me in ways that I never thought I would ever get. I eat the meat quickly, with his eyes still fixed on me.

Once I am done I look up at him and he is still smiling at me ’’You are going to be just fine,’’ he assures me again with that soothing voice that I have come to get used to. This man has a way of making me feel better with just his words. I am just glad that with this, he doesn’t have to worry about me as much as he has been.

I might now be involved with the things happening in the pack but I know there is a lot going on. The man everyone keeps talking about—Cassius. I heard he wants to kill us all. I know he will not succeed. Beau is the best Alpha this pack has ever had. I am not trying to condemn his dad right now but there is something in him that always made me believe in him. He is kind... very kind. He genuinely cares about the people of this pack and unlike all the others, he is diplomatic. He doesn’t believe in a dictatorship. His dad was always in the opinion that whatever he said was final. No arguments required.

I know he will protect the pack.

"Do you want to try running around? I want to see how fast you can go.’’

He is curious just like I am. He wants to know if this new territory we are in brings new abilities. I have never been fast. I know the time we went hunting together, he slowed his pace for me. Does that mean this new strength could bring speed? I am already excited before I start running in circles around the field. I feel lighter in my legs. It is not as straining as before. Everything feels better. I don’t know how long I run for but I feel his presence as he watches me.

My heart melts against my chest, knowing that through thick or thin, rain or sunshine. Darrien will always be there, with that smile on his face. I have someone that will always hold unto me, through my pain and happiness. The minute I stop running, he stands up from the grass and stops in front of me.

’’Wow, that was fast,’’ he exclaims. ’’You wanna turn back?’’ he adds in question.

I shake my head, my wolf is not ready to go back to the shadows. The least I can do Is give him some time out under the moon.

’’Okay, Let’s stay like this for a while.’’

He sits back on the grass and I join him, still panting heavily from the solo race I just did. I rest my head on his legs and he starts to pat the top of my head gently.

’’You will always be my wolfie,’’ he mutters.

You will always be mine.