The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 135: I don’t care what you are as long as i have you.

Chapter 135: I don’t care what you are as long as i have you.

Darrien.

He trembles all through the night.

I don’t know what to do to make this better. All I can do is try to comfort him by holding him, assuring him that everything would be alright but I don’t even know anymore.

Time goes by slowly. I wait and wait for the dawn of a new day but time stands still. After his crying in the shower, he put on my shirt and crawled into the bed. I think the best thing for him right now is to sleep. After everything, he has been through. I wish I could take all his pain. I wish this was me. all the suffering could be transferred to me, I will take it in a heartbeat.

Jabi doesn’t deserve this.

All his life, he has suffered. I thought I could come into his life and make things better. I thought I could be that light at the end of the tunnel for him but now it seems like I am the cause of all his problems. This happened because of me. he is this way because of me.

Would I take it all back if I had the chance?

’’This is not your fault,’’ he breathes out and I realise that he is awake. I didn’t even notice him wake up. Something is seriously wrong with me. I can feel myself getting weaker but the thought of leaving him right now to get blood is unthinkable to me. what if something happens while I leave him. I don’t want a repeat of what happened earlier. I need to stay by his side until things calm down.

’’I didn’t say it was,’’ I lie. I don’t want him worrying about this. All he needs to do is channel all his energy into getting better. That is all that is important to me.

’’You’re thinking it,’’ he glares at me with this adorable scowl. There is nothing that he would do that I wouldn’t think was cute. Fuck I am hooked.

’’How do you know what I am thinking,’’ I ask him jokingly.

I like that things are chill right now. The mood these couple of hours has been tense. I am not saying things are back to normal. It has just been hours but I want us to forget about everything for the rest of the night. I don’t want to think about what Beau pans to do to him.

I don’t want to think about all that.

’’I know you. I see it in your eyes,’’ he points to my face with that same expression on his face. for the first time tonight, I notice how pale he is looking. The more I see him, the more I notice the changes in him. so Blue thinks he is a hybrid. I mean, so what If he is. It might be the best thing that could happen to him. Jabi is not the strongest person. In fact, when I look at him, I wish I could fatten him up. I don’t like how skinny he is, how frail he looks. Maybe him being immortal will help him get the strength he needs.

I want that for him so badly.

I don’t want people to take him for granted. I want him to be able to stand on his two feet.

’’What is in my eyes?’’ I ask amused by this conversation. It is light and that is what I need right now.

’’Fear, worry. Guilt.’’

Okay, he got everything right.

’’You don’t have to feel guilty. This is not your fault.’’

I shake my head.

’’It feels like it is though,’’ I admit out loud for the first time since he attacked that girl.

When I think of the attack, I blame myself for not hearing him wake up. If I did, I would’ve been able to control the situation. He woke up hungry and he went looking for food. Jabi would never forgive himself if he had ended up killing that girl. Right now, the fact that she is still alive is the only reason why there is a faint smile on his face.

’’But it’s not,’’ he interjects ’’I don’t want you to blame yourself for this. don’t ever think about this and think it is your fault.’’

I nod.

He glares at me with the most serious expression he can muster up but all it looks to me is cute—so fucking cute.

’’I am warning you. I don’t want you to think about this anymore. The moment I see you feeling guilty again. I will smack you,’’ he pokes me in the chest playfully.

Seriously, how did I get so lucky? I know this is all a lot for him but here he is trying to make me feel better about it all.

’’You have my word. I won’t again.’’

I love him so much.

I lean forward and plant a soft kiss on his temple. He closes his eyes and I keep my lips pressed to his in my arms. ’’I am hungry,’’ he confesses, still in my arms. I pull back just so I can see his face and his cheeks are red. He is embarrassed to tell me that he is hungry.

’’We have a lot of stuff in the fridge, what do you feel like eating?’’

I don’t know if he still has an appetite for meat. I mean, this whole hybrid situation has me confused. Is he still a werewolf, does he still have werewolf cravings?

’’I don’t know, it feels like my stomach is all dried up,’’ he shrugs meekly.

You see, the fact that he is feeling this way has me worried. Makes me feel guilty all over again. I don’t want him to ever be hungry. I don’t want him to worry about food.

What can I do to make sure that never happens?

’’Maybe just normal food?’’ he suggests.

I mean, why not just go in between. He needs food right now, even though we can’t decipher what he actually wants to eat. Anything is better than no food. I get up from the bed and he follows me quietly. I grab his hand in mine making him walk beside me, and he blushes like the cute little puppy he is.

We get to his tiny kitchen and I open the fridge. I see the blood bags instantly. I didn’t even know this was here. There is a note on it from Alanis.

You’ll thank me when you really need it.

A.

I didn’t even know he put this here. The smell of the blood travels through my nose and the thirst that I have been avoiding kicks in. This is actually not the time to be thinking about myself. My baby is hungry, and I need to feed him. I hear his breathing spike up and this makes me turn to look at him. the veins around his eyes are protruding out, almost like arrows to his now blue eyes. His fangs have come out again.

This is happening again.

Why?

’’Jabi?’’ I call his name, but his eyes are still stuck to the inside of the fridge. He is looking at the blood. Is that what he is hungry for?

’’Jabi,’’ I call his name again. This time, his eyes dart to my face. he is still breathing heavily. ’’Hey, you want this?’’ I grab a bag from the fridge, and he nods immediately.

I don’t know if he is himself right now but as I said, I will give him anything he wants. If he wants blood, then I will gladly give it to him.

’’Can you try and talk?’’ I want him to be himself when I give him this. I don’t like the way he slips out of his own mind.

’’i..i...’’ he manages in a stutter.

Those are the only words that come out but they are good enough for me. I rip the paper off the bag with my teeth and place the bag in front of him. he grips the bag but I don’t let go of it, so as he places it in his mouth, I press it out for him. He rushes to drink the blood, so some spill out of his mouth to the sides of his face. this is really weird for me, this must be weird for him. it has just been a couple of hours since he attacked that girl. Does this mean that he didn’t have enough of her blood?

Why Is he so hungry?

I watch him as he devours the bag completely emptying it. this is my werewolf Link—now I don’t know if I can even say that anymore. His eyes never leave me as he drinks it all.

I don’t know if he is really here but as long as he doesn’t attack anyone or try to kill anyone I will always give him the blood he needs. At this point I don’t care if he is a vampire or a werewolf—fuck I will take him as a hybrid. As long as I have him, that is all that fucking matters.

He is my life.