The Sweetest Temptation
Chapter 185: Secret untold 2

Chapter 185: Secret untold 2

Rhys sighed, clearly he didn’t find what she was saying funny.

"Then after we separated I thought I could forget you, but like a drug I was addicted to you. You were all I could think about."

She watches as Rhys clears his throat, frowning as if he’s still trying to sort his own jumbled thoughts out. "Then I saw that. You’re with Damien and it just fucked everything. That was the day when it slapped me fair in the face when I realized I wanted you to want me - wanted you to smile at me, laugh at my stupid jokes and keep looking at me the way you did that day I met you for the first time - I liked how you looked at me, never had someone look at me the way you did. I just wanted to be around you, but I didn’t understand what that was, and it just frustrated me," he says.

"Then there was the night I kissed you again when I was all fucked up. I missed you, and you were all I thought about.

You were the only thing that felt good - that didn’t hurt. But again, I was so fuckin’ confused, and when I saw how much it scared you... When you walked down and smiled at my brother I hated myself even more.

Everything in my head was telling me to let you leave, but everything else in me was screaming that I just wanted you to stay - felt so fuckin’ selfish - I didn’t think I deserved you, I didn’t deserve something that didn’t hurt," Rhys confesses.

His hands drop from his forehead, and he threads his fingers together while staring at his feet on the ground. "I could see that you wanted me too. But you know how...

You know how they say that if someone is drowning, not to help them because they’ll be panicking and can drag you down with them - you’ll end up drowning too?" he asked.

She was so scared of how full Rhys was swelling her heart right now, because it felt like it was getting filled with warmth just for it to get shattered by whatever he was going to eventually tell her.

"It was always like this tug of war in my head - but then the night when you said you wanted me and Damien I was fuckin’ done for. I went from being scared to have you to fuckin terrified of losing you.

I didn’t know how I was ever going to be able to keep someone like you - if you saw who I really was," he continues to explain, trying to piece together his words and make sense of what he’s trying to say.

"And... you are saying all of this right now because ?" she asks, still figuring out where this is going and trying to stay on track with it.

She wishes she knew back then that this was how he felt. She didn’t realize he was as confused as she was. Rhys doesn’t answer straight away, he just stared at her like he doesn’t know what to say but then he hangs his head and his voice becomes quiet.

"You know I told you about my childhood trauma I just didn’t tell you who it was."

Beatrix gave him a puzzled look, "Who is it?"

He starts to fiddle with his fingers again, and he still hasn’t looked at her.

"I love you Beatrix. Me and Damien. I hope you know that. "

Beatrix raised her eyebrows at him. "Of course I do. You’re scaring me Rhys. What is going on?"

She was trying so hard not to let her mind wander, they always say your imagination is worse than reality - but god it’s hard.

She was trying to stay calm, she really was trying.

Rhys turned his face away and threaded his fingers into his hair, looking at the ground again with his elbows still on his knees "I’ve been wracking my brain over how to explain this to you. I still don’t think there’s a good way to explain it - but I just..."

He swallowed, and glanced to her laptop on the table "I need to show you something, so you can understand the rest of it"

Beatix didn’t think she could handle much more of this vagueness, she didn’t know what the fuck he was talking about.

His eyes dropped back to the ground and his voice became quiet again.

"I need to show you what happened to me. Most importantly who did this to me." He said pulling a pendrive from his back pocket.

Beatrix felt the colour drain from her face and she brought her hand to cover to her mouth genuinely scared she was going to throw up.

"What happened to you... When you were a kid.. When they kidnapped you- that’s on that drive ?"

Beatrix questioned, trying to swallow down the bile in her throat and the feeling of her heart breaking at the same time.

Rhys only nodded in response, looking like he wanted to curl up into himself.

".....How did you find it?" She asked the question like she already know the answer and didn’t want it.

"When Damien got power he tracked them down and found this. It seems they had recorded everything. He got rid of every single one of them. Expect one."

His words were enough to make her feel like she had a hot knife torn through her insides, causing her to get up from the bed and reach her hand forward to take hold of his, pulling him to her until she could wrap her arms around his shoulders.

"Rhys..."

His name came out sounding has heartbroken as she felt for him, and she couldn’t think of what to say.

How could they be so cruel?

She kept thinking that what happened to him couldn’t get any worse, but it always did. "This is so fucked up," she muttered to herself. He buried his face against her neck, wrapping his arms around her back and pulling her closer to him, drawing in a slow, deep inhale.

"Are you afraid I won’t love you anymore if I see it?" she asked, cuddling her face into his shoulder, wishing she could have some kind of magical powers to go back in time and stop any of it from happening to him.

"No it’s not that it’s just..." he said with his voice muffled against her neck. Her brows dropped and she pulled her face back, grasping his shoulders and urging him to look at her. "What?"

"Can I just... Can I just show you this first? And then I’ll explain the rest..." Rhys says, looking like he’s begging her with his eyes.

"Rhys, I don’t know if I can watch that... Watch someone hurt you... Especially when you were little," she says, shaking her head, trying to be honest and sounding as disturbed by it as she feels. "Can’t you just tell me who is it?"

"I really don’t think I could sit through that," she whispered. "

Rhys grabbed her hand and her laptop, "That’s why we will not be watching it alone."

A/N: Okay guys I suck at writing endings. Old readers know but I’m trying here lol. Hope it goes well!

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