The Sweetest Temptation
Chapter 116: Leave

Chapter 116: Leave

"You have been away from home for a long time. I know you miss your family. I think you should go home for now."

He muttered, his voice laced with sadness as he swallowed, and he leaned forward to press another lingering kiss to her forehead.

"You’re joking right?" She asked in a single breath, her eyes darting between his as the colour drained from her face.

"No. I’m not. Go home with Remo." he said, swallowing again like he was fighting to get his words out

"Wait, no hang on a minute. What the hell are you suddenly saying? I’m not going with Remo, I’m not going home. This is home. Home is wherever you’re Damien."

She told him, feeling the blood pounding in her ears.

"I’m already home with you." She added.

Damien shook his head, his brows tilting together.

"Your presence has started irritating me. I think some distance will help us. To find our spark again."

And in that split second spasms of fear crossed her face and she felt like something was squeezing her heart.

She stuttered in shock, feeling like she couldn’t breathe and pain starting to spread through her chest. "What are you talking about, Damien? This can’t be real,"

She thought, desperately trying to convince herself that he didn’t mean it. He avoided making eye contact and took a deep breath before dropping his hands from her face. She grabbed them tightly, hoping it would change his mind.

He struggled to keep his voice steady and said, "I don’t have feelings for you anymore. No matter how hard I try, I will never feel the way you want me to."

She couldn’t believe it, feeling like she was trapped in a nightmare.

"No, no, no, no," Beatrix exclaimed, grasping his hands and moving closer to him. "You don’t mean that. I know you’re just feeling guilty for hurting me, but this isn’t the solution.

Don’t say things like that," she pleaded, her voice trembling with the combination of panic and pain that was overwhelming her.

Damien’s face twisted in pain and he turned away from her, taking a deep breath. His voice was filled with sadness as he said,

"Beatrix, you’re not safe as long as you’re with someone like me. I said I would protect you, and this is me doing it. If I don’t have feelings for you anymore, everything you do will irritate me and I’ll keep hurting you."

""Damien, please look at me," she pleaded, her voice trembling. "This isn’t protecting me, it’s tearing me apart. Please just stop." Her eyes were burning with emotion and the thought of him leaving was overwhelming. She was terrified by how serious he sounded.

He lowered his head and pulled his hands away from her, wiping at his eyes and shaking his head. "I need you to go. Give me a few days to get myself together," he said.

But she couldn’t believe it. "I’m not going anywhere, especially not now that you need me," she exclaimed, feeling like she was about to have a panic attack. This couldn’t be happening.

As she spoke, it became increasingly difficult for her to talk, her breathing was labored and a lump was forming in her throat. Damien’s tone softened as he tightly grasped her wrists, preventing her from moving.

"Please, calm down, breathe," he said.

She pleaded with him, tears streaming down her face, "No, please don’t do this." Damien’s eyes were filled with pain as he looked at her,

"I’m not leaving you. I promised I’d never leave you and you can’t leave either," she said, her lips quivering.

But then he said, "I’m letting you go because that’s how much you mean to me, you’ll always come first to me."

Beatrix begged him again, "Please don’t do this. This isn’t what you want." She pulled her wrists free from his grip and reached for his face, attempting to kiss him, but he stopped her.

The rejection felt like a physical blow to her. She couldn’t believe this was happening.

"Damien, hurting me isn’t going to solve anything. I need you. I understand that you’re scared, but what you’re doing is wrong.

Please, listen to me," she spoke through tears that were beginning to form, her voice cracking with emotion.

"Beatrix, you need to listen to me. This relationship was doomed from the start. Me, you, Rhys, it was a mess. I’m not good for you.

You deserve someone better. Until I can be that person, it’s best that you stay away from me," he said, pulling away from her and wiping tears from his own eyes.

"I have told you that you’re all I need. We have had this conversation over and over again. You don’t have the right to decide for me."

she argued, trying to keep hold of him, but he pulled his hands away and she struggled to contain the sob that was rising in her chest.

"You can’t do this, not after everything - it’s wrong and you know it," she said.

He sighed, pulling her into an embrace with his arms around her. She clenched her hands into fists and clung to his shirt, feeling overwhelmed and unable to think clearly.

"You’ll have your family- and I’ll make sure no one bothers you," he said, his own breathing becoming heavy and her body was trembling from the finality in his tone. "I have to do this. You don’t belong with someone like us... And I won’t let you get hurt anymore."

As soon as he said that, she broke down in sobs, her entire body exhausted and her mind feeling like it was being hit with a sledgehammer, her thoughts were jumbled and confusing.

"I really need you to go, I can’t do this," he said, holding her face and giving her several kisses while his breathing became harsher and he pulled away, removing her hands from his shirt as he stepped back.

She wished she had put up more resistance, but she felt entirely broken; her heart, mind, and body were all shattered, and she didn’t -know how to cope with the situation.

Beatrix loved him so much and she couldn’t bear to leave him.

"Take care of yourself for me okay? Don’t ever change, you’re perfect just how you are. Please stay safe" he croaked, wiping at his eyes with the back of his hands.

"Damien please" she pressed her hands to her face when he started walking away and then pushed her fingers into the front of my hair, gripping the roots.

"Please just stay with me, please. You don’t need to do this"

He shook his head, sucking in a breath as his own crying only became harder "I’m sorry"

And everything in her shattered when that was the last thing he said before he turned and walked out of the room leaving her alone

"Damien!"she shouted, barely able to get it out through her voice thick with tears and stared at the door; wishing she would see him come rushing back through it

Everything inside her felt like it was being crushed, her heart didn’t even feel broken, it felt like it had been ripped straight out of her and taken out through that door with him.

"Beatrix!" Remo called out and she could see him trembling with rage as he stared at her tear stricken face.

"Remo—he doesn’t want me...why? Am I not good enough? I-I"

He pulled her into his arms and gently rubbed her back, "Shs—Fuck I don’t even know how to do this emotion shit."

He spat but Beatrix could see the concern along side the anger in his voice.

"Take a deep breath sis and tell me what happened? I thought he was going to apologise for hurting then you will kiss and make up? Why the fuck are you crying now?!"

Beatrix hiccuped trying to get her words out, "He said I should go home with you. He is sending me away. I-I can’t leave him Remo. I love him so much. I won’t survive without him."

Beatrix held his shirt tightly as sobs wrecked through her, it hurts so much.

It felt like someone had ripped her heart out of her chest.

"You’re will do fine without him sis. Weren’t you surviving fine without him?" Remo said,

"But that was before I met him! Now he had consumed all of me. "

Beatrix pulled away, "My heart, soul, body. I don’t think you understand what love does to you, Remo."

Remo sighed, "Come on. I’m taking you back home. If he doesn’t want you. He should be grateful you want to be with his ugly ass."

Beatrix could barely hear what Remo was saying, she never knew your heart and stomach can ache at the same time . It was the worst kind of pain. And as much as she was trying to understand why he was doing this, she just couldn’t.

Like Remo said, you never hurt someone you love even if you’re having the most shittiest day.

So why was he hurting her?