THE Knight's Hidden Princess
Chapter 114: Self Pity

Chapter 114: Self Pity

I was such a fucking idiot!

I finally got the one thing I wanted and what did I do? I let him walk away!

I was ready to tell him how I truly felt, after hearing his raw confession, I was ready to tell him that my heart belonged to him and to him only, but he was now...gone!

I had let my fear paralyze me, I had waited too long and now Reagan had walked away thinking that I didn’t care about him. Heather had claimed it was just a week but it feels like a year to me. A whole lot could happen in a week. A heart can be broken, a love lost and what will I do if he shows up with another woman and decides he wants her as another concubine?

Fuck, how the hell do I cope if he decides to do just that? I thought to myself.

The thought made something in my stomach churn. But then Reagan didn’t seem like the type of man that would go back on his word. He wouldn’t take a concubine after all that he said! He knew how affected I was after he took in Celeste and how the whole thing almost drove a wedge between us, so he wouldn’t do something like that again.

But there is the fact that you had humiliated him in front of the entire court and then hidden away from him for an entire week and now, he is gone for a week! A tiny malicious voice whispered in my ear and I groaned as I flopped down on the bed.

Reagan was gone for a week, away from me and he could easily decide I wasn’t worth the trouble if someone whispered into his ear and offered him comfort since all I could only offer him was pain!

I groaned again as I flopped back down on the bed, kicking my feet as I screamed into the pillow in frustration.

"Having thoughts about sire taking a concubine again?" Heather chuckled from where she was seated.

"It’s not just thought but a full blown nightmare at this point!" I groaned not bothering to lift my head from the pillow when all of a sudden I did again, "But what if he already has? What if as we speak right now he is in the arms of another woman who is comforting him?"

Heather rolled her eyes at me before she collapsed down on a chair. "You do realize that it’s all in your head right? Nothing of the sort will ever happen because sire loves you?"

"Then why isn’t he coming back to me?"

"Uh, because it’s only the second day and he stated he was going to be gone for a week!"

Groaning again, I collapsed back to the pillow and yelled out another muffled scream.

Releasing an exasperated sigh, Heather stood up and came to meet me she gently rubbed my back. "Please my lady you need to lie down on your back, it’s not safe for the baby if you lie on your stomach like that."

Sniffing, I turned onto my back staring up at the ceiling as fresh tears pricked my eyes. "I don’t think I can survive this week without him!"

"You survived a week and some days without him, I’m sure you will be fine!"

"Yes but that was before I knew he loved me!" I whined before kicking my feet in the air in frustration.

Heather heaved out another sigh as she stared down at me in disapproval. "My lady, careful please!" She stated and I turned to look at her, "You know instead of stating in your room and whining, you could actually step outside and go out for some air, get your mind off things."

I turned to stare at Heather just then knowing she was right but there was also the fact that I was too scared to venture out of my own little haven of self-pity. But still, Heather was right though. I needed to get out of this room if not my thoughts would suffocate me and that isn’t something that I wanted to happen.

Sighing, I sat up straight from the bed with a pout. "Well then I suppose an afternoon stroll in the garden could do me some good."

I swung my legs from the bed while absentmindedly rubbing my stomach. Heaving out another sigh I went out of the bedroom and walked down the stairs. I did pause when I was in front of the door and then before I could rethink it, I pushed the door open where I met Eddie staying right in front of my door.

"Let me guess, Reagan told you to keep an eye on me?"

Eddie smiled at me in response. "Yeah, pretty much so!"

"See? If he didn’t care he wouldn’t have sent Eddie to guard you!" Heather whispered right next to me.

I rolled my eyes at him but then I smiled in response before I stepped outside completely. It was the first time that I had been outside after that incident that happened and to be honest, I was kind of nervous. As I walked towards the gardens, servants that I encountered bowed their head but I could hear their whispers afterwards.

"So perhaps staying indoor with your thoughts was the better option?"

"Yeah, you think?" I asked her with an eye roll just as the fourth servant rushed to go whisper with another, not bothering to be subtle about it.

Heather heaved out another sigh, "So maybe we should go back in? I think we’ve had enough air for today."

"Agreed!" I said about to turn back when all of a sudden, I noticed several carriages from afar, each of them heading towards the manor.

I squinted at it wondering who the visitors could be. Everyone watched with rapt attention and I noticed several of the servants and the guards rushing forward towards the entrance of the castle. Deciding to go and get a better look, I stepped forward and it was then I noticed the banners that were flapping in the wind.

It could be seen from the gate and my heart pounded in my chest as I made out the insignia on the banner. Bold crimson and gold and my heart filled with dread as I realized who the insignia belonged to.

My father has arrived!

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