My Dear Duke(BL)
Chapter 153: Stubborn

Chapter 153: Stubborn

Asher really did not feel guilty.

"Why did you just completely abandon me?!"

Asher then questioned the duke again, his gaze still not so friendly yet not completely hostile either. He wanted to ask this question really bad.

While he was sleepless and restless, then sitting by the duke’s door crying and begging the duke to show himself, he always asked this question himself as he thought if the duke really thought him to be such an unloyal person who would not care for his lover if he were to get into such a situation. He honestly wanted to know a reason as to why the duke felt the need to make him so miserable like that.

"I am sorry."

Felix felt ashamed. He didn’t have a certain reason but he felt he failed everyone around him. Maybe he got a little no...very selfish by isolating himself, even when he knew they were worried and was calling him and begging him to show up...

He felt very sorry about it. He knew he was causing them pain but he didn’t think of a moment he would face them and hear them ask him questions with that pain.

"You are not sorry!"

Asher screamed. But what made him even more frustrated was the duke’s very shameful expression. Asher didn’t mean to make him feel guilty. He just wanted to let him know but now he realised he just lost his temper and took out his frustration on him.

Ha...He is really mad.

"Get up."

Asher sighed and rubbed his forehead, then said looking at the duke who still just sat on the ground.

"Mm.."

Felix obediently got up, but couldn’t stand up for long as he felt dizzy. Thankfully, Asher caught him in time and pulled him to the bed, then watched him silently lying down.

"What’s your problem, ha?"

Asher asked, now sitting down at the edge of the bed.

"..."

The duke was silent again.

"Duke, I really want to punch you again."

Asher said. He couldn’t control his emotions at that moment. He felt angry, upest, impatient and frustrated. Basically, really overwhelmed.

The lack of sleep and the stress of the last days seem to take over him.

However, Asher was aware. He knew he had gotten aggressive and needed to calm down.

Alas, all he wanted to see was the duke. But he ended up hitting him as soon as they saw each other. So he already let the frustration take over him...

Asher sighed, his hand extending to the duke’s cheek, then gently caressing.

Well, he still didn’t regret that punch...

He kind of felt relieved now. But he would definitely be more careful in the future. He wasn’t a jerk to assault a traumatised person. But he did it already. So he could at least not do it again.

No...he won’t apologise.

The duke needed to be punished for abandoning him.

He wanted this to be the first and the last time that he is indeed a very evil person.

He will be better.

And, now thinking about the past days, Asher was quite mad at himself too.

Because, why didn’t he think of that damn window before?!

He could have seen the duke before things got more tense.

It’s good at least he finally thought about it before things got way worse...

"Duke...just let me get straight to the point. Are you afraid you will also become like your mother?"

Asher asked, his actions and tone now really gentle. So much so that Felix wanted to suddenly hug Asher and honestly tell him he is scared.

And, tell him all his worries, fears and regrets.

But he didn’t want to burden Asher more than this since he had already made things worse for Asher. Also, he didn’t want to give Asher the stress to comfort him.

When things felt too fresh and like a nightmare, Felix actually believed ignoring Asher and distancing himself was the best.

However, Asher was mad about that the most.

Why didn’t this idiot understand loved ones are there to stand by your side no matter what problem you have?

Till the duke is alive, no matter the condition, wealth, health, figure and age, Asher was willing...and will assign himself to love the duke still. Because...like he said...he loves this idiot.

Asher couldn’t believe the duke would not think Asher would do that. Did this guy really think Asher would go away on his own if he finds out he is sick? What kind of an idiot was he?

They were lovers, damn it!

Asher had been cursing out the duke in his mind when he thought about it during those days so he didn’t feel any hesitation to call those everything to the duke’s face now that the duke was all silent again.

For god’s sake!

Talk.

Say something.

Cry or do anything!

Asher was willing to hear...he knew the duke needed to be comforted. But he first has to know what exactly he should know to comfort him. So...Asher wanted the duke to answer him or talk to him so badly...

While Asher told all his thoughts and explained how he was making him frustrated, Felix silently listened, like a child who was getting scolded.

That moment, Felix realised how he was more than an idiot. He was so dumb, wasn’t he? He really thought he couldn’t rely on anyone else.

During this mess...Felix actually felt like killing himself so he wouldn’t be a burden to anyone. But like the coward he was, he felt scared to do that.

And now, he was glad he was a coward for failing at that. He...didn’t have to do that. He had Asher.

The lover who is willing to love him no matter how he is...

Felix couldn’t help but feel a sense of warmth flowing through his mind...

He didn’t feel so bad.

But he still was unable to properly give an answer to Asher. It’s just...he didn’t want to talk about it even though he knew he was avoiding it again.

So, with the duke completely silent for everything he said, Asher felt defeated and tried harder to get Felix to open up.

Well, it was in a quite manipulative way though...

Maybe that’s only how he can make this idiot obedient.

’Don’t blame me for being stubborn.’