It's Just A Picture (BL)
Chapter 158: What did we do wrong?

Chapter 158: What did we do wrong?

It was harsh but it was the only way to get Dongwoo to talk. He was being so stubborn that they had to use this means.

It didn’t ease their hearts to torture him in that manner but they were pushed to the edge this time. And unless they could read his mind, this was the only effective solution that had for now.

Dongwoo sat in between the twins with his legs tightly pressed together and his hands pressed on his thighs.

It was torture.

He was no longer aroused. Rather, he was uncomfortable and his heart wouldn’t calm down. He was worried that the twins would get him to talk and that took his mind off his erection, causing it to soften.

"Are you ready to talk now, Hyung?" Seojin asked. "We’ve been patient for more than a week, hoping you would come to talk to us on your own so we gave you the space you wanted. It was hard, but we did it."

"I... I don’t have anything, on my mind." Dongwoo said, adamant about keeping his lips sealed.

Seojin gritted his teeth. What was he still being stubborn?

"Hyung, what is it this time?" Seojin asked. "You told us everything. Your secrets and your pains. You told them to us, was it not because you trusted us?"

"Yes, I... I trust you. I trust you." Dongwoo said.

"So, what is it this time? Do you feel it’s more horrible than the rest that you refuse to tell us?"

Dongwoo went silent, confirming his words.

"Ah!" He covered his face, turning away as he tried to think through his own actions. What did he do wrong? Where did he make a mistake for their Hyung to still feel insecure about letting out his worries?

Was it really not enough? Everything he had done so far.

"Hyung," Seojun called and Dongwoo turned to look at the sadness in his eyes. "Did it break?"

"What? Did what break?"

"Your trust?" At his words, along with his sorrowful expression, Dongwoo felt his heart break.

Ah, that was not what he wanted. He trusted them. He trusted them but... He could not trust himself.

He kept having these thoughts. These intrusive thoughts that made him feel like a horrible person. How was he going to tell them that?

How was he going to explain the selfish and greedy feelings he was having?

His eyes grew teary and he shook his head.

They said they would never hate him no matter what he did but he was still scared. He took the risk this far and said everything. They never hated him for it but who was to say they wouldn’t hate him once they found out about his thoughts?

About his nasty thoughts that seemed to benefit only him.

He shook his head profusely as his tears fell on his fists.

"No, it didn’t." He said. "But I’m sorry... I’m sorry. I’m so sorry."

"Hyung," Seojin called and Dongwoo looked up to him, his tears rolling down in heavy lines.

Then, he saw Seojin’s face. His eyes were... Teary. He looked like he would cry as he said,

"I feel so hurt, Hyung. Please, don’t torture me like this."

Dongwoo bit his lip and bowed his head.

"I’m sorry. But it’s better to hurt now than have you hate me. I can’t... Let you know what’s on my mind." He got up and wanted to leave but Seojin caught his wrist.

"Please, Hyung."

Dongwoo tried to hold his ground and not look at his face. He would get swayed and his heart would break more.

Even this... Even this much wasn’t enough to get him to talk. Why? Just why?

"What did we do wrong?" Seojin asked and like before, Dongwoo said,

"It’s not you, Seojin. It’s the kind of person I am. And no matter how much you love me, no matter how much you assure me with everything you have, I can’t help but feel scared. I’ve been scared all my life, so these moments, these lovely, sweet moments with you two... They can’t make my fears disappear all at once. And I don’t think they’ll ever disappear. I’m sorry."

Seojin let go of his wrist and bowed his head. What to do?

"It seems it’s come to this." Seojun suddenly said and went to grab Dongwoo by the arm. "Since love cannot assure you, what about showing you the opposite?"

"Matteo, what are you doing?" Seojin asked, as his eyebrows furrowed in a frown.

"Hyung, tell me, if you saw a side of us that is detestable, one that you can’t help but hate, will that finally convince you to tell us what this ’hateful’ thought of yours is?" He asked, staring into Dongwoo’s eyes with a serious and dangerous gaze.

It was unlike any gaze Dongwoo had ever seen and it was terrifying.

He shivered.

"What are you doing?"

"Matteo, stop it. Let him go." Seojin called out but it looked like Seojun had made up his mind.

"The opposite side of what I see." Dongwoo suddenly mumbled and closed his eyes. He tried to think of it.

The opposite side of what he was seeing of the twins... With that gaze. Then that would be...

He scared himself with his own imagination and opened his eyes right away. He didn’t think it would be that frightening. It was so horrifying.

His heartbeat was unstable, and it was all from the things he saw in his imagination. He started heaving heavily, trying to catch his breath but it was hard.

"Hyung, are you okay?" Seojin asked worriedly but Seojun wouldn’t let go, causing him to suspect he was the reason Dongwoo was hyperventilating. "I told you to let go. Are you deaf?"

He shoved Seojun and caught Dongwoo but Dongwoo was still heaving heavily.

"What did you do?" Seojin yelled at Seojun but Seojun was equally confused why Dongwoo was like that. He didn’t even do anything.

Was it his gaze?

Did he terrify him with his gaze? No, what had he done?

Was he out of his mind?

"Hyung, come on, calm down." Seojin said and kissed him, hoping to get him to calm down.

If he could help him through CPR then maybe...

Seojin was scared. Scared that he would lose Dongwoo. This time... This time... Why couldn’t he do anything? He was all grown up so why?

"I’m sorry." Seojun apologized and made Dongwoo pass out. He held his hand. "I’m so sorry."

"Matteo, I keep telling you to mind your actions in front of Hyung." Seojin scolded.

He had carried Dongwoo to his bed and laid him down.

"What did you do? Why was Hyung like that?" Seojin harshly interrogated him but he had no answers.

He was equally scared.

"I... I don’t know." Seojun said, bowing his head as he pressed Dongwoo’s hand against his head. "I have no idea what I did."

It didn’t look like he was lying, but then why did Dongwoo suddenly start hyperventilating? This was the first time something like this was happening.

Wait, this wasn’t the first time.

If he remembered correctly, there was something about him hyperventilating in the files they got about him.

He took a bus that was crowded and a molester tried to molest him on the bus. He got so frightened that he started heaving heavily, searching for air.

That meant, this time, Dongwoo got scared and that was why he hyperventilated. But what was he scared of? Was it because they wanted to know his thoughts?

Was it so frightening? Was that why he entered this state?

’I’m sorry, Hyung. I’m so sorry. You weren’t the only one being stubborn. I was too. I... I wasn’t patient enough. I’m sorry.’

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