Carnivals: Claimed By The Deranged Alpha Prince [BL]
Chapter 133: Intimate Conversations

Chapter 133: Intimate Conversations

Jules’ pov

"Have you ever been with a girl?"

Blaze blinked once as soon as the queen registered with him and then he breathed out a small chuckle.

"Curious?" He drawled.

We were currently laying together in bed, I was still undressed and underneath the sheets. I didn’t know why I actually asked that question just now, it just popped into my head and then I asked it at once without hesitation.

He hummed a little as he responded.

"I have." He responded and I felt my heart hammer against the sides of my ribs before falling into my stomach.

"Oh." I whispered slowly.

Blaze was carefully staring at me, he was laying a few inches away from me and he was laying across the blanket, on top of it.

"What’s wrong?" He asked after a few moments and I shrugged a little while feeling somewhat dumb.

"It’s nothing." I tried to assure him, but it didn’t seem like he was ready to let it go when he kept asking me about it.

"It’s just that..." I trailed off at first before continuing.

"Do you ever see me as a... as a girl?" I finally managed to get the word out and this time, I watched as blaze blinked twice while still staring at me.

"What?" He finally managed to asked and I shrugged again before clearing my throat.

"Do you um, do you think of me as a girl? When touching me, do you see me as a girl?" I asked again, because this particular thing has bed nagging at my insides for a while.

What prompted this question was nothing but my insecurities and I hated that I was still letting those things affect how my brain works till today, it’s just that I sometimes can’t help it.

"As a girl?" Blaze echoed before firmly shaking his head.

"No, I don’t." He added and I felt a relieved feeling consumed me almost immediately,

I swallowed emptily and nodded my head. "Okay."

I glanced away but then he grabbed my chin and tugged on it so our gaze got locked once again.

"Why did you ask that question? What brought it along?" He asked and I tried lying about it being nothing at first, but then I remembered how smart he is and how it’s extremely hard to outsmart him.

"It’s just that... you know since I’m not a normal boy, most people tend to regard me as a girl, and well, I- I don’t like it." I admitted and he stared at me for a few seconds before his eyes softened significantly.

"Oh, bunny. I don’t see you as a girl. I see you as a boy, nothing asides from that. A boy who’s completely perfect." He continued to speak and I felt my heart flutter a little around my chest.

"You shouldn’t entertain things like this in your head, bunny." He continued and I let out a small huff.

"I- I can’t help it, it’s not like I let thoughts like this come to me on purpose, they just do of their own accord." I explained just as he reached out and tugged me closer to him.

"Does it bother you to be seen as a girl?" He asked softly and I bit on my bottom lip as I slowly nodded.

This is the first trauma I went through, and the one which made me start seeing myself as a freak from a very young age. Ever since then, I had been extremely traumatized and detested by the thought of being seen or regarded as a girl.

After explaining to Blaze, he massaged my shoulders as he let the entire thing sink into his head.

"Don’t let those things get to you any longer, okay? It’s definitely going to be hard, but you can overcome those thoughts if you want to. And the first step in doing that is believing that you’re perfect."

I bit at the inside of my cheeks as I blinked a few times, while my heart fluttered in my chest.

"If you don’t see yourself as perfect, how do you expect others to?" He continued and I swallowed a little before shrugging again.

"T- that’s cause I’m not perfect." I paused for a moment.

"Perfect is a strong word and well, I’m definitely not it. I’m not built like a boy, I have girls features and girls genitalia. I’d always be weird and abnormal, never perfection." I breathed out and Blaze stared at me for long seconds before reaching forward to stroke my hair out of my face.

"Who defined perfection?" He suddenly asked and I slowly blinked in confusion.

"Perfection has no definition or meaning. Perfection is what we make it to be. If you believe you’re perfect, then you are. You’re perfect, because I say so. Did you think I lied to you when I said those words?"

I hastily shook my head after he asked that question, heart pounding away at the sides of my ribs.

"Good. Because you are." He breathed out and I felt my insides flop around a little.

I still have a lot of thoughts currently dancing around in my mind, but I wouldn’t dwell on them any longer right now.

"Have you ever dated anyone before?" I asked after a few minutes had passed and this time, blaze let out a throaty laugh.

"Am I on a hot seat, bunny?" He murmured and I felt my cheeks darken a little as I defended myself.

"I’m just curious." I whined and he chuckled softly.

"No, bunny. I haven’t dated anyone before." He responded before hs leaned forward and asked.

"What about you?"

I found myself spluttering almost immediately at the question and I struggled to find a response.

"I haven’t done anything like that before." I mumbled and he laughed a little this time before pulling me even closer to him. He was still laying across the blanket and I was still trapped underneath it as he continued.

"Guess we’re alike than we think, huh?" He drawled and right now, I couldn’t agree more.

He leaned forward and lightly brushed his lips against mine, large hand slowly cupping the side of my face to pull my closer. I felt my heart start to flutter once again as I leaned forward and let my mouth fall open in order for him to deepen it. It doesn’t matter how much we’ve kissed, I’d never stop waiting it, and neither would I ever tire of it.

His hold tightened across my waist and he leaned even closer in the next moment as he slowly broke out of the kiss and pulled away. He nuzzled my throat and I shuddered a little, hands clutching the fabric of his teeth as I panted softly while trying not to lose control so easily.

When he pulled away from my throat and returned back to my face, I expected him to kiss me again or do something related to that.

But instead, he leaned forward and said the most unexpected thing ever.

"I think we should go on a date."

My eyes widened and my heart flew into my throat because that was the last thing I expected him to say right now.

"What?" I whispered and he grinned while shrugging.

"We should go on a date. You’ve ever been on one before?"

I blinked slowly as I shook my head in response, prompting him to chuckle as he flopped on the back.

"I havent too." He admitted, tight before he turned on his side again and continued.

"Which is why we should go on one. What do you think?"

I spluttered for a few moments again, struggling for what to say. My heart was racing right now and I couldn’t believe that I was being asked on a date like this. Put it to Blaze to pull something like this when you least expect it.

I cleared my throat a little before speaking.

"I- I think a date sounds alright." I finally mumbled and Blaze snorted before pulling the blanket away and slipping underneath it. His hands slid across my middle as he tugged me forward till I was pressed flush against him.

His hand wandered down and caressed my bare ass and I felt my face heat up a little.

"It does?" He drawled as he kneaded the side of my hip and tugged my leg across the top of his waist, sending a sharp rush of heat through my insides.

"Yeah." My voice was breathless this time and he chuckled.

After he made me ride his face like I was some sort of classless, desperate slut, I ended up falling asleep a little. I still don’t understand why orgasms tend to knock me out everytime. Before I woke up, Blaze had already slipped a blanket across my body, said blanket is the one we’re both underneath right now.

I was supposed to still meet up with my friends in a few minutes, and so I reached down and held his wrist before he could do anything more, reminding him of my appointment with my friends.

He wrapped his arm around my waist and nuzzled my throat.

"Don’t go. Your friends are dumb anyway."