Carnivals: Claimed By The Deranged Alpha Prince [BL]
Chapter 115: Greenest Flag Ever

Chapter 115: Greenest Flag Ever

Jules’ pov

It felt like I was no longer floating away. It felt like I was finally on solid grounds. His arms felt firm and solid around me, chest warm and scent filling up my nostrils.

I gripped him tightly, refusing to let go for a moment because I was scared that this was something I was making up in my mind and not actually happening in reality.

"Shh." His voice was low as he shushed me. I felt the vibrations from the middle of his chest and I suddenly got the urge to burrow into him even more as I tried to stop my tears from coming.

"I’m sorry, please don’t send me away." I whispered.

I wasn’t sure of the amount of times I’ve repeated that sentence. I had said it over and over again and have completely lost Clint count at this point.

My head was hurting from how much I had cried and I could feel my chest hurt as well, but I didn’t pay those things any heed, because they weren’t important.

The only thing important right now was Blaze.

I desperately wanted to make things right with him and to get him to forgive me and not send me away, because no matter how ridiculous it sounds, I couldn’t imagine living life knowing he doesn’t want anything to do with me any longer.

It felt like I had disappointed him by making him believe I didn’t trust him, and that made me feel sick to my stomach. If I could turn back time and right everything, I’d do it in a heartbeat.

Another sob rolled off my tongue and I felt his large palms massaged my shoulders as he shushed me again.

"It’s alright, bunny." His voice was soft as he spoke and somehow, that made me want to break down all over again.

He had just referred to me with the nickname and that made me cling to a little bit of hope with everything in me.

He pulled me out of his arms till we were staring at each other. I sniffed shakily and wiped my cheeks with my hands, trying to stop the tears once again. He was crouched before me and I desperately wanted to believe that he was here right now because he changed his mind and not because he had been about to hurry me up to leave his room.

"I’m so sorry." I whispered, voice heavy and thick with tears and he shushed me, hands cupping my face and thumb swiping over my wet cheeks.

I felt my heart flutter in my chest and I gripped his wrists, desperate to get him to understand that it was all a misunderstanding.

"I trust you, Blaze, I promise. I’m sorry I made you believe otherwise, I’m so–" I was still speaking when he shushed me again, voice soft as it drifted into my ears and over every inch of my skin.

I swallowed emptily and tried to get my heart from flying out of my throat while blinking a couple of times.

He ended up staring at me for a moment longer before letting out a small huff, and then he was sitting in the spot at the foot of my bed which I almost never made use of.

My hands began to tremble but before I could fully formulate any thought, he was tugging me across his laps, knocking the air from my lungs again as my knees pressed against the sides of his hips while I let out a startled sound, mind racing over a thousand miles at once.

He let out a sigh after a few moments and I winced a little

"See? Just like I predicted, I couldn’t stand to witness you crying." He started and I swallowed emptily as my heartbeat echoed loudly in my ears.

"I’m sorry," I whispered after a few seconds, my fingers nervously tanging with each other’s as I waited with bated breath.

"Stop apologizing, bunny." He finally responded and I sucked in a sharp breath, feeling like my chest just got stabbed.

I was still deep in my thoughts when his left hand cupped my face, his thumb rubbing over the spot underneat my eyes.

"There’s no need to apologize, okay?" He continued and I sniffed as my eyes widened a little, breath catching in my throat.

"You’re not m- mad?" I tentatively whispered after a few seconds and this time, he let out a huff as he shook his head.

"Mad was the last thing I felt. If anything, what I felt was something else entirely. It was stupid, I’ve never experienced that before. Once again, you’re the one who evoked that feeling inside of me.

I felt my eyes well up with tears once again, feeling like the worse person ever on earth.

Blaze thumbed the tear drops away before they could roll down my cheeks.

"I’m so sorry." I whispered, with a sense of urgency in me this time.

He moved his hand from my cheek to my hair, brushing my hair out of my face.

"It’s okay, bunny." He breathed out and I desperately wanted to believe him, but I could still feel a lot of emotions running through my chest at once.

"Are we okay? You’re not sending me to a different room?" I asked and he chuckled this time, sound grating over my spine.

"No, bunny. I’m not. You’re staying here with me." He explained and I felt a sharp shrug of relief course through every inch of my insides at once.

"I realized that trust doesn’t work that way. It’s not like a switch which you can easily control. It was wrong for me to expect you to fully trust me just because I’ve always protected you. I didn’t know that before because I never understood how trust works before, but now I do. So we’re alright, okay?" He continued and I felt my chest well up with so much emotion which made my heart flutter uncontrollably inside of me.

I tentatively reached for his hand, squeezing around his fingers.

Once again, he had placed my comfort above his. He had accepted that I didn’t fully trust him, and I wasn’t sure there was anything more wholesome and significant than that, because I actually do trust him.

Which was what prompted my next words.

"I want to tell you everything... the truth."

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