Carnivals: Claimed By The Deranged Alpha Prince [BL]
Chapter 112: Undeserving Of Everything

Chapter 112: Undeserving Of Everything

Jules’ pov

I puffed out a long breath and gripped the soft material of my pants while my heart pounded away. I was beyond nervous, it was so bad that I was feeling dizzy once again.

Blaze’s grip was still around my chin, which meant I couldn’t look away from him even though it didn’t feel like his grip was strong, I just couldn’t bring myself to glance away.

I let out a stuttered breath after a few moments and then I awkwardly cleared my throat.

The side of Blaze’s eyes twitched tight before he retrieved his hand from underneath my chin, chosing to rest it on my second leg, making my heart remain stuck in my throat as I blinked at him.

"So... how was the day you spent with your guardian?" He asked almost immediately and I let out a startled sound because that was the last thing I expected him to bring up right now.

I cleared my throat again, suddenly feeling parched,

"It was..." I trailed off and bit on my bottom lip for a few seconds as a bunch of emotions flowed through my insides.

I felt my eyes start to sting a little and I horrific blinked that sensation away. As soon as scenes of moments I spent bsck as Andrian’s office began to rush through my insides, the urge to cry began to slowly creep inside of me.

I could still remember the scared look on Raven’s face as she ordered me to not come any closer, it was like she had been calling me the word ’freak’ without even having to say a single word. I hated the entire time I spent at Andrian’s office.

From him squandering my hopes of coming clean to Blaze, to my msgic refusing to unlock, and to Raven informing me that no one out there could unlock it aside the person he locked it.

After a day this bad, I hoped to arrived and go to sleep at once, but I had to first have an encounter with that omega and his fiends, then Xander in the elevator.

To sum it all, my day was extremely terrible.

"It was okay." I ended up whispering in response, a bitter taste clinging to my tongue.

When Blaze remained silent, I tentatively glanced up to see him watching me with an unreadable expression on, one which made my heartbeat accelerate.

"Why do you lie to me so much?" He finally breathe out and my eyes widened as my breath hooked in my chest, hesrt almost tearing from my ribs.

My mouth opened and closed a few times before I finally got a word out.

"Huh?"

Blaze let out a sound which resembled a huff while shaking his head slowly. He stared up at the roof for a few moments before finally focusing on me again. This time, his right hand cupped the side of my face as he began to speak once again.

"You lie to me a lot, bunny. Why do you do that?"

I swallowed emptily and tried to take in deep breaths for my empty lungs. I didn’t know what to say in response right now. I felt so much like a fish out of water.

"I- I don’t know–"

"Remember when we first got here? Remember what I told you?" He continued as he leaned closer to me, stealing the small air floating around in my lungs with his presence.

I let out a strangled breath before slowly shaking my head, eyes wide as I blinked a few times.

"I told you not to lie to me." He reminded me and I sucked in a sharp breath as realization dawned on me.

"Oh." I whispered after a few moment and he nodded once.

"You know what you did after that?" He asked but didn’t wait for a response before continuing.

"You lied to my face over and over again." He announced and it felt like I got doused with cold water in a flash. I could feel my stomach knotting together from how strung up I was currently feeling.

"Over and over again, bunny. Tell me, do you think that makes me pleased?" He asked and I frantically shook my head, feeling all my insides start to crumble.

"You’re supposed to be good for me... to be my good boy. Tell me, you think lying to me over and over makes you a good boy?" He continued and i felt panic start to shrug through every inch of my insides in the next moment.

I shook my head over and over again.

"I’m so sorry." I whispered urgently, voice cracking from the amount of guilt flooding my entire chest. I gripped my pants tight, feeling nauseous and nervous at the same time.

"It makes you undeserving of things from me." He continued and I felt my heart start to shatter inside of me, tears pricking the sides of my eyes in the next moment.

My chin wobbled as I attempted to speak, but nothing ended up coming out.

"It makes you undeserving of my protection, or my concern, of the attention I shower you with... it makes you completely undeserving of all of them because you lie to me over and over again."

His hand at the side of my face suddenly moved to my chin and then the grip hardened, making me stiffen in a heartbeat.

"And you know what I hate the most?" He paused for a moment and I tried to blink back my tears.

"It’s liars. I hate liars. Dishonesty. I detest it." He continued, voice sharper than they were a moment ago and I felt the tears finally spill from the sides of my eyes.

He stared at me for a moment longer and then his thumb collected a teardrop right before he completely pulled away from me, making it suddenly feel like I got engulfed by a cold gust of wind the next moment.

"I’m so sorry." I whispered desperately as I pressed my hands against my face, shoulders shaking from the force of my tears.

Oh gods. What have I done?