Vengeance of The Broken Lycan Prince [BL]
Chapter 185: Standing Right on The Ledge

Chapter 185: Standing Right on The Ledge

[KAWAI]

"Leave... please. I want to be alone," Kosta breathed brokenly, his breaths slow and defeated. He looked like he just wanted to disappear and forget about all that had transpired that day.

His hair was disheveled and his clothes were soaked in the blood of the ministers. He looked so different from what he had been like that morning, a very big contrast to what he had hoped to be.

He felt like shit, his mind closely filling up with thoughts of the worst happening to him.

The fear of abandonment that he had fought for years and years while he kept asking his scent had resurfaced and it wasn’t just low this time. It was hitting him at full throttle and the worst part of all this was that he didn’t have family to run to.

He didn’t have someone other than Tamiko.

He had always been alone in the kingdom of beasts, trying to best himself when his life had forced him to take up arms. He was the Lycan Chief, and it hurt like hell to be stuck in that state.

Oh, how Kosta was overthinking again. He hated himself for being that weak, for not being born a stronger breed, for being born the weakest of the lot, and for being stepped on in an instant.

He was still haunted by the ministers and their cruel words. Sure, they were dead right now, but their words had remained stuck in Kosta’s head. He would always be the omega of Kawai, and the only omega for this timeline.

He was just that and it was scary to even think of what tomorrow looked like for him. If Tamiko insisted on being a rogue, Kosta knew he was done for. He would never get back what he had lost and life would never be the same again.

"I... can’t be around you right now," Kosta said in earnest, and as Tamiko looked at him, the young Lycan felt the life leave him. This was not what he had intended for Kosta and he hated himself for the way that it had all turned out.

He had tried his best to make life better but he had managed to fail.

"Kosta..." Tamiko began softly, careful not to upset his omega. He wanted to make it better for him, but it was not going to be that easy. It was a truth that was staring at him sadly, a reality that had broken his heart one too many times.

It was the kind of life that made him want to disappear and never come back up again. Kosta wanted to drown and fade because of the pain he was feeling and Tamiko understood him so well.

He had been there one too many times so this wasn’t going to be the first time that this chaos ripped through him. He truly hadn’t expected that his Kosta would be the one to pay the damn price of that.

It wasn’t fair, and it hurt as fuck.

This was cruelty at its finest and Tamiko wasn’t sure what he needed to do to make it alright.

"Go. I’ll take care of myself," Kosta said defeatedly. He didn’t want to share his shame with Tamiko and the young Lycan prince could feel the pain to the fullest. He knew that this wasn’t easy for Kosta just as it wasn’t for him.

Perhaps he just had to try and be understanding but would it make any of this any better for the Lycan Chief? What the hell was their life supposed to be?

"Okay... I’ll leave. But you must promise to call out for me if you need anything. I just want to take care of you because you’re m erasthai and because we both know if the positions were switched, you wouldn’t have abandoned me," Tamiko explained in understanding, and Kosta let out a whine.

He didn’t want to interact with Tamiko right now but he hated that Tamiko was so right about what they meant to each other.

It was comforting and scary at the same time, honestly; and Tamiko could only hope that it would all get better even though the days had gone so difficult for them and it just didn’t make sense for a while now.

"Okay," Kosta said dismissively, like he didn’t even want to see his erasthai close to him. He couldn’t even be blamed because the day had been the worst he had had for a long time.

This was not how he had imagined things to get but then here he was, wondering if there was something still wrong, or if they were doomed.

"Oh..." Tamiko sighed in distraught realization. This wasn’t going to be easy but he had to give Kosta the space he needed no matter how challenging that was sourcing for the young prince.

He wasn’t used to being the one who left and right now, that seemed to be the best possible option for him and his erasthai. Oh, how the fates were cruel to both of them.

"I’ll leave now my precious," Tamiko said as she laid his erasthai on the bed and covered him up before leaving. This was breaking his heart but he couldn’t begin to imagine what Kosta was feeling.

Perhaps that was also why he wasn’t going to try to fight to stay with Kosta in that weak moment. This was Tamiko’s doing, and he would forever blame himself for it.

"Please don’t give up," Tamiko whispered before he closed the door to the Lycan Chief’s chambers. He didn’t leave at first, despite locking the door. Instead, Tamiko slid down the door, settling himself on the cold floor that was the remainder of the life he had almost lost.

I can take care of both of us, I promise," he mumbled defeatedly as the door stared right at him. This was crazy, and he despised the side of his reality. It wasn’t the best of them all and it was fucked up.

Oh, but Tamiko was hurting.

For the first time since he met Igor Konstantin, he didn’t know what to do. He always had contingencies for when shit went sideways. He was always the kid with answers that he needed and even those that he didn’t need.

And yet as he leaned at his Erasthai’s door, he was without a clue on what to do. His heart was constricting, and he wanted to cry. Oh, he really needed to do something to suppress the rage.

So defeatedly he kicked himself up, unsure of whether there would ever be a bright day in his life anymore. He knew there was only one person who could make him feel better however complicated things had gone; and right now, he needed him.

Maybe it was not the best of ideas given the shock that everyone had been experiencing in the past few hours but then it wasn’t.

The options had all been exhausted already, the pain that he was feeling was valid and the rage was not something that could go away anytime soon. Tamiko was in a pickle and everything just screamed danger to him.

Perhaps there would be a better way out of the mess, right? But was that all that he was seeking this time?

"I was expecting you."

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