This Japanese Monogatari Isn't Lame
Chapter 425 - 288: The Troublesome Rebellious Period of a Young Girl (An Additional Update for the Alliance Leader of Holy Grail for Heaven)_2

Chapter 425: Chapter 288: The Troublesome Rebellious Period of a Young Girl (An Additional Update for the Alliance Leader of Holy Grail for Heaven)_2

Her gaze was scattered, her face wearing an unchanging smile:

"Let me... say goodbye to all this."

Beichuan Si looked at Shan Yuanmu Yuzi.

To be honest, if a person had no desire to live at all, no matter how hard Beichuan Si tried, it would all be in vain.

And Beichuan Si hated those who completely gave up on themselves the most.

If one didn’t know how to save oneself, why should others bother to rescue them?

He slowly said, "For a person who has no desire to survive, no amount of effort is of any use."

Beichuan Si’s words were very clear, so clear that Shenzhu Shihui standing beside him opened her mouth in surprise, "Wait... Beichuan, what are you doing? Aren’t you going to save her?"

Was Beichuan now giving up?

That would be consistent with Beichuan Si’s character.

He was that kind of person.

If a person wouldn’t save themselves, how could they ask for salvation from others?

But... to let Shenzhu Shihui watch as Shan Yuanmu Yuzi just died—

"Who told you Shan Yuanmu Yuzi has no desire to be saved?" Beichuan Si glanced sideways at Shenzhu Shihui, his look subtle, concerned about this girl’s comprehension.

Magong Yongshi was so reliable, how could she become like this as her sister?

"But you just clearly—"

Beichuan Si interrupted Shenzhu Shihui, "What I just said was about those who lack the desire to go on living, but Shan Yuanmu Yuzi obviously doesn’t fall into that category."

As he spoke these words, not only did Shenzhu Shihui react, but even Shan Yuanmu Yuzi herself turned her astonished gaze toward him.

Beichuan Si’s statement seemed to suggest that her current death wish was false.

What does it feel like to have one’s wish to die denied?

"But this is the truth."

Beichuan Si, carrying a bag, stepped towards Shan Yuanmu Yuzi.

"If you truly wanted to die, why then did you show me this book?"

He took the book from his bag.

His clear and piercing gaze captivated Shan Yuanmu Yuzi’s attention.

With everyone watching, he turned to the last page of the book about the angel falling into Hell.

"This book represents your final state of mind."

Beichuan Si glanced at the last page, spread it open, and handed it to Shan Yuanmu Yuzi.

It was a peculiar page.

There was nothing on it, just completely blank.

"It is precisely because it’s blank that there is the need to write in it."

Beichuan Si looked at Shan Yuanmu Yuzi, "Maybe you haven’t realized it, but you still desire to live. That faint, almost imperceptible desire to live has been revealed to me through this book as your final state of mind."

"This is your ultimate state of mind."

Wanting to live.

That is something that everyone instinctively thinks about.

Truly death-wishing people are not nonexistent in this world.

But they are very rare.

Do the majority of people who think about suicide not want to live?

It’s just because they find life unbearable.

Thinking this, Beichuan Si placed his hand on Shan Yuanmu Yuzi’s shoulder, recalling the words in Shan Yuan Riko’s diary, and slowly said in her tone,

"Yuzi. Everyone will eventually pass away, animals too."

"Yuzi. After I’m gone, please continue to grow up healthy."

"Yuzi..."

"I’m sorry... forgive your mother... your mother... really loves you."

These were all things Shan Yuan Riko had once said.

"Mother..." Shan Yuanmu Yuzi’s expression was distant.

Under this dazed expression, memories of the past flashed in her mind.

What would her mother think if she saw her own daughter so desperate to die?

Shan Yuanmu Yuzi hugged the book close to her chest, her smile gave way to a sorrowful cry.

That wail of grief resonated across the entire school grounds.

With each wave of sobbing, Beichuan Si clearly sensed this world of the heart changing.

He felt himself being rapidly pulled backwards.

This familiar sensation of being expelled made Beichuan Si look at Shan Yuanmu Yuzi leaning against the base of the tree.

No matter what, he had tried his best.

If all this couldn’t completely resolve Shan Yuanmu Yuzi’s issues, then Beichuan Si was powerless.

His abilities were limited to this point, and perhaps they would improve in the future, but the fact remained that he could not save her at this stage.

A moment of out-of-body sensation was followed by the familiar sight of the hospital ward.

The curtain screen, the monotone beeping of the heart monitor, the faint scent of disinfectant in the air.

Beichuan Si stood up from the bed and checked his personal belongings.

Nishijou Kurenai had returned, and Shenzhu Shihui was also floating around shouting loudly.

He stood up and pulled open the curtains.

Without realizing it, dawn had already broken.

The long night was over.

For both Beichuan Si and Shan Yuanmu Yuzi.

Beichuan Si turned his head and looked at Shan Yuanmu Yuzi, who was lying on the bed.

He gazed deeply at her.

Very deeply—

Under such a gaze, Shan Yuanmu Yuzi seemed a bit uncomfortable as she twitched. Then, she finally opened her eyes and greeted Beichuan Si with a raspy voice, "Hello..."

"Hello," Beichuan Si nodded.

She looked bewildered and took quite some time before she finally seemed to come to her senses:

"May I ask, where is this?"

"Hospital," Beichuan Si answered her questions patiently.

"Why am I in a hospital?"

"I’m not sure," Beichuan Si calmly replied.

She seemed to have forgotten herself, as if everything that had happened was just a dream.

"There is such a possibility..." Shenzhu Shihui seemed to read Beichuan Si’s mind and explained, "After the Jade Destruction Disease treatment, for these patients, it’s like they have had a very long dream."

The next moment—

Shan Yuanmu Yuzi began to speak with a slightly bashful expression:

"May I ask... have I met you somewhere before, sir?"

"For you, this should be our first official meeting," Beichuan Si looked straight into her eyes.

Upon hearing this, visible disappointment flashed through Shan Yuanmu Yuzi’s gaze. She nodded lightly, "Is that so?"

"You still need to rest your body, so I won’t bother you for now."

Beichuan Si picked up his backpack, intending to leave.

He had already repaired those fierce scars on Shan Yuanmu Yuzi’s body before.

Knife scars, cigarette burns...

Perhaps Beichuan Si was unable to heal the wounds in others’ hearts, but at least the external scars, he could easily erase.

However, just as he was about to leave and pushed the door—

Shan Yuanmu Yuzi suddenly called out from behind:

"Wait!"

"Is there something else?" Beichuan Si asked with evident impatience.

"Your name... could you tell me your name?" Shan Yuanmu Yuzi looked at Beichuan Si. She, who was usually adept at social interactions, found herself stumbling for the first time today.

"Beichuan Si."

It was just a name, after all, not confidential information.

He simply gave his name and then proceeded to walk out.

After hearing Beichuan Si’s words, Shan Yuanmu Yuzi didn’t try to detain him.

She leaned against the hospital bed’s pillow, placing her hands on her chest.

Tears rolled down her face, drop by drop.

"Beichuan Si... Beichuan Si... Beichuan..." She kept repeating his name, unable to stop her tears.

Actually, she remembered everything.

The events within the heart image world, Beichuan Si’s face.

She had never forgotten.

She remembered, remembered it all.

But even if she hadn’t forgotten, what could she do about it?

She sobbed quietly, like any ordinary young girl, weeping very sadly.

No more fake smiles could be found on her face.

On the other side.

"That girl, she mustn’t have forgotten me," Beichuan Si concluded simply after leaving the hospital.

"Eh?! Really? I completely... couldn’t tell."

"What else can you tell besides playing with your phone?" Beichuan Si glanced sideways at Shenzhu Shihui.

His words left her speechless, stuttering and with a wavering gaze, and for a moment, she didn’t know how to refute Beichuan Si.

"Her eyes, her gaze, her initial reactions, actually all indicate that she hasn’t lost the memories from the heart image world."

"Then why didn’t you expose her...?" Shenzhu Shihui opened her mouth to ask.

"Because it’s troublesome."

Beichuan Si fondly touched his head, recalling the events that happened in the heart image world, he added one more sentence:

"These rebellious teenage girls are really troublesome."

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