The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 93: Frustrations

Chapter 93: Frustrations

Alanis.

I drive over to Darrien’s apartment all because he commanded me to. Once I get to the parking lot of the building, I dial his number. He answers on the first ring.

’’I am outside,’’ I inform him.

’’Will be there in a sec.’’

It takes them a couple of minutes to get down but once I see them walk out of the front entrance, I start the car. Jabi is dressed in clothes that look way too big for him, from that I can tell they are for Darrien. Darrien opens the back seat for Jabi and the kid enters with a smile on his face.

’’Hi,’’ he mutters shyly.

I return the smile because I have always liked the kid—I don’t know, there was just something about him and now it seems like he is about to become family. Darrien ruffles his hair playfully before closing the door and walking over to the passenger door. He enters and I watch him as he drops a duffle bag on the floor below him.

He reaches for his pockets and a look of frustration hits his face ’’Shit, I forgot my phone, I will be right back,’’ he announces before running out of the car and entering the building again.

I look through the rear-view mirror at the kid and he is staring out the window ’’How are you doing?’’ I ask him to try to make light conversation.

He jumps up abruptly from my question and I see the terror in his eyes ’’Uh...’’ he stutters.

I turn around so I am facing him with a warm smile on my face. there is no need to be afraid of me, but I guess the kid has been living his life in fear.

’’I am glad Darrien found you.’’

His cheeks redden. He is adorable. Darrien opens the car door abruptly and I face the front again. We start the drive to the community ’’So what is the actual plan?’’ Darrien asks me.

My eyes stay on the road as I think of the best answer to his question. There really is no plan yet, here we are hoping that with this mating ritual, there will be more certainty in what we are going to do. Beau put all his hope on Jules and all Jules could talk about was the mating ritual, so that must mean that mating is our best bet right now.

’’We are gonna do the mating ritual,’’ I inform him.

I sneak a glance at him, and his brows are furrowed ’’Right now? I mean is that the most pressing issue?’’

He doesn’t get it. Darrien fully believes in finding Cassius and killing him. I don’t think killing Cassius will be that easy. The man is a monster, he is full of hate and anger. Those are the hardest people to get rid of.

’’I think mating will make him stronger. Right now, we need him to be the strongest he can be.’’

’’Oh...what does that mean for you?’’

That is a question that has been running through my head all day. Fathers words flash in my mind. the fear that I could end up losing myself in the process. I don’t want to lose myself, but I will rather that than lose the only person that is important to me.

Is being a vampire really all that I am?

Can’t there be more to me and why do I have to lose a part of myself to be happy?

No one knows what will happen in the ritual. This is all just speculation that my father is making up. He is thinking of worst-case scenarios. Here I am, hoping that I don’t have to sacrifice anything to be with Beau but also ready to give it all for him.

’’I honestly don’t know; I am not even scared of the consequences. I just want to be with him.’’

He nods in understanding.

We get to the community and Darrien gets Jabi out of the car. We do the hike to the gates and Darrien whispers something into the kid’s ears. I don’t try to listen in, but I watch him as he walks through it, out of sight.

’’I need to talk to you,’’ he grabs my arm gently.

I nod and remain outside. There is a wolf by the gate, probably on guard duty, so he pulls me to a corner ’’I am losing my mind,’’ he manages with so much frustration etched in his voice.

’’What is wrong?’’

He lets go of my arm and I watch him as his fingers run through his hair ’’How does this mating stuff work?’’

Okay, so we are talking about the kid. I wanted him to figure things out on his own and I guess he has figured it out. ’’Did something happen between you and the kid?’’

He shakes his head ’’I am just losing all control.’’

’’What do you mean,’’

I don’t really understand what he is saying. I know how it felt when I found Beau. The things I wanted to do with him. how badly I wanted him. is it the same with him and Jabi?

’’How do you handle being with him,’’ I furrow my brows and he adds ’’Like, do you have thoughts about him?’’

’’You have to explain what you mean; I am completely confused.’’

I don’t know what he is saying.

He sighs running his hands through his hair again ’’Like, sexual thoughts.’’

This must be really hard for him. I have never had this kind of conversation with Darrien before. We were never close, to begin with. He is the kind of person that liked to keep to himself. Now we are talking about sexual frustrations.

A smile sprawls on my face and he groans, obviously embarrassed. ’’Never mind. forget I said anything,’’ he starts to walk away but I grab him back to me.

’’Dude, calm down. I am really happy for you.’’

He frowns ’’Happy that I am thinking thoughts I shouldn’t be about a kid?’’

Oh, I see.

So, he is beating himself up because of the age difference ’’How old is he?’’ I ask him.

He sighs ’’Sixteen.’’

Ouch.

I don’t know how this works. I mean he is underage but I don’t think that applies to wolves.

’’I don’t think it matters... I mean his age but I am not sure. I will talk to Beau about it.’’

He shakes his head ’’I don’t want to do anything with him. he is just a kid. I won’t rob him of his innocence.’’

So, his conscience is playing big here. I understand what he means, and I completely support whatever he decides but I know it won’t be easy. There is this pull that will keep pushing him to Jabi. At the end of the day, he might not be strong enough to resist it.

’’Will you be alright being with him alone all the time?’’

He sighs ’’I don’t know but I also don’t want to leave him alone. I can’t have anything happen to him with everything that is happening.’’

I nod in understanding ’’I get.’’

’’Do you think we are going to mate the same way you guys have to?’’ he asks me.

That is another thing that crossed my mind. I don’t know if it is the same since Jabi is an Omega. ’’You know the fact that you have accepted that he is your link is the first step. I will get more information on it.’’

’’Thanks, man.’’

We part ways and I smile because this will only bring me and Darrien closer. We have so much to relate to now. Thinking about everything now, no wonder we always clashed. The fact that we have so much in common. We are both in love with wolves.

It is all so surreal.

I grab my phone and dial Beau’s number because I don’t know where he would be now. He answers the call on the first ring ’’You back?’’ he asks immediately.

I smile into the phone because just hearing his voice is calming down my nerves. Everything that happened with my father, I want them to be a distant memory. He basically said he wasn’t going to bless our union.

’’Yeah, where are you?’’

’’With Jules at the cemetery. The Burial ceremony is just beginning.’’ I look around the compound and sure enough, the place is sparse. Everyone seems to be at the cemetery.

I was there for the last one, I didn’t like it. I don’t think this one will be any better. They had to bury three people the last time, now they must bury eight of their loved ones. People with children, families. I don’t how to watch the sight. Their bodies sprawled on the cold ground as they give them back to the earth.

’’Do I need to be there?’’ I ask him to completely avoid everything.

He sighs into the phone ’’What happened?’’

He can already sense that something is wrong. He knows that the meeting with my father didn’t go well and I haven’t said anything.

I don’t want to say anything because I don’t want to waver his thoughts. He has agreed to it. I wouldn’t do anything to ruin the mating process but will he be happy with me if he finds out that I knew something and kept it from him?

What do I do?