The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 46: A little honesty

Chapter 46: A little honesty

Beau

"A good leader is emotionally intelligent" he sits down on the sand with his legs crisscrossed and I laugh at how ridiculous he looks. This is a very muscular man shirtless and taking deep breaths on the beach. People pass by but no one really looks our way. "Come on, join your old man."

He taps the sand and it gets all over his fingers, one of the things I hate about the beach is all the sand and how it gets everywhere.

"I don’t want to."

I don’t know what this is about but I know it’s about the fight I had with one of my brothers. Father hates it when ii get angry, he hates my reaction to everything but I have always been this way.

"Sit down," he glares at me and I cower. I cannot refuse the man. No matter how rebellious I am.

"close your eyes," he tells me after I am seated. I close my eyes because I have no choice. I close my eyes and his voice is all I can hear. It is calm and very soothing. All the anger in me slowly evaporates as I focus on the sound of his voice "Inhale"

I inhale.

"Exhale."

I exhale.

I open one of my eyes and his are still closed. he is completely engrossed in his meditation. i don’t know how he does It, how he can control his emotions so well.

"Keep your eyes son,"

I don’t know how he knows but I close them immediately, trying to understand what he intends to do with this. Nothing major happened, I just had a fight. It is normal for wolves to use their fists first. He wants to make me into someone I am, the so-called leader he thinks I am.

I don’t know if I fit the role, he has chosen for me.

"How do you feel?" he asks in that calm tone.

"I don’t know, the same. Still pissed." I answer him honestly. Just so he can know that whatever he is doing is not working.

"Inhale son, take a long breath in and think about other ways you could’ve handled the situation"

I obey him not fully grasping his words "Think about what would’ve happened if you had walked away. Settled things amicably," he breathes out and my mind suddenly feels like it is in a funk. A good kind of funk.

i used my fists on a brother in my pack. He asked for it but could I have ignored him and settled things calmly. Was it even possible?

"When you hurt your family when you hurt the pack, you are hurting yourself," he explains.

"Exhale," he tells me.

I obey him completely getting engrossed in his experiment. Suddenly i regret everything that happened today. I regret the bruises, the words that were spoken. I regret them all.

"A good leader understands his people."

I inhale again without him telling me to and when I open my eyes, he is smiling at me proudly. He accomplished whatever he intended to.

"Be a good leader."

I open my eyes to the dream I just had and Lanis is lying down next to me. His eyes are open and he seems to be doing something on his phone. He drops his phone when he notices my eyes on him "You’re up," he states.

"Yes," I try to stand up from the bed but he grabs me so swiftly.

"Don’t get up, rest a little longer," he tries to stop me but I glare at him instantly. Things are weird between us right now. I am still so pissed at him. I don’t know what to think, I don’t know how to act around him. he lied to me, he kept something so vital from me and he used it to hurt me.

"I can’t be in bed when a lot has happened. I need to talk to everyone. I need to figure out what I am going to do with Fallon." I tell him honestly because no matter how pissed I am with him; I still love him and I still trust him completely.

"Not tonight, the day is already over. Why don’t you just get a good night’s sleep and then do all that tomorrow," he suggests.

I shake my head "I don’t even know what is happening. I am sure Bell’s took him to the infirmary. He shouldn’t be getting any medical attention. He is a murderer."

"You almost killed him," he reminds me.

I roll my eyes "I should’ve finished him off. He doesn’t deserve to live," that is how I feel. No matter how many times I dream about my father and I remember all his wise words, I just want to avenge his death. A life for a life. Fallon needs to pay for his actions and this is the only way I know how to.

I succeed to get up but Lanis is not happy from the frown on his face. "Are we okay?" he asks so suddenly that I am caught off guard. I know he can sense it; he knows things are off between us and he is the cause.

"I don’t know," I answer him honestly.

He sits up more on the bed and runs his hands through his hair from the nerves of this conversation. "Are we going to be okay," I walk over to the other side of the bed and reach for him. No matter how pissed I am with him, I am still drawn to him. The pull that brings me to him is uncontrollable and I can’t help myself.

"You lied to me, you hurt me and somehow it seems like this is something you’d do a lot."

He shakes his head immediately "Never, I didn’t mean to lie. I shouldn’t have kept things from you but I didn’t know how to say it. I didn’t want to hurt you and that’s what I ended up doing," he concludes.

"Why did you want to leave so badly," his eyes dart around the room. He doesn’t look directly at me. He is hiding something from me again.

"I can’t tell you,"

I let go of him already getting pissed again. He is doing the same thing that got us here in the first place. I can’t fucking stand this "Fucking leave, if you want to so badly," I point to the door because I can’t take this. I can’t watch the love of my life hide things from me.

"Please no, I’m sorry," he walks up to me but I am not having in. This is my life partner, my mate. If he can’t trust me, then what the fuck are we even doing?

"Just go," I growl angrily.

"I’m sorry," he refuses to let me go. His fingers grip my hands so tightly. "I’m sorry. I don’t mean to lie and hide things. I hate what I did to you. I want to be better. I trust you with my whole heart but If I don’t do this she will die."

My eyes spring up to his face from the downward position they were in and I freeze from his words "What?" I ask him because I am confused. What is happening?

"I have to go help her, she needs me." he cries and I pull him closer to me. He has been dealing with whatever he is talking about alone. This is what I mean when I say trust, he needs to be able to open up to me. Talk to me.

"Who?" I ask him patently.

He pulls back a little from me "Maddie, Cassius has her. He won’t let her go unless I come to him."

Fuck.

"When did you find out?" I ask him completely disentangling from him. Maddie is his Ex. The girl he was with before me and all I can think about is saving her. there is no anger within me with the fact that he is bothered. The fact that she somehow got involved in this because of me leaves me in anguish.

"This morning."

He found out this morning, he didn’t want me to know and he needed to go help her, that is why he told me about my father "Why didn’t you go?" I realize since he is still here.

"You needed me."

How do I stay mad at him now? This is not his fault, none of this is his fault. He is involved with Cassius because of me and my family. Everything is my fault and he still stayed here to make sure I was okay. "Where is he, let me come with you."

He shakes his head immediately "He said I should come alone. that is why I couldn’t tell you." crying he reaches for me again.

"You planned to go alone, what if he just wants to kill you?"

He shrugs "He wouldn’t kill me," he tries to rationalize.

My heart races at his words because he wanted to go meet the man that wants to kill my whole kind without any plan. That is very stupid, I can’t believe he was going to risk it all like that.

"I’m coming with you. There is no way I will let you go into this blindly. we will get Maddie out and you too."

I have to do this.

I need to think of a plan.