The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 439: Lose control

Chapter 439: Lose control

Alanis

I am watching him as he watches me and his eyes are wide open. For the first time in my life, I don’t know what he is thinking. I can’t read his mind. Right now, he can either make or break me at this moment. I am naked in front of him, the most vulnerable I have ever been and he is just watching me with wide unreadable eyes.

"Say something,’’ I plead with him after a couple of silent seconds. I know I am being extra sensitive but I need him to respond to this.

"Uh...Lanis,’’ he calls my name without moving his eyes. I look at his hands and they are squeezing the sheets of the bed.

"Say something,’’ I say again, "anything.’’

He looks at me and then down "I don’t think this is a good idea right now, you being this beautiful in front of me. Please put your clothes back on,’’ he tells me calmly, even though I can hear the anxiety in his voice.

"I don’t want to,’’ I move closer to him and he jolts up from the bed so fast "Please put your clothes back on,’’ he begs me again still watching me.

I have no clue on what is happening right now, I don’t know if he is grossed out or if it is something else. This is my way of telling him that I want him to have me. Even with the pain, the pregnancy, I want to feel him and he is telling me to put my clothes back on.

I watch him as he runs his fingers through his hair and his eyes are dazed but he hasn’t stopped watching me. He is still staring even though he doesn’t want me to touch him.

"Do you think I am gross right now?’’ I ask him in a low voice because I am terrified of the answer, he is going to give me.

His eyes widen in a different view "What? Hell no, Why would I think you are gross? You are fucking beautiful.’’ he shouts so loud that his voice catches me off guard. His words are assuring but I don’t just want words right now.

I want to be irresistible in his eyes, I want him to take me on this bed right now and all he is doing is running away from me.

"You’re not acting like you think I am. Why won’t you touch me?’’ I ask him, slowly standing up from the bed and walking to him. He doesn’t run away this time as I stop in front of him.

He looks at me with his eyes glassy and I can see that he is scared. I just don’t know what he is afraid of right now.

"Touch me, Beau, please,’’ I beg him with a desperation that I didn’t even know I had in me. His eyes look at me from head to toe, I see the sparkle in them.

"I don’t want to hurt you. You are in so much pain right now. It doesn’t seem like a good idea and I have been controlling myself for a fucking week. You don’t know how hard it has been,’’ he covers his face with his hands as he whispers those words.

I move closer to him, ignoring the pain that I am feeling right now and I put my hands on his hands. "I don’t want you to control yourself anymore. I am strong enough to handle this. I know you won’t hurt me,’’ I tell him.

He looks at me with eyes that look like they are begging me to back away but I don’t. "You know my wolf is not as gentle as I would want him to be, he has been starved. I don’t want to lose control and hurt you,’’ he confesses.

I smile because this is the most adorable, I have ever seen Beau. The macho Alpha werewolf. Biggest of all, he is afraid that he will hurt me when I know that he cannot hurt me. Beau would always think of my safety before his, he can’t hurt me.

I lean closer to his face and my lips rest on his softly "Help me feel something,’’ I whisper into his lips softly.

He closes and I hear a sigh, trapped inside his mouth. His hands are still beside him but his lips move to mine as I slide my tongue into his mouth. A smile sprawls to my face as my tongue dances to a rhythm that I have missed. I deepen the kiss as I move even closer to him. He is still trying to have self-control but I want to break him and I know I will. I grab his hands in mine and he squeezes them gently.

I can feel that he is holding back as I move my hand to his hair and I touch it softly. He is still trying to stay in control but I can feel that he is rapidly losing it. He slowly let go of my hands and moves them to my waist. I pull away from him and his eyes are wide and dark.

Yes, this is what I wanted from him.

more.

"Fuck Lanis,’’ he groans in a low voice "Why do you have to be so beautiful? I don’t know if I can control myself with you.’’

"Please Beau,’’ I beg him, "I need you right now.’’

"I don’t know if I can stop once I start Lanis,’’ he growls lowly.

"I trust you,’’ I tell him as I put my hand over his shorts. He is hard, he wants me. Yes!

"Lanis,’’ he growls in a low tone "please.’’

He kisses me this time, a lot more passionately than before. His hands are still on my waist but I feel like he is slowly letting go of his control. I want him to let go; I want him to lose control.

I want him to take me.

"You have to tell me if anything hurts. even pleasurable pain,’’ he growls watching me.

I nod as he pushes into me again.

Yes.