The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 301: The one is control

Chapter 301: The one is control

Blue.

The moment I walk into the room, the first place I go to in my closet. I want to trust Gyles. I told him not to touch the book and I want to tryst that he listened to me but I also know that this will not be the first time he would do the exact opposite of what I tell him.

Gyles can’t be controlled, not because he can’t but because he chooses not to be controlled. He always has to do things his way. He doesn’t like to listen and the moment I see the book on the floor, I know he disobeyed me again. I didn’t want to be angry when I saw him in the dungeon. I don’t even know what was going on in his head. Most times, I don’t even understand him and how he acts. He acts like his actions have no repercussion. He behaves rashly and I don’t know how I will be able to handle him for the rest of my life. I don’t want to be in a relationship where I have to think about the next thing he will do. He is the complete opposite of Rex. he doesn’t think before he does and that will affect us a lot.

I leave him in the dungeon because I don’t even understand what he is saying. How is it even possible?

How does he even know? I walk out until I get the fresh air that will calm me down. I know he is following me but I don’t even want to talk to him right now. I keep walking completely ignoring the sounds of his footsteps. I shouldn’t be in my feels right now but my mind is in a fog. I don’t know how to feel about all that he said. I should have felt Rex. I was with him and I didn’t know. That makes me feel terrible.

I shouldn’t be thinking about the how, I should be figuring things out. Finding a way to find him.

"He is the one,’’ he whispers his voice shaking. He is scared that I will get upset with him and lash out. I am upset but I font even have words for him "I felt him, I know jhe is the one. He is scared and alone right now and he needs us.’’

I turn to him at his words, he is so sure of all this. he is so sure that he is the one. "because of the book?’’ I ask him.

He takes a deep breath "No, not because of the book. I didn’t use it. there was a pull, something led me to it but I didn’t use it."

I laugh "Something led you to the one thing that you wanted? You expect me to believe you?’’

He sighs "I know you don’t trust me and I know you might never trust me but you have to trust that Rex is as important to me as he is to you. all I am thinking about now is him. we need to help him before it is too late.’’

His words should encourage me but I can’t trust that this is the real deal "He doesn’t recognize us. Why doesn’t he?’’

"I don’t know, he is still entrapped." He explains.

I don’t know what to believe. At the end of it all, it makes sense. Levine had full control of him, why wouldn’t she just use him to do her dirty work. There is a possibility that he is the one in that cage. There is a chance but the fact that he got his information with the help of the book of dark magic just scares me and confuses me. there is nothing pure about the way he did this. he could be misled and he doesn’t even have a clue. He is just acting like everything is fine. Like there is no chance that this is a hoax.

"I don’t trust this,’’ I tell him honestly.

He nods "But you know Rex, you will feel his presence if you give this a chance. Be open to this and he will show you what you need to see.’’

My heart is racing against my chest because I know that I have to go back to the cell. I have to talk to him again. "Why don’t you listen G?’’ this is very hard for me. I am trying to get control of everything that is happening. I know I am being very controlling and disconnected from him but the coven makes me this way. I don’t want this to be my permanent home. I want to get away from all the drama in this place.

I want to be able to breathe.

"I don’t know, I try but I always end up fucking things up. I am not a good person,’’ he covers his face with his hands. I want him to think about his actions. I want him to know that he can’t always just act first and not think about the repercussions. I don’t know if I will ever be able to get into his head.

"I want you to go back to the community,’’ I tell him.

He uncovers his face and opens his eyes wide "No... I can’t. I won’t leave you and Rex. you need me right now.’’ he cries.

He is right. I do need him but I also don’t want to have to worry about him all through this. knowing that he is safe will help me find Rex and get to the bottom of all this faster. The emotions that are running through my veins are a distraction. He being here is a distraction. I am trying to talk to him and every time I think I am getting through to him, he does something entirely different.

You need him by your side.

My wolf tells me and I know that he is also a big source of strength. I know that having him by my side should be comforting but that is not the case with Gyles. He is more of a burden than help. He is too forward and impulsive and I can’t handle him at the same time worry about finding Rex.

"I won’t do anything again. I will be on my best behavior. Please don’t let me go back without rex,’’ he grabs my hands in his and pulls me closer to him. the touch sends chills down my spine. Just contact with him and I am losing track of things.

"This is not about you Gyles. This is about the connection you have with the book. You said it led you to it.’’

He nods.

"That is a problem. I don’t want you around it. I don’t want you anywhere near this drama,’’ I add.

He shakes his head "Take the book away. Don’t send me away. This is not fair."

Right now, he is acting childish. He is throwing a tantrum and I don’t know how to handle this. "Please Blue. don’t shut me out because of my mistakes,’’ he begs.

The fact that we have gone through this so many times, tells me that there will be many more. He will apologize for doing things and then do other things that will end up being worse. The community is the best place for him. he belongs there. The outside world isn’t fit for him. there are just too many dangers that he would eventually fall prey to and I need to be able to put him in check.

"Go back to the room, stay there until I get back,’’ I tell him with a glare, slowly letting go of his hands. He grabs me again and it is not like I expected him to accept this easily. He is too stubborn, so nothing will ever be easy with him.

Except loving him.

My wolf reminds me, somehow letting me know how I feel about him. if Gyles wasn’t chosen for me—would I have chosen him for myself?

I don’t know.

"No,’’ he tells me.

I frown "No?’’

He nods "I want to do this with you. I want to help you. I want to be by your side,’’ tears well up in his eyes.

He is being dramatic.

"You have helped enough. I will take over from here,’’ I tell him.

He shakes his head "No, I will not go.’’

He is basically using that tone where he is telling me that I am not the boss of him. I reach for him and he doesn’t push me away. My eyes are cold right now "You will go and I am serious,’’ I tell him as I grab his arm a little too rough.

He doesn’t flinch. He is trying to show me dominance but I will not let him think he is in any way in control in this relationship. "Gyles, I will send you to the community on my own if I have to. Don’t make this difficult."

I beg him.

He shakes his head "You are not the one that calls the shots. You are not the only Alpha here,’’ he reminds me and I let go of him immediately. I want to win this fight but things with Gyles are not easy and I don’t even have the energy right now.

"Go to the room,’’ I command him and this time, he obeys. I watch him as he walks away from me and for the first time in my life, I don’t know how to handle someone.

Fuck.