The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 294: Easier times.

Chapter 294: Easier times.

Blue.

It is all like flashes in my memory. I don’t even know what happens. It feels like an out of body moment. I know I was there. I know how I reacted but I don’t know how I handled it all. I don’t even want to remember everything. After she stabbed my mother again, I lost my mind. It still feels like a dream. One that I haven’t been able to wake up from. I want this to be a dream. I want to be back in the community with Gyles and Rex. I want to be happy again.

Now I don’t know if that is possible.

I don’t know what is going to happen now with Levine locked up. Everything should be over but not knowing where Rex is, just makes it all complicated.

I go down to the basement and the guard on duty lets me in. I need to talk to her, find out where she kept him. She is the only one that will have the answers I need to find him. Everything is happening so fast, it is scary. I just lost my mother and I can’t even think about that. I can’t think about anything but finding my mate. My phone rings in my pocket and I grab it, seeing a call from Jules. I haven’t spoken to him since he dropped me off at the estate. I don’t even know what to say to him.

"Hello," I say with the only energy left in me. I haven’t even shed a tear due to lack of energy. I am exhausted and I haven’t even done anything. Levine was caught all thanks to Gyles. Rex is nowhere to be found and I can’t do shit about it. I go to a corner in the halls and take a deep breath, I don’t want him to know that anything is wrong. There is no point involving anyone else.

"How are you son?’’ I hear his voice through the phone. He sounds like he genuinely cares about my well-being. The only parent that actually cared about me. Mother was in her own world. She lived her life for herself, there was no room for me in the world she created.

I know I have to tell him that she is dead but how do I even do that? How will he even react?

"I am fine,’ I go with that instead of the truth. I am not fine, each wall is breaking to the point where it feels like I will eventually lose my mind. Rex is probably somewhere, alone and scared and I can’t even feel him. I can’t even find him. I have tried using my magic but it is useless. I get his scent in the house and I don’t even know how that is possible. Something is blocking me from him. Almost like, she is still using her magic even though I have her locked up.

"Are you sure? You don’t sound too good.’’

I close my eyes and take a deep breath. One to get me out of this funk. There is no way I can pretend to be okay. Especially since I am spiralling so fast right now but I don’t want to involve him in this. I don’t want anyone else to get hurt. I want to fix this on my own, even though I know that will be very difficult.

You still have Gyles.

My wolf reminds me. I shake that thought out of my head. I have half a mind to send him back to the community. The longer he stays here, the more at risk he is of getting hurt. I don’t want to add him to the list. Until I find Rex, I need to Protect Gyles.

He doesn’t need your protection. He is stronger than you think.

I hate the conversations I am having in my head. I know that Gyles is strong but he doesn’t need to lose himself right now to save me. He has been through so much shit in his life. I don’t want to add to that. I don’t want him to get hurt. I will never survive that.

"Nothing is wrong. I am good.’’

I hear a sigh of relief and then a deep breath "I had a weird dream. Needed to check up on you.’’

Yeah, Jules has premonitions. Being alone all his life. He doesn’t really interact with people, which makes him see things in dreams. He had a dream about me. Doesn’t seem like a good sign. I know there is a lot I have to deal with now but all I want is Rex back. All I care about is finding him and holding him in my arms. Begging him for forgiveness. I wasn’t able to protect him. I let him slip out of my hands, knowing that he was in danger.

"I am okay. Maybe you need to go out more old man,’’ I joke, wanting to throw him off his suspicions.

He laughs "I go out enough,’’ he interjects playfully.

I smile for the first time today. Just for a second, I forget everything. Maybe this is the part of me that just wants to move on from this. I wish I never left the community. I wish I had lived with him all my life. My life would have been a lot better if I had stayed with my father. I would have been a lot happier.

Things would have been easier.

"I love you, son,’’ he adds when he notices my silence. He tells me this every time we talk. He wants me to know how much I mean to him but I have held all those years of absence against him even though it was never his fault. Now, I have to focus on the future. I have to find Rex and makes things right.

I end the call the same way I do. With a goodbye. I haven’t had the courage to love him back, thinking he would eventually disappear the same way he did all those years back. I want to give him a chance. I want to call him dad, but not right now.

I walk over to the room where Levine is. She is standing with her hands on the cage. Her eyes are red, she has been crying. For a second, my heart thuds in my chest. Something feels wrong when I look into her eyes.

For a second she seems different.