The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 282: Trapped in my own head

Chapter 282: Trapped in my own head

Rex.

"You should try and relax," Gyles manages like that is something I can do. How does he expect me to relax when my mind is a mess right now? I am scared that something will happen and I will end up hurting someone. I am losing my mind with all the worries and he is telling me to relax.

"I can’t,’’ I sit on the edge of the bed running my hands through my hair in frustration. He crawls on the bed until he is close to me. His eyes never leave mine as he studies my expression. I know he is trying to figure this out.

"I don’t know what you are going through right now but I know that everything will be okay," he leans forward and rests his hand on my face and I close my eyes because this is soothing to me. He pulls me up to the bed and I rest my head on his chest.

"I am sorry for stabbing you,’’ I manage. It makes no sense saying this so casually and I have been thinking about it since Blue told me. I hate myself for hurting him, especially since I was supposed to protect him. He is not supposed to be worried about me but with all that is happening now. I am a threat to both of them.

"Oh, that is long forgotten,’’ he winks at me and my heart melts in my chest "Besides I met someone while I was out,’’

I look up at him as he continues "A very beautiful woman. She helped me move on. Her name was Selene." He mutters in this dreamy tone. There is a smile on his face.

"Are you serious?" I ask because all I take from this conversation is the fact that he is talking about the goddess.

He nods "Yeah."

There are a lot of things that have happened in all my life that I wouldn’t have believed in until it happened and telling me that he met the goddess of the moon is one of those things. Selene doesn’t just come to peoples dreams. She is not that accessible.

"You don’t believe me?’’

I shake my head "I don’t know. It just seems a little bit unbelievable.’’ I tell him honestly. He pulls me into his arms and I rest on him again. "How was it?’’ I ask him.

He shrugs "Normal, I guess.’’

I close my eyes as he continues "She just let me know what was important.’’

I smile "And what is that?’’

"You and Blue. Nothing else matters but the two of you.’’

His words play at my heartstrings and I feel the butterflies as they dance around my stomach. Just hearing how he really feels about us is overwhelming. Gyles has come a long way from a couple of weeks ago. He has fully accepted this. In the minutes where I am in his arm, I forget about everything. I forget about all the problems that will arise.

All that matters is him as I close my eyes and drift off in his arms.

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I open my eyes and I am not in bed with Gyles again. I am in a dark room. There is only one candle lit in a corner. I don’t know what this is but it feels like the prison I have been in. I turn around and in that split second, a cage falls over me and I am really trapped now.

"Help,’’ I hold unto the bars of the cage. It feels like the room is getting smaller as my voice gets louder. It seems like I am being swallowed. I just want to wake up from the nightmare. I wake up and Gyles is over me on the bed, watching with worry-filled eyes.

"Hey," he mutters calmly. My breathing is heavy and fast. My eyes are weak and tired. I don’t know how long I was asleep but I don’t ever want to go back to that room again. "Hey, it’s just a bad dream,’’ he breathes into my ear as he rocks me back and forth. My eyes stay fixed on him because I don’t know what is real and what isn’t. As long as he is here with me—this is real. "It was just a nightmare,’’ he adds as he caresses my hair softly.

"It seemed so real,’’ I manage in between breaths. The fact that I remember the dream terrifies me. I have parts of my memory that are blank slates. Things that I am supposed to remember but I can’t and now I am having nightmares that feel more real than my reality.

"It’s not real. I have been holding you for the last hour." He informs me. This is just Gyles indirectly telling me that I have lost my mind.

"I am scared, Gyles. I am so scared,’’ I don’t even realize that I am crying until he reaches for me and wipes off the tears from my face.

"I know. You don’t have to be. I am right here with you.’’ he assures me with a faint smile on his face. I believe him one hundred percent but how long until he gives up on me too? How long will have until I completely lose my mind and succeed in hurting him too? I feel like I am still trapped in that cage even though I am in Blue’s room in Gyles’s arm. No matter how much I want to forget about it all. That feeling is still there.

It feels like I am a puppet, in the hands of someone very evil and sooner or later, I will be unable to stop the darkness from coming out.

"I want to try something,’’ Gyles says slowly pulling away from me.

I look at him "It is farfetched and it might now work but I want to try it. Can I?’’

I don’t know what he wants to do but I will take anything at this point. Anything that will get me out of this mess.

Anything that will make me, me again.

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