The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 122: You are my source of strength

Chapter 122: You are my source of strength

Atieno Delano

’’You were supposed to bring him back here,’’ I glare at her.

I knew sending Lucinda for this mission was the wrong move. It was too close and personal to her but she is the only one that knows him. she is the only one that can find him.

’’I tried to talk sense into him,’’ she explains.

We have tried to talk sense into Cassius for too long. She knows this and she chose to let him go. If she was anyone other than herself, she would be punished right now.

’’That is unacceptable Lucinda. We had an agreement. Why would you go against our discussion?’’ my brother, Etore counterattacks.

Cassius has been on his rogue journey for too long. It is against our principles to kill our kind. He was a brother. We welcomed him into our home and he betrayed us and every one of our kind.

’’You failed this mission.’’

’’I apologise. I didn’t have the strength to harm him. I thought he could see reasoning. I thought I could bring him back to us.’’

Her explanation is futile.

’’We need to get him before he harms any more people,’’ Ettore speaks up, the exasperation evident in his voice. We have been too lenient on Cassius. Now is the time to let him know that he is not in control. We have to do whatever it takes. Even if it means going back on our principles.

’’We need to pay them a visit,’’ I declare.

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Beau.

’’What are your strongest suits?’’ Jules asks me calmly.

It is five in the morning, the sun is already blaring out in the sky, making the weather extremely hot. I am dressed in a pair of shorts and no shirt. this is the first day of our training. I don’t know what Jules has planned but from what I can see, he wants to teach me control.

’’I don’t know, I haven’t ever really thought about it.’’

He nods in understanding.

’’You need to understand your inner wolf. Talk to it, get to know it,’’ he informs me. I know what he is talking about, I am not detached from my wolf. I feel him in me every time I breathe. He is the dominant one in this occupancy.

The bond I have with my wolf is the only thing that has saved me through everything that has happened in my life.

’’I heard you were able to control your transformation, the time you fought with Fallon.’’

I don’t even remember that day. I was not in control of anything. Something happened within me. I don’t even know what it was but I got so angry and all I wanted was his blood. I still want his blood, I want him dead. The moment I deal with Cassius, I am not going to sleep on Fallon. I have to take him down before he becomes a threat to my family.

’’I don’t even remember that day.’’

He nods ’’Not many wolves have that ability. There is something insanely special about you. If we can get you to bring out your Lycan in that form, you will be undefeatable.’’

I don’t know what he means but I like the sound of that. Everything Jules is telling me is encouraging. I want to be strong enough to be able to take Cassius down.

’’How do we do that?’’

He moves closer to me with a smile. Jules is dressed in only shorts. I can’t help but notice how built he is. This man is over forty. The same age as my father but he has kept himself well. I really want to be like him when I get older. I have always looked up to Jules, it always felt like he wasn’t like us. he didn’t conform to the tradition. He is his own person, and he has lived a fulfilling life because of that.

I am not saying I don’t like the pack. I appreciate that I have a family. I like that I can count on most of the people in my pack, but every once in a while I wonder what it would be like to live the life I want, the kind that I don’t have to worry about anyone.

Jules is living that life.

Yes, he has a son now, but Blue doesn’t seem like he is a burden to him.

’’What do you remember before you turned that day? I want you to think about it deeply before you answer.’’

That day, the day I found out that Fallon killed my father. What do I remember? I close my eyes to get a clearer picture of the event. I remember Lanis. he was hiding something from me. I wanted to know what he was hiding. The moment he told me the truth, all I felt was anger. The kind of anger that took over me completely. It felt like there was a fire within me. I was about to explode. I didn’t turn immediately, I confronted him and he mocked me. he insulted the man he murdered in cold blood.

I thought back to his corpse, the brutal way he had been killed. The look in his cold dead eyes. The anger multiplied. I wanted to kill him. I wanted him to suffer the same fate my father did. That was all I cared about.

’’I was so angry.’’ I breathe out the answer.

That is how it happened.

The kind of anger that I couldn’t control. I blacked out after I accepted the anger. I don’t remember what I did to him, I don’t even remember hurting him. that is how I feel about Cassius. I want to hurt him. I want his dead cold eyes to be the last thing I see of him.

’’Anger is not the way. You need to find that control within you, your wolf is the only one that can bring it out of you. Find a way to bring that side of you out,’’ I open my eyes and he is watching me.

All he is saying, I don’t know how to respond.

’’Stand up,’’ he commands me.

I obey him immediately, getting on my feet. We are in the field again, this time Blue is not here. This is the training I have been desperately craving. The only way I believe I can defeat Cassius.

I dust the dirt off my short as I watch him, patiently waiting for his next command. Whatever he asks me to do, I am ready. I want to learn, I want to become stronger.

I want to be better.

’’I want you to think about your transformation. Turn right now,’’ he orders.

Transforming into my true form is the easiest thing but this time it is different. he doesn’t want me to turn fully. he is asking me to do the one thing I am not sure I can do easily. It is not something I have been able to control. I haven’t successfully done it without anger in me.

I still have the anger within me. maybe I could try.

’’Don’t overthink this,’’ just turn normally and visualise how you want to transform. I want you to do that for me,’’ his voice is comforting. I almost believe I can do it.

I just need to gather all the internal energy I can.

I close my eyes as I feel the bones in my body bend and break before I fully transform. I already know that it is a fail. I pictured it in my mind. I saw myself the way he wanted but my wolf chose to come out.

Shit.

I scold myself as I go on all four, feeling my clothes rip out of me. The fact that I failed makes me upset. So upset that I let out a loud howl from the frustration. Jules manages a smile.

’’I didn’t expect this to work the first time. I don’t want you to depend on your anger as your source of strength. You have to find another source. Close your eyes, think about the one thing that you can always count on,’’ he tells me, even though I am still in my wolf form.

You know what that is.

I hear my wolf in my head. he is telling me what I have already figured out. Think of a new source of strength and then channel all your energy on that. the one thing I can count on.

You know the answer.

My wolf growls clouding my head with the excitement that he feels. After the ritual, I have been communicating more with it. there is like a closer bond, not just with Lanis but with my wolf.

I know what it is talking about.

It doesn’t have to spell it out.

The only thing I can count on.

My source of strength is Lanis.

Jules hears my thoughts and I realise that I sent him a mind link.

’’Think about him when you try again. I want you to turn back and then try and transform again. This time, thinking about him. Channel all your energy with only thoughts of him.’’

I open my eyes and there is a smile on his face.

I think about Lanis all the time.

This should be easy.

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