The Werewolf's Vampire Mate
Chapter 120: I am still me

Chapter 120: I am still me

Alanis.

He seems to think I will not be able to handle whatever it is he has to tell me. I don’t have any problems. As long as I have him, I will be able to handle anything.

’’ I am not worried, Beau. You should just tell me what it is.’’

Now I know that Jules must have told him something about me after I left. They made it seem like everything was okay and now it seems like things are not actually okay.

My father’s words keep running through my head. he said there was a chance that this would go wrong. Even now, with all the worry in Beau’s eyes. I don’t have any regrets. If I knew the outcome of the ritual, I would still do it again. The fact that I got the chance to experience all that with him is all that matters.

’’Jules doesn’t think we have anything to worry about,’’ he is avoiding telling me what it is.

’’But?’’

He sighs and then runs his fingers through his hair. ’’I don’t even know how to explain it.’’

’’Put it in the exact words. Tell me what he told you.’’

The moment the words leave his lips my heart stops beating. All his words clouding my mind. I don’t even fully understand what he said. I don know what it means for me. All the time he explains everything to me, I listen to him. I see the panic in his eyes, the fear and worry. He thinks I am going to freak out. Worry about all that he is telling me.

I don’t do all those things. I mean, if I freak out now, Beau will end up having doubts and regrets about all that has happened. I don’t have any doubts. I don’t want to be anything else but who I am. I am Alanis, I am a vampire. He fell in love with me because of who I am, so I want to strongly believe that the forces that brought us together wouldn’t change me.

’’You mentioned this when your father tried to talk you out of the ritual. I brushed it off for my own selfish reasons,’’

I furrow my brows in confusion not really sure where he is going with this. ’’I am sorry that I didn’t look into it further. You did this because of me and now we are in this dilemma,’’ he adds like he is even making any sense right now.

’’I didn’t do this because of you,’’ I tell him point-blank.

He sighs loudly, I grab his hands in mine ’’Do you understand that my decision was mine alone. No one coerced me into the ritual. It is what I wanted, and I don’t regret it for one second.’’

That is the honest truth.

I don’t feel any different.

There must be a reason for whatever is happening. I will not get scared and regret my own declaration for love. Being in the caves with Beau, I have never felt freer. The fact that I experienced all I did with him that night and can say I lived to see him and another day, is all I am grateful for. so he won’t try to convince me otherwise.

’’I don’t know how I feel about all that Jules said. I am so pissed at myself, even though I know there was nothing that I could’ve done differently to change this.’’

’’Why do we need to change this?’’

’’I don’t want you to change.’’

I am not changing. I don’t feel any different, there is nothing that proves that I am a different person but even if I did change. Even if I suddenly became a fucking werewolf, I would still be me.

’’I am still me Beau, I am still the man you love. No matter what,’’ I try to give him that assurance because I already know. I am not scared. Nothing about our whole situation can scare me now. Not even fucking Cassius.

’’I love you so much,’’ he whispers, coming closer to me. I pull him closer to me, my arms wrap around his waist. I feel his breath on the crook of my neck. It is hot and giving me the chills. The good kind, by the way.

’’So, is everything cool now?’’ he asks still in my arms.

There was nothing wrong. I don’t care about anything. He is the only one I care about. I need to go back home, talk to my father. He will be able to explain things better to me. He gave me his blessing, even though he didn’t agree with everything. right now, I have to be here with him.

’’We are cool,’’ I assure him.

Nothing is going to make me regret anything with him. Not even if I have to become human. I will take everything as destiny. How can you fight destiny? Destiny brought him to me, and I thank destiny.

’’My training starts tomorrow,’’ he tells me as we walk back to his house.

Jules said he would be stronger after the ritual. He probably wants to test that out. I don’t really know how that works. I have always known that Beau was strong. I don’t actually think fighting Cassius is about strength. Wining against Cassius is all about strategy.

That is all we need.

’’He wants to teach me how to control my wolf. He said I have a lot of potentials that I am not even aware of.’’ He smiles almost like he is excited to experience it all.

’’You know your wolf is a savage,’’ I tell him as I remember the night in the caves.

Beau took total control of me. he was a totally different person that night. I actually believe Jules when he says he has so much unlocked potential. I see it in his eyes every time I look at him.

’’Oh really,’’ he grabs my hand and pulls me closer.

My cheeks redden. We are close to his house, in the middle of the compound. Apart from the people standing guard. No one is roaming around. I know the look he has right now.

’’Do you want a repeat of last night. We have a couple of hours before Brone and Bade have to leave. We can have a quick one?’’ he is suggestive, and I like the sound of it all. The fact that we can have sex now without having to worry about anything is such a major turn on for me. His hands slide down my chest, slowly and seductively.

He is teasing me, and I like it so much.

Watching him right now, all I want to do is rip off his clothes and have him devour me. Slowly, he leans closer to me and his lips are on mine for a hot kiss. My heart thuds against my chest as he presses his body to mine, trying to opt for close proximity. I moan into his mouth as he slides his tongue deeper to the point where I feel it on the roof of my mouth. His dick is hard against mine. A reminder of last night surging through me.

Beau breathing spikes up, harder than a second ago. The kiss is getting to him as much as it is to me. ’’We should take this inside,’’ I mumble in between kisses.

He nods and leads me into the house hurriedly. We are in his room as fast as the flash and we help each other out of our clothes, no one wanting to slow things down. Beau pushes me to the bed with a loud thud and I lie flat on my back as he climbs on top of me. I feel all of him as he grabs my dick for a tug. Just a touch from him can send me off the wall. ’’This is supposed to be a quickie,’’ I breathe out heavily.

With dark eyes, he strokes me, enjoying every bit of my reaction. He doesn’t stop working his magic as he drives me to my edge. I squirm and wriggle in shudders until I spill all over him. it doesn’t seem like he is done as he places a warm kiss on my lips. His hands trailing to my entrance. His hand is warm, so warm against my cold body. Another thing that proves that nothing has changed.

He slides one finger into me, and I stiffen from the pressure. Unlike last night, I am in my right sense—okay maybe that’s not the right word but It is not as intense as last night. Last night was different, it felt like we were in a different world, now it feels like I am on earth with him. I can feel the pleasure as he twirls his finger into me. I can also feel a slight pain that I knew I would feel.

’’Does it hurt?’’ he mutters in a daze.

I shake my head incessantly because I don’t want him to stop. he slides another finger into me, this time opening me up. It doesn’t hurt anymore as he pushes his finger deeper into me.

After a couple of seconds of wet kisses and finger fucking. He pulls out of me and pushes his dick into me with so much force that I am sought of caught. A scream escapes my lips as I arch my back to accommodate him properly. His hand tugs at my hair, as he pulls my face closer.

’’You good?’’ he asks grinding into me.

I nod immediately because the deeper he goes, the more blissful it feels ’’Don’t stop,’’ I manage in between breaths.

He pushes into me and I moan as he finally hits that spot. I close my eyes, as he continues to hit the spot. I lied when I said it is not intense as last night. It feels just as intense.

’’Fuck,’’ he grunts into my lips.

I claw my nails into his back as he continues to put as much pressure on that spot. His dick is so deep inside me, that I feel like I am about to explode.

I open my eyes and he is watching me. in between pushes, he caresses my hair.

’’I love you Lanis,’’ he cries as sweats drip from his forehead.

I lean forward for a kiss, not needing to validate my feelings. He already knows that I love him too, even without saying anything.