The Recall Trials
Chapter 25: Honey Between Her Thighs II

Chapter 25: Honey Between Her Thighs II

"Can I... touch you?" I whispered.

"Yeah," she nodded.

God, I was trying to be careful. Gentle.

But she made it so hard.

"You’re so hot," I whispered against her ear, and her breath hitched.

I turned her gently by the waist, until she was facing me. Her eyes went dark, full of something that wasn’t innocent anymore.

Then I leaned down and kissed her again.

But this time, it was more intense. It was deeper.

Her hands slid up my chest. I let mine fingers roam around her waist, her back, the curve of her hip in that dangerously tight swimsuit.

Still, I needed more.

"You want this?" I asked, resting my forehead on hers.

She nodded. "Yeah.."

I paused, scanning the locker room. No cameras in sight. At least, none I could see. That didn’t mean they weren’t watching. They always were. But in that moment, I didn’t care.

Zaara looked up at me, parting her lips, waiting for me to make a move. And I did.

I stepped in, slowly, and pressed a kiss to the side of her neck.. When she let out that moan, every ounce of control I had vanished in a second..

I slid a finger between her thighs, just to feel her. God. She was soaking. I brought my fingers to my mouth, tasting the slick sweetness of her. The moment her taste hit my tongue, I was gone. God....she was delicious. Warm, wet, and soft... like honey melting on my tongue, honey dripped straight from heaven. She was everything I never knew I craved.

She gasped when I added another finger, her body tightening around me. She was damn tight. She moaned, gripping my shoulder.

It became difficult to slide in two fingers, and I didn’t want to hurt her; she felt so delicate. Wait, what if she’s a virgin? I wondered.

I hesitated for a moment, unsure if asking would feel awkward. Gently, I pulled back one finger and leaned in, whispering in her ear, "Have you done this before?"

She gave a small nod. "No," she said softly.

Holy shit.

What the hell...

My heart dropped. What the hell am I doing?

She was a virgin. Not just that, she’d never even been touched like this before.

Suddenly, the heat of the moment felt wrong.

It was more than I’d expected, more than I’d ever really thought about. Was I even ready for something like this? I didn’t know. Honestly, I didn’t think I was.

I could see it in her eyes, curiosity, trust, maybe even vulnerability. And I was about to cross a line she might not even be ready for.

The truth was, I didn’t even know if I was ready to carry that. Was I even the kind of person who deserved something that pure?

She had never been touched before....not by anyone. And somehow, out of all people, I ended up being her first...

Me.

I’ve been with so many girls over the years that I’ve honestly lost count. Flings, one-night stands, rushed hookups that meant nothing hours later. I’d gotten so used to detachment that I forgot what it meant to matter in a moment like this. To mean something.

And yet, there she was, completely open, vulnerable, willing to give me something she’d never given anyone..... somehow made me feel like a fraud.

And I couldn’t stop thinking: What did I ever do to deserve that kind of trust?

I didn’t deserve her. Not her gentleness. Not her unscarred, untouched body. Not the way she looked at me like I was safe. Like I was worthy.

Because in that moment, I wasn’t. And that was the part that hurt the most.

My chest was tight. The guilt made it hard for me to breathe. My hand stilled. I pulled back, gently, like I was afraid to break her.

"Hey... I—" I said. "I’m sorry. I can’t do this."

The words came out harsher than I meant, like I was brushing her off, not protecting her.

She blinked, confused. Her brows furrowed. "Did I... do something wrong?" she asked, like she was already bracing for rejection.

"No. God, no. Not at all." I shook my head quickly. "You should, um... probably get dressed. Before someone comes in."

Her face changed, she was hurt. Disappointment? Embarrassment? Anger? Maybe all three.

Without a word, she reached for her swimsuit and slipped it back on. The air in the room shifted....what was just warm now felt cold and heavy.

She gave me one last look, then turned and walked toward the door.

The bang when she slammed it shut, echoed.

I just stood there, my heart still racing.

I messed up. I really messed up.

Why was I freaking out?

Because she’s a virgin. And I didn’t expect that to matter but it did. Way more than I thought it would.

I leaned back against the bench, closed my eyes, and exhaled slowly.

That look on her face.....it wasn’t just disappointment. Like I’d promised to keep her safe, and instead, I let her walk straight into the fire. And then I walked away.

She trusted me. And I let her down.

I didn’t mean to hurt her. God knows I didn’t. But I did. And that’s what killed me. Intent doesn’t erase pain, does it?

She was right there, ready to give me a part of herself no one had ever touched. And I froze. I panicked. Not because I didn’t want her, but because I did. Too much.

Everything about her was soft. Gentle. She had this way of looking at me like I was worth something more than I’d ever believed I was. And I let her walk out thinking she wasn’t enough.

What the hell was wrong with me?

I ran a hand down my face, trying to push the thoughts away, but they kept coming. All the times I’d been careless, thoughtless, selfish. All the times I’d chased the thrill instead of the meaning. And now, when something real was finally in front of me, I crumbled.

And now... now she probably hates me.

I thought about going after her. Apologizing. Explaining. But what would I even say?

Sorry for making you feel like you weren’t enough?

Sorry for stopping because I realized I might love you and that scared the shit out of me?

None of it felt like enough.

Because part of me was still scared. Scared of being someone she deserved.

The truth was simple.

I didn’t know how to handle something that pure... because I’d never had it before. And now that I did...I was terrified of ruining it.

But maybe I already had.

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