SEX WITH MY BEST FRIEND'S FIANCÉ
Chapter 54 - FIFTY FOUR

Chapter 54: Chapter FIFTY FOUR

- HAZEL -

I stood outside the closed amusement park with an extra paper-cup of coffee in my hand. I’m freezing and I don’t have a jacket, plus, I’m alone. 

I wouldn’t have been if Kaiden didn’t have urgent things to attend to, leaving me stranded. And if Kate hadn’t pulled an awol on me. I sigh and stick the tip of my half filled cup of coffee in my mouth, holding it firmly between my teeth and slowly dip my hand in my pocket to take my phone. I turn on the screen and head to my chat with Killian. Killian hasn’t texted me since then but I’m waiting for him. 

I couldn’t get any network signal to call a taxi and he was the only one I could think of that would actually be willing to help me. 

That’s why I texted him. That, and also the fact that I want to talk, yet I feel devastated about that. I feel like I’m taking advantage of a situation I definitely have no upper hand in. Maybe it’s because I know he cares about me. 

I’m a terrible person!!

I pace back and forth in a line, still holding my phone. I can’t deny, it’s quite uncomfortable to hold a crutch and walk while having both of my hands and my mouth occupied but I feel uneasy and it’s not my posture discomfort that causes the uneasiness, hence I’m moving from side to side to clear my head a little.

I sigh into my coffee cup and look at the time on my phone. It’s really getting late and I can’t help but be worried. I wonder where he is. I wonder if he changed his mind and decided not to come without texting to notify me. 

I wish I can bite my lower lip right now, it might make me feel a lot better. I sigh again, this time, I stop moving. I’m really hoping Killian didn’t change his mind or I’m screwed. 

My palm starts to get sweaty despite the chilly atmosphere. It’s as a result of stress. Ugh! I glance at my cell phone once more in anxiety when a notification pops up. 

It’s Killian! 

’Walk forward. I’m here.’ I read. This is the first message to drop since I’ve been standing out here that makes me feel good and so excited. I look around, hoping to find him because I can’t see him ahead. That’s when a car’s front lights flashes, getting my attention. 

I dip my phone in my pocket and walk to his car. "Hey.." I breath with relief, taking the cup out of my mouth. "Back seat or front seat?" I ask softly. 

"Front." Killian says firmly and I pull the car door open. I drown my cup of coffee down my throat and throw my coffee cup, along the other one, out. I hate littering but I guess today will be my exception. Maybe I’ll donate to charity to ease the guilt. 

I stare at Killian. He either didn’t seem bothered or didn’t see me do that. That’s good. 

I sit first then carefully pull my leg in and kept my crutch by my side before closing the door gently. 

"Thank you for coming." I start and pull the seat belt over my body to buckle. 

"My pleasure." He states and drives forward. "Do I drop you at the hospital or at your dorm?" 

"My dorm!" I gush shyly. My heart is pounding hard on my rib cage. It’s because I’m near him. It’s nerve wracking that looking at him still gives me butterflies even though I try to bury my genuine feelings towards him with rage and hate. I swallow gently. Not seeing his presence for a few days really made me think about him. A whole damn lot. "Please. I can walk now." At least a little bit. I clear my throat. I don’t want to be in that hospital bed anymore. I don’t want to experience some kind of jinx while living in a place for sick people so don’t blame me. Killian eyes me from head to toe then averts his gaze back on the road. 

I stick my lip in my teeth and feed on it. He definitely looked at my legs. Despite the cast on my leg, my foot doesn’t hurt anymore. I can’t wait till it’s completely off. After the game, I went to the hospital and according to them, I could spend the remaining two days till my cast is taken off there or I could enjoy being discharged. Whichever option I chose, they’d respect it. I chose to leave. The further I’m away from a boring life, the better so I was glad. 

I snap myself out of my thoughts and return to reality. My fingers clench on my skirt. I feel awkward. 

The drive is silent. No one uttered a word. I snuck a gaze at Killian and gasp. His focus was ahead. He didn’t look at me once throughout the drive. 

I swallow. 

"What did you want to talk about? Surely you didn’t call me here to drive you." Killian finally mutters. 

I spread my lips ajar slowly, still staring at him. He didn’t even gaze at me while asking that. "I wanted to return-" I know what I want to say and I’m aware it’ll be a lie. I shouldn’t even proceed with my sentence. Even if I end up saying what I have in mind, I didn’t bring them with me but so far, nothing but silence brewed between us so this might be a good conversation starter. I gulp. "-The things you gave me in the hospital." I finished my statement. 

Killian finally spares me a gaze. I can’t read it but I know that’s not a happy face. At least, he’s looking at me. "Keep it. Throw them away if you don’t have any use for them but I don’t want it." He returns his gaze forward. 

"I-" I squeeze my thighs together. Those aren’t the words I thought would spring out of this conversation. I guess I’ll stick to the truth. "I loved them. Sorry, I don’t know why I said that." I blink, looking away. I sound confused. I am confused. 

"Okay." 

His one word reply does not help. 

"Will you be at the school dinner?"

"Since when are you interested in my whereabouts, Hazel?" 

I don’t know. 

"Nevermind then." 

Killian huffs. "I’ll assume you have nothing to talk to me about. You just needed a ride." I heard him mutter something under his breath. I don’t know what he said but Killian sounds pained. Like a man hiding his emotions behind a straight face. A straight, handsome face. "Why am I not surprised?" 

Hearing that made me feel guilty. I had a lot planned in my head to talk about till I actually sat by his side. I look out the window. He’s not wrong though, I could’ve texted him any other day but I needed a ride. I truly am a shitty person. 

We pass by a gas station and the car slows down. Killian makes a turn. "My apologies kitten, but I need to make a stop." He says. 

I turn to face him. He didn’t look at me. Again. I simply nod and avert my gaze. "Mm." I murmur. Not like I have much of a say anyway. 

The car came to a stop and he steps out. The noise caused when he slams the door shut makes my body flinch. I don’t know if he noticed that. He didn’t act like he did. 

A sharp breath escapes my lips as my eyes wander to the top of the car. I tap my fingers on my thighs gently, thinking of what to do. 

My stomach growls. 

A wry smile forms on my face. Maybe I need to eat. I tilt my head lower and gaze at Killian. I don’t know if I have the right to ask him to make a stop.

I lean my head on the seat and close my eyes. The rumble on my stomach is louder. It’s getting impossible to ignore. 

I’m sure I can hold on till I get to my dorm. I hold my phone and check the connection. There’s signal now! Awesome! 

I send a text to Jasmine and drop my phone on my thighs. I hope she sees this before I get back and orders something for me because I am starving! 

The door opens and I avert my gaze to the side. 

"You alright?" Killian asks, sitting down. 

"Apart from the hunger tornado happening in my stomach, yes, I am." I giggle. I don’t expect Killian to care but I also didn’t expect him to ask about my wellbeing. 

"How about a long drive? I know a good spot you can eat at." 

I gave him a careful look. 

"Not my place. Don’t worry." 

That made me laugh under my breath. I wasn’t wondering about that. I was stunned he offered without me asking. 

"If it’s okay with you, yeah. That would be nice. Thank you." 

Killian shuts the door gently and starts the car. "My pleasure, kitten." 

"You’re still not going to let go of that name?" I gasp softly. "I wonder why you even call me that." I hate that I love it when he does. 

"For my own personal satisfaction." Killian gave me a side gaze. 

I clear my throat. I’d rather not question further. My head is somewhere else. "How much longer till we get there?" I’m so fucking hungry!

Killian sneaks a gaze my way. "Hunger really is a funny drive, is it not?" His voice deepens and his eyes darkens.

I swallow, looking at him. Killian is not staring at the road and he’s driving at full speed. I’m both worried for my safety and driven by a different kind of desire. 

Why do I get the feeling he’s not talking about hunger? At least, not the one tantrumming my stomach. 

"Explain further, what do you mean?" I ask. My eyes aren’t on his face anymore but soaking in his presence. Enjoying the sight of his body. I SHOULD NOT STARE AT HIM IN THAT WAY, IT’S WRONG!

But who am I kidding?

"Just how frustrating it is to starve for something, and how, despite it not being good for you, you find yourself wanting to have it at all costs. Succumbing to the urge to claim your want, not need." 

"Are you saying food isn’t a necessity?" I giggle. 

"Depends on the food." 

That made me gulp. 

Killian looks forward. "We’re here." 

Already? I mean, thank goodness, but already?

I follow the road with my eyes as he swerves to park. I’m hungry, but I’m in need of fresh air more than I hunger for food right now. "Can we get take aways?" I ask. I don’t want to be selfish but I don’t think I want to eat on a seat opposite to Killian and bear his stalking gaze penetrate my skin. I’d rather his eyes be on the road. "Please. I need to get some fresh air, I can’t breathe." 

Killian’s gaze swerves from my face to a part of my body. I would’ve traced it with my eyes but I didn’t dare. Part of me doesn’t want to know what he’s looking at. 

"Sure." Killian smirks. "I’ll be back." He says to me before stepping out. His keys are in his car and the engine is still running, I wonder why he trusts me that much. I could leave him here all alone. 

I huff. 

Now that Killian is not in this car, I can breathe without my thoughts revolving around why he hasn’t looked at me every two minutes, damn! 

I lean my head on the door and look out the window, deep in thought. 

I’m happy with Kaiden. Things are going well for us and we’ve had our first date. Then why... why can’t I get Killian out of my mind?

Maybe because Kaiden and I haven’t had sex yet. 

I exhale, clenching my fists. 

Or maybe I enjoy the thrill of being in the arms of someone I’m supposed to be away from. 

I shake the thought out of my head. Maybe I should talk to Killian about what I initially wanted to when he comes out. Or when we get out of here and I’ve eaten. 

Either way, the bottom line is I really need to talk to him. For my cause. 

And maybe... to feed my own longing. 

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