My Happy Daily Life After Being Reborn
Chapter 400: Past Life (Medium) - Love to the Extreme is Madness_2

Chapter 400: Past Life (Medium) - Love to the Extreme is Madness_2

But he quickly regained his composure.

He couldn’t do it. If he were to die, leaving a child for Wanwan, how exhausted would she be, all alone? She was so beautiful, what if someone took advantage of their orphaned and widowed state?

Moreover, the matter of revenge was at a critical juncture, and if he dragged her into this vortex now... He dared not imagine the scene of her walking in front of him.

He hid that document deep in a drawer.

Not long after, Xu Meimei appeared in Shen Chi’s view. No, perhaps it was wrong to say it that way. In fact, this woman had been incessantly entangling herself around him for seven or eight years; it was only now that he truly took notice of her.

He knew this woman was somewhat related to Dong Fei, and her appearance before him was no coincidence.

But what he saw more clearly was the obsession and fiery emotion in this woman’s eyes when she looked at him, identical to how he looked at Wanwan.

Lost in the intensity of emotion in those eyes, Shen Chi inexplicably felt dazed at the time, even he himself was confused. However, he quickly let go of the matter and continued to hasten his steps toward revenge.

He began to dream, dreaming of lying in bed with Wanwan, who slept so sweetly, even smiling in her sleep. He wanted to reach out and touch her, only to discover he had somehow turned into a corpse. Below him, lava churned, filled with bones and the wailing cries of despair from hell, and his corpse gradually fell downwards. But in the last moment, his corpse would always reach out its hand to pull Wanwan down with him.

At that point, he would wake up and then be unable to sleep all night long.

Occasionally, he would have good dreams, but upon waking, he could never remember them, feeling an unbearable emptiness inside.

The malignant tumor in his brain seemed to have grown restless, causing him pain so intense he wanted to thrash on the ground, but he had to endure it, not letting Liu Yufang and others discern his illness.

Sometimes he endured it until his facial expression froze, the thing on his neck feeling foreign, terribly sore. Occasionally, when alone, he would indulge himself but nearly blasted his own head with a gun. Since then, he dared not keep knives or firearms, those dangerous items, nearby when alone, afraid he wouldn’t be able to resist suicide.

He still had so many things unfinished.

It was in such a repressed and twisted state of mind that Shen Chi saw Xu Meimei again. She smiled at him and handed him a sweater she had knitted herself, all nervous.

He froze for a moment, then did something even he found unexpected—he reached out and embraced her. Compared to Xu Meimei’s ecstatic joy and his own confusion, the expressions of the others were one of horror.

After similar occurrences happened several times, Shen Chi began to seriously ponder what was wrong.

He didn’t believe he had fallen in love with Xu Meimei instead; the only one in his heart and mind was Wanwan. So, the only reason he might treat her differently was that her feelings for him and his for Wanwan were very similar... He narrowed his eyes and thought back to what was on his mind when he was close to Xu Meimei? What was he feeling in his heart?

—"If I were to reciprocate her feelings, what expression would she have?"

—"If I were to thoroughly shatter her hopes just when she believes I have fallen in love with her, what kind of despair would show on her face?"

—"If I were to have relations with her, completely nullifying any possibility with Wanwan, would my mind feel a bit lighter?"

—"It’s both longing without attaining, why can she see the person in her heart every day, yet I can’t even meet Wanwan once? If I could drag her down to despair and pain with me, would that make me feel better?"

Caught off guard, overwhelming despair and unwillingness surged up from within, and he felt extremely troubled, walking out of his home involuntarily.

When he came to his senses, he found himself standing near the old city area where Wanwan lived, just a fifteen-minute walk away from seeing the person who haunted his dreams.

But Shen Chi couldn’t muster any expression.

Because just then, amidst his heartache, he had actually thought—would the devil in his heart die if Wanwan were to die first?

He understood that his mind was probably not right, or to put it bluntly, he was mad.

Originally, Shen Chi had wanted to control his uncontrollable behavior towards Xu Meimei, but after this incident, he let go completely.

Rather than Wanwan getting hurt, he would naturally prefer Xu Meimei to be the one in pain.

One night, he was rushing back to the city from Province C with Chen Han. When they passed by a bar, Shen Chi suddenly asked to stop the car and walked in.

He didn’t want to drink, but he didn’t feel like returning to the military district either. Carrying too much burden there, he wanted to find a place where no one recognized him and just sit down.

Then unexpectedly, he saw Xu Meimei, drunk and being harassed by several hooligans.

Chen Han frowned, wanting to help, but Shen Chi held him back.

At that moment, he should have been surprised, or perhaps terrified? Because his suspicion was confirmed.

As for his mental state, Shen Chi never thought of hiding it from him, nor could he.

He watched with his own eyes as Xu Meimei was forcibly dragged into a motel by several ruffians, and deep in his heart emerged a twisted sense of pleasure. He even checked into two rooms in the motel with the flustered Chen Han, staying there.

Then, as if possessed, he made Xu Meimei believe that the one who had slept with her was him, giving her an illusion of love, watching her sink step by step into the trap he had set for her. The happier she was, the more excited he was inside, looking forward to her reaction when the truth came out.

In this way, he suppressed the malice that despair had bred in him against Wanwan.(To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to vote for it at Qidian (qidian.com) by giving it a recommendation ticket, a monthly ticket. Your support is my greatest motivation. Mobile users please visit m.qidian.com to read.)