My Dear Duke(BL)
Chapter 60: Felix’s Past; Lucas And Hope

Chapter 60: Felix’s Past; Lucas And Hope

[Warning: Kidnapping, Child Abuse, Self-harming thoughts]

Working extremely hard, Felix managed to improve and fasten his skills to write, read, review, do all the duties of the duke and even attend official events as the man of the Griffin mansion.

It was hard, nothing is easy. He was just a child after all.

But he got things right.

However, after around three years, tragedy strikes again.

He was kidnapped.

By those counts...

They actually knew Felix was a young heir. But because he was hated by people due to his past, nobody would actually bother to look for him. Actually no one did. Felix had a little hope that at least one person would do something to look for him. But no...

After everything he had learned he knew he was going to get sold. And, he overheard the counts talk about how they want more children for the batch to ship. So that was an illegal slave business. And, they must have kidnapped Felix as a last choice because they were in a hurry to collect the designated number of childrens.

Felix was stuck in a room full of children for around two days. Some younger than him and some even older than him, maybe around 15. They got no food and water for days. It was suffocating and terrible. Once they leave this hell, the next destination would be even worse.

Felix was done with all this.

He had accepted he was ill-fated.

But, he wasn’t ready to just stay back this time. At least he will try.

He did his best to find a way to escape but only to get caught by the counts’ henchmen which made things worse for him just as he was steps away from squeezing out of the room.

He was definitely so ill fated.

They put him in a dark room, separated from other children. He was beaten up quite badly by them under count’s order and was in pain all over.

It hurt a lot and with a weak body that wasn’t hydrated around a day, he could barely move.

With that, he just gave up for the time being and laid on the ground, failing to see anything in the dark. He hated his life.

Felix wasn’t originally scared of the dark. But when he felt someone else’s breath on him after some time, he couldn’t help but tremble in fear. What did he get himself into?

He was definitely not alone in that room.

It was worse than being alone in the dark.

Who else was there?

And why was that person breathing weirdly?

Was it a wild animal or something like that to punish him?

Felix felt a fear very horrible for the first time in his life.

He wanted help.

He could hear heavy breathing and something long like hair falling on him. In the dark, he couldn’t see anything. So he didn’t know the surroundings either. Because of that, he was confused and frozen, not knowing where to move. He wanted to cry but he couldn’t even do it due to the shock.

As he tried to move away from the other presence, a hand grabbed him by the neck.

Felix could feel the five long fingers around his neck.

Thank god, it was a person.

Felix felt quite relieved to know it was not something else.

That person also seemed to try to see but because of the darkness, couldn’t. So that person’s touches felt like that person was trying to identify him though the touch.

The hands went everywhere on his face but the owner made no sound all the time other than heavy breathing.

Could it be another person in trouble like him?

Soon, Felix had to dismiss it.

Because he was the only one in trouble there.

"My darling! You are back! You are back! I knew...you will come back for me! Don’t leave me. You know I love you. Don’t leave me again..."

A hoarse voice screamed happily and Felix was suddenly startled because the sound came very close to him.

So this is the person that touched his face.

And it’s definitely a woman from the voice.

Why was she there in the first place? It didn’t sound like she was a child either. Her big palm that touched Felix’s face was also evidence of that. This was an adult.

Before Felix could even think about anything, he had to try and get away when that woman grabbed his arms and squeezed them to the point Felix wanted to cry in pain. But he couldn’t move away as he was weaker and the woman, the full grown was on top of him, putting all her body weight on his body.

He panicked but couldn’t even let out a sound as he was so scared. But through this, he noticed the woman kept talking and talking fastly in a familiar manner.

He then remembered why it felt familiar.

His mother also used to talk like this. She cries and mumble without an end just like this. Just like this... talking like a crazy woman.

Was it also another woman like his mother?

Before Felix could try again, he felt the woman’s hand on his face again, then something else on his face. It took him some time to realise what was happening until he felt the breath on him as her touches fell on him again.

She was kissing him...

It’s her rough lips on his face.

Everywhere on his face...

Her rough dried lips hurt Felix’s face. He was scared. He felt disgusted.

He struggled but the woman didn’t even seem bothered.

Felix was in pain all over after struggling and got weak soon after. He weakly laid on the ground while that woman did the disgusting act with him and him crying desperately as he wanted to get away.

He knew what was happening. The disgust and the feeling of nausea along with a big disappointment got over him.

So he never deserves to be in peace...Isn’t that why all these bad things keep happening to him?

He was horrified, shocked and traumatised.

And...that was also the moment he just gave up.

That was the moment he finally thought it loud in his head and persuaded himself.

If he dies, everything will be peaceful.

He wanted to die.

He was relieved he was finally brave enough to gather the courage. So he just listened to the woman’s moans, groans and pleadings...

He will endure this.

And just kill himself as soon as he gets the chance.

Eventually, Felix’s vision got blurry and he felt his consciousness slowly drifting away. He didn’t know what would happen to him once he lost consciousness. But he wished, when he wakes up again, he will still remember and have the same courage to tell himself he wants to kill himself.

He despised himself.

He had enough.

He had seen children his age happily enjoying their childhood with their parents while he worked like a grown adult, having to deal with his crazy mother who hasn’t shown little bit gratitude. And, when he finally got over it and finally found some passion to live his life, he was again disappointed like this. It’s scary to have hopes because he knows he will be hopeless again....

Living was tiring.

He wanted to die.

However, when he opened his eyes again, the thought of killing himself wasn’t there. He doubted this would happen and as expected, he wanted to live again because he was foolishly hopeful again since he was away from the threats.

Someone saved him.

And, it only brought him hope.

He opened his eyes to the sight of another child his age or maybe a little older, smiling and crying at the same time.

"You are awake! Hic! Thank god!"

It was Lucas.

Throughout everything that happened to him, that was the only moment Felix felt good about.

His first meeting with Lucas....

The hope for him at that time.