My Dear Duke(BL)
Chapter 198: Lover

Chapter 198: Lover

"Asher, I don’t want to put my problems into you. But can you help me?"

"With anything Sir Lucas!"

Lucas watched Asher with bright eyes, full of hope.

"How do you show love to Felix? I mean...to your lover?"

"...T-that’s..."

Lucas watched as Asher eventually turned red, fidgeting his fingers.

"I am sorry if that question made you uncomfort-"

"No! I am fine. I guess you already know it changes from person to person. Felix loves to just talk with me or go along with whatever I do...Urm...As for me, I like messing with him. Tease him...with touch."

"Ohoo..."

Lucas chuckled as Asher blushed even more. He felt shy but he didn’t feel uncomfortable sharing these with Lucas. At this point, they only have very little things Lucas doesn’t know.

"Since you are experienced, can you teach me how to be...Mm...I mean, be preferable to your lover?"

Asher couldn’t help but pause for a moment at this question. Definitely, Asher never expected to hear such a problem from Sir Lucas though.

"...Sir Lucas...What more is there to be preferable if that person is your lover? Aren’t you guys lovers already because you two are preferable to each other?"

"...That’s right too...But...ugh! I don’t know how to explain this."

"...Sir Lucas, so you do have a lover, right?"

Asher asked.

He just gave up. Asher knows...

He doesn’t have a good mouth. Sir Lucas wouldn’t be mad. Right?...

"Asher, I told you a few times. You are actually very smart. You were right at that time."

"...sir Lucas..."

"It’s just like you assumed Asher. I guess I messed up there too. We wanted to keep our relationship a secret because of his status. I-"

"Sir Lucas, why are you blaming yourself? It’s sir Karl that a few times made me doubt the relationship between you two."

"...But, I am just..."

"Sir Lucas, are you guys having problems?"

"I can’t say it like that though. Only I am having these problems."

"...Is that what you are bothered by?"

"Mmm...I now realise I made a mistake."

"Sir?"

"...I am not good enough for him."

"Sir!"

"Asher, I am not good enough. I am just not the one for him."

Suddenly, Lucas’s voice trembled and Asher was frozen as he stared at the tears flowing through sir Lucas’s cheeks.

’He...he is crying!’

Asher stood there like a rock, unable to move. He was shocked.

Sir Lucas was crying....

It seemed like this was a serious problem.

Asher found the courage to pull sir Lucas into a hug.

He didn’t know when he got the courage but he did it.

He hugged sir Lucas. Sir Lucas also did not push away Asher.

It seemed like sir Lucas was also not much different from Asher.

His tiny trembles and sobs soon became uncontrollable at the comfort.

Maybe it’s not the people that are similar.

The sadness...

"Sir Lucas... what you said now...what you think of you, isn’t it?"

Asher asked, his hands gently patting Lucas’s trembling back.

"...I see other couples. Especially you and Felix...They all look cute and lovely. But, me and Karl...?... I am constantly on edge. I scold him for everything. But he never talks back to me. I don’t remember the last time I laughed with him for a good reason. I...am just not soft enough. I don’t know how to love. I am afraid Karl will get sick of me. I am tired of this feeling. I am just so disappointed and scared."

Lucas mumbled out through his sobs and Asher was at a loss for words. Actually, he didn’t know what to say.

It was clear sir Lucas was stressed he might lose sir Karl due to his strict and always serious demeanour.

In Asher’s head, there was no advice for this situation.

What was sir Lucas supposed to do?

Completely throw the real himself and be different to get love from his lover?

"Sir Lucas...I guess you have been together for a long period. Did something recently happen to make you feel stressed like this? And, if you feel down because other couples look lovely please remember everyone is different. Don’t compare you guys to another couple. I learned my lesson trying to compare myself to others. You can never compare yourself let alone a relationship."

Asher talked gently as sir Lucas gradually calmed down and gained his composure back.

"Karl is a loved man by a lot of people. I see everyday at events women come to him, smiling. They all look so beautiful. I wonder...why would Karl want someone like me when all these women who are many men try to get a hold of crawl to him by themselves? I am very dull. I have nothing interesting."

"Haha...Sir Lucas, are you seriously worrying about such a thing? I guess Sir Karl definitely feels you are interesting."

"Sigh...I guess I’m jealous....mostly."

"Sir Lucas, do you know, I have watched sir Karl pick up food for you before he eats. He even gets lost while staring at you. His eyes filled with joy... He is always looking at you. Like you said, did you see sir Karl being way too close toward those women?"

"...He never made me feel jealous or sad. It’s the others..."

"I learned a lot of things after I got together with Felix. If you love someone you should always express whatever you are feeling. If you are happy let them know so you could share the happiness. If you are sad let them know to hold the burden together. If you are worried, let them know so you can clear the situations."

"Mm...So, this is coming from an experienced lover, right?"

Sir Lucas’s mood had shifted to better and he smiled as he teased Asher.

"Haha...Of course! Not just lovers. But parents too!"

Asher said with a smile in a teasing manner and they both then laughed as they both got red cheeks.

"Thank you Asher. I will talk with Karl about my feelings. At least I can let him know and apologise. Then find out...what I’m lacking..."

"Mmm"

Asher wanted to let sir Lucas know there was actually nothing to apologise for but he didn’t want to bring back the talk up and upset sir Lucas again. Since he was looking quite satisfied after their talk Asher wanted to leave it at that.

’So...Sir Lucas and Sir Karl are indeed together....Mm...’

Asher blushed as he then thought of something unnecessary along with that.

’W-who might be the bottom?’

Asher really felt like being nosy...

’Sir Karl would be more suitable to be on top...He is bigger, quite scary. Well, sir Lucas is way scarier though....Whatever! Why should I worry about it?! Stop being so nosy Asher!’

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