My Dear Duke(BL)
Chapter 111: A Little Self Control

Chapter 111: A Little Self Control

"Mmm..."

Eventually, Felix found his face in Asher’s gentle hold, Asher’s lips attacking his, which was kind of not so unfamiliar, their tongues intervening as Felix felt the light kiss getting way longer than he could hold his breath.

Especially since he was flushed and flustered to the point his arms did not even move as he wanted, he was feeling defeated. So, he let Asher who seemed not ready to let go yet press their lips even tighter.

Felix could wait.

He didn’t want to push Asher away.

He may suffer a little.

That’s not a big deal.

So if he thinks about what happened now...he said it back too...

He also wanted to ’seduce’ him back.

Sigh...How did they even suddenly get into that kind of a talk? It felt unreal.

When Asher finally ended the kiss, he blinked dazingly, then looked at the duke.

"Duke...first, I want to sleep."

Just as he said, he put his head on Felix’s shoulder, closing his eyes and quickly falling asleep. Felix, dumbfounded all again, stayed frozen, trying to figure out what just happened and what he should do now.

It was quite scary how Asher, who was very active, suddenly shut himself off like that. But, seeing he was doing fine and sleeping sound asleep, Felix reassured himself.

Throughout this time, Felix tried his best to control his face since he found himself constantly smiling, failing to take his eyes off sleeping Asher.

What did he just say?

What did Asher just say?

What did they just say?!

’I can’t believe this.’

Felix looked at Asher, scoffing at himself.

So..that’s how they are now...

’He said beloved..’

Felix realised he actually had no hesitation to give that answer to Asher. The little time he took to think was if that was really happening. He was surprised and indeed taken aback but he felt his heart thump all while he mumbled out his response to Asher. He was nervous but it was just for saying something wrong. He, on one hand, was excited because he felt accepted and something else that made him feel hot from head to toe...

It was all tingly and was making him really happy.

He wanted to giggle.

He felt like a fool.

Like a big idiot.

Felix was so excited that he didn’t even move in fear of disturbing Asher’s sleep. And yeah, so, the very responsible man held the sleeping man in his arms, staying frozen so he wouldn’t be disturbed while his work was laying around to be finished.

He could take care of it later...

Yeah, later...

....

"Right...I went crazy."

Asher had already woken up but didn’t open his eyes as he was slowly getting back to reality. He slept well. And before...he did well too.

Asher slowly opened his eyes, the duke’s neck right in his sight, he moved his eyes up to see the duke’s face.

Asher paused for a moment, then soon drew a smile on his face seeing the duke was sleeping on the chair while holding him.

To see the duke so lovely, it was something Asher never expected to see or experience.

Now he felt this was the most precious man ever, and since they were now to be beloved, it made him feel...mm...he didn’t know what it was. But it’s a happy feeling.

Asher slowly moved his neck which was not the best feeling due to sleeping in the same position for too long. But, once he raised his head and saw the duke’s peaceful face, he forgot all that bothering him, a mischievous smile taking over.

Asher’s fingertips touched the duke’s tip of the nose, then slowly caressing his cheeks to the forehead.

Why was he doing this?

He didn’t know.

Asher gently caressed the duke’s hair, but his eyes were still very focused on the duke’s face. Asher felt himself getting gentler and gentler. Even his gaze got very gentle to the point Asher had to worry about the duke opening his eyes to see him like this since Asher knew he wouldn’t be able to look at this man differently anymore.

He challenged a battle.

And won this man. Or...his heart.

But in another view, he didn’t win but lost because this man stole his heart at the same time.

Maybe he shouldn’t say he won.

Either way, they were both winners.

And, they got each other as their trophy for the victory.

If he put that aside for now and thought about details in their last talk, Asher had some things to think more about.

Asher knew they just agreed with each other and got permission to treat each other differently, and also with a different purpose from before. So, they still have a long way to go till they reach the highest level of affection for each other, which would confirm they are lovers.

However, Asher couldn’t deny he kind of felt disappointed in himself about what he did out of the heat of the moment. It was as if he wanted to claim the duke because some maid he had never even talked to before made him doubt himself. And, while some things she said made sense, it definitely wouldn’t be the same in the duke’s eye. So...Asher wasn’t very worried about that. But he had a little guilt as he wondered if he confessed his wish just out of anger or...genuinely, just at the heat of the moment which bubbled up his honest feelings.

However...now since the duke agreed and he had a positive response, Asher was determined he did the right thing.

If this isn’t love, he would make this into love.

If this isn’t affection between lovers, he would make it that way.

He took the courage to confess his heart so...he would make it happen.

Because, sincerely...he wouldn’t want to lose the duke.

He was his.

He already confessed to the duke how he wanted him to be his beloved.

So..this man was his.

His only.

And...he would love him. And make that man love him back too.

While his thoughts got complicated, on one hand, Asher felt like things were very simple.

They like each other.

They both want to be beloved.

So why can’t they be so?

There was no reason for them to not be lovers if the two people involved don’t find anything wrong with it.

So...it’s simple.

Very simple.

Or so he thought.

Well, it might be...

Till, he finds himself grinning like an idiot all the time.

Till, he would be secretly staring at the duke like a creep.

Till, he would be wanting to just tie himself to the duke.

Till, he feels like he would die from the amount of satisfaction he felt.

Till...he feels he would never be able to let go of the duke.

Obviously, the duke would never not be his.

And he will forever be his.

He is his...very dear duke.

The man who saved him.

The man who made his life better.

The man who ’gave meaning to his speciality.’

The man who once cried in his arms.

The man who he once comforted.

The man...who he now finds himself attracted to.

And, obsessed over.

What is this?!

If this isn’t love, then what is it?

As Asher thought, Asher saw the duke’s eyelids flutter which could be he was waking up.

He must have disturbed the duke.

’I am an idiot.’

When the duke groaned and woke up, Asher also stood up, getting off from the duke’s lap where he rested all this time. He was sure the duke must have been uncomfortable and his legs must be numb now...

Asher didn’t really think he would keep him like that till he woke up. He didn’t really think much when he fell asleep. He just felt so comfortable and relieved, so he closed his eyes. He was indeed an idiot. A heartless idiot.

"You are awake."

Asher tried saying but was stunned as the duke also said the same thing at the same time. Then, both of them awkwardly tried saying something else which also happened the same way. So, being the gentleman he was, the duke gave Asher the chance to speak first.

"Duke...I thought I should mention this again. I like you a lot."

Since now he didn’t have to hold himself back...he may use this chance.

"A lot..."

Asher said again in a teasing manner.

Sigh....

Felix was totally wide awake when Asher teased him and then came to give him a light kiss after enjoying his panicked face. Why does he panic even when he gets a compliment?

"From now on, I won’t kiss you only when you are upset. I will kiss you everytime I see you. And...I won’t ask for permission. Because, you granted it all in one, remember?"

Asher said with a smirk while the duke chuckled, seeing Asher very excited.

Well the fact was Asher didn’t just kiss Felix only when he was upset though. Yeah...everyone should just forget it. That’s old news.

"Yeah...Please kiss me whenever you want."

The duke said, smiling at Asher who grinned wider.

"If you smile like that, of course I will kiss you even more. You know how to provoke me duke."

Asher said, leaning closer, starting with gentle pecks to long and deep kisses.

’I might be very horny for sometime from now on...’

When the duke seduces him like this...how could he hold back?

He might need to learn ’a little’ self control.