My Curse? A Different Yandere in Every Reincarnation
Chapter 69: Desires and Lust

Chapter 69: Desires and Lust

"... "

"Please don’t treat me like luggage..." He lifts me, holding me by the waist, but that’s not very cool, especially because I feel like luggage being held like this.

"Darling, there’s no other way to hold you, you know? Besides, you’re quite lightweight and I like to touch your soft skin, you’ve taken really good care of it," He compliments me.

"... If you hadn’t done that... you wouldn’t have to hold me like this," I say sarcastically about him having dismembered me.

"Of course, but if I hadn’t done that, you wouldn’t have learned anything," He responds with ’honesty’ to my sarcasm.

"I’m having phantom pain... could you do something about it?" I say, feeling a terrible pain where my leg used to be, tears streaming down as I hold back moans of pain.

"So that’s why you’re crying a little? Unfortunately, there’s nothing I can do to help you with that, it should pass soon, darling..., but maybe I can help ease it a bit."

"What are you doing?" He lays me down on my stomach on the bed and starts gently massaging my thighs, moving his fingers in a very careful and efficient manner.

"Helping, this should help ease some of your pain," He touches a little above the silver disk, massaging with skill.

"Hmm, t-this is really good..." It really feels good to have him squeezing me like this, I thought it would hurt, but he’s very good at massaging and it’s giving me a slight pleasure.

"I’m good at this, after all, it was useful in some jobs," He says to boast a little, but there’s no way this can seem good to me.

"..."

"Don’t be so tense, darling, just relax your muscles," He speaks while pressing a little harder on my thigh.

"I-If you’re so nice... w-why did you do this cruelty to me?" I question, making him stop, his gentleness is obvious, so I don’t understand how someone who acts this way can be so cruel to someone they love.

"Because you deserved this punishment, people are punished based on their actions, you simply received the punishment you deserved," He speaks coldly.

"..."

’This is so unfair...’ I think, finding the situation very unfair.

"Hyya!! D-Don’t touch there!" He inserts two fingers into my pussy while with the other hand massaging my thigh.

"Darling, I’m just massaging you, don’t get so excited," He speaks while touching a spot inside my vagina and then quickly removes his fingers.

"How does your pain feel now?" He asks curiously.

"Y-Yes..." It really stopped, it was hurting a lot, but now it’s fine again, this is a serious problem, I never know when this phantom pain will come up, I hope it never comes back.

"So don’t cry anymore using pain as an excuse to mask your sadness, do you think I don’t notice that? As I said, you need time to get over this," He speaks about the fact that I’m constantly discouraged by my situation.

"..." It’s hard not to be sad, it happened recently, I can’t just get over it in an instant, I don’t have that coldness.

"Could you... stroke my head?" I ask him, which he doesn’t quite understand for a moment, but soon does what I asked, caressing my head with the hand that was previously massaging my thigh.

’This... is good...’ I feared that this had come with me, just as I felt great pleasure with Flora caressing my head, I still feel pleasure with the act of being caressed.

Although it’s much smaller than when Flora did it, probably because he’s a man and my brain is more conditioned to react better with a woman.

"... You’re more wet, do you like this?" He asks as he notices that my pussy is dripping more love juices due to the caress.

"Y-Yes..." He starts poking my pussy deeper than before while caressing my head, the reason I asked for the caress is to try to forget the problem, I close my eyes and let everything stay as it is.

"Hmmm"

’What happens... if I let the memories of this body take over...’ I don’t know, I’ve already noticed this, it’s obvious to me that the memories of my current body dictate more of my actions than old memories.

This way I’m always similar to the Shizune of each world, having almost no noticeable differences or divergences.

The reason I question this is quite simple, I want sex, my current self really wants Ryuuji to hurry up and fuck me instead of just touching my pussy.

But the me in my memories doesn’t want this, trying to protect a little of my already fragmented masculinity.

’Does the Yandere factor get stronger the more I stray from the programmed?’ In all the worlds I’ve avoided acting as much as possible like the Shizune of those worlds, I even followed a similar pattern driven by memories.

But it wasn’t the same.

"Ryuuji..." I call him.

"Yes, darling?" He says as he stops moving his fingers in my pussy.

"I-I want sex..." I murmur softly with embarrassment while blushing, I can’t believe I’m asking a man for sex.

The Shizune of this world has accumulated a lot of lust over time, she felt unloved, Ryuuji was almost never home and they had little conversation.

Shizune has no living relatives, has no friends in general and has never done therapy, having only the son as minimal support for this, Ryuuji and Shizune haven’t had sex in almost 11 years.

After our son was born, Ryuuji only had sex with Shizune about 2 to 4 times and that was it, Ryuuji spent a lot of time traveling with almost no conversation between the two, this slowly took a heavy toll on Shizune.

Who saw herself as someone not so desirable, I don’t understand it well, but for a woman it must be horrible to feel invalidated because of a husband who doesn’t spend much time with her.

And slowly over the years, Shizune has acquired insecurity about herself and her body.

So she sought things to fill this void, and in the end what she found to feel validated was sex, the emotion of it made her feel better and more desired, as well as making her feel good about her own body.

Of course, the Shizune of this world understood that cheating on her husband was wrong, but just because she understood it didn’t mean she wouldn’t do it, she preferred to fill the void in the relationship with something.

She just never imagined the consequences would be so bad, even though she didn’t love the man she was with, she just wanted a brief, purely physical relationship.

She found him on the internet and made it clear that there would be rules, between the two of them there would only be sex, they wouldn’t do it without condoms, they wouldn’t tell anyone, and they wouldn’t have feelings for each other.

So the relationship went on like this until my husband discovered this betrayal and took revenge in his own cruel way, punishing me for something that wasn’t even my fault, but the fault of the Shizune of this world and her lust and desire.

And odiously, I’ve inherited her lust and desire, just as in the world of the magical girls I felt all the anger and hatred of Shizune for the injustice of society, I feel the validation and emptiness that this Shizune feels in this marriage.

And of course, I also feel her desire for sex that has simply become too high for me to ignore, becoming something that will hardly go away in this world.

"Darling, could you repeat that?" Ryuuji asks in a confused tone, he clearly would have expected only denial and anger from my words, he would never have expected me to actively seek sex with him.

"I want sex!! That’s it, you understand? I really want this, I want you to fuck me! You simply went on with your life and left me here at home, you hardly talked to me, if during these last 12 years you spent 3 years with me, it was a lot."

"I don’t even remember the last time we had a real conversation, do you think that’s normal for a husband and wife? I’m 31 years old, do you really think I don’t have needs too?"

"You have no idea how unwanted I’ve felt, you said you loved me when we got married, but you didn’t show it during all those years and now you just act with cruelty."

"How do you expect me not to be bothered by all this? My dissatisfaction has reached its limit!"

These are the words that the Shizune of this world has always wanted to say, but has always restrained herself, she didn’t want to cause problems with her husband who, although very absent, really provided the things she asked for.

"..." He remains silent, just listening, I don’t know what expression he’s making since I’m lying on my stomach on the bed and can’t easily turn around, the silence is a bit uncomfortable.

"I’m sorry, Shizune... I really was a terrible husband, you were young, I should have been more aware of your dissatisfaction and your desires, although that doesn’t justify you cheating on me, it was still a mistake on my part."

"But don’t worry, darling, I’ll make it up to you for these last years that I was a terrible husband." I feel his hands grab my waist as he begins to move me.

"W-What are you doing!" I question with some haste due to the sudden movement.

"I’m going to do what you asked, I’m going to fuck you until you’re satisfied," He turns me facing him.

"Oh... t-this... well" I guess I didn’t do too well speaking what the Shizune of this world wanted to say, after all, I just motivated him.

He lays me down on the bed and brings his cock close to my pussy, I look at his cock touching my pussy, which is tightening, my body becoming excited by the fact that I’m finally having the chance to satisfy myself.

"Don’t worry, darling, I’ll show you how much I desire and love you." He speaks in a loving tone.