My Curse? A Different Yandere in Every Reincarnation
Chapter 54: I can explain

Chapter 54: I can explain

After sleeping considerably well, I went to take a shower and came to have breakfast with Angelica. She serves me toast with eggs and bacon, along with a small bowl of rice and fish.

"Shizune, we need to talk seriously," Angelica says with an irritated look on her face. It seems the matter is really serious since I’ve never seen her acting this way.

"...Yes, you can speak," I say, pausing the food in the air and then putting it in my mouth as I affirm that she can speak.

"Do you think I’m an idiot?" She asks angrily. I stop eating and look at her without understanding why she’s mad at me.

"..."

"Shizune, you’re an idiot," she simply insults me for no reason.

"Why are you like this today!?" I question, not really liking being called an idiot out of nowhere.

"I’m speaking literally, Shizune. You’re dumber than when we started. You messed up a basic calculation that elementary school kids get right, and you used to get it right. Do you think I haven’t noticed you’ve been getting stupider every day?"

"But I’m taking care of you, I give you educational tasks, try to take walks with you, and give you food that helps. It doesn’t make sense for you to be getting dumber every day."

"Unless you’re doing something to cause it yourself. Do you think I can ignore the fact that you’re slowly destroying yourself?" She says, barely containing her anger.

’...’ I can’t deny it. Every day Flora comes to visit me, I feel worse the next day. Right now, even doing calculations on my fingers is very difficult, and I can still get the count wrong if I don’t focus on it.

"...I-I don’t know what you’re..."

Crack!

She bangs the table hard, making things shake and a cup fall to the floor, shattering.

"Don’t try to deceive me! How can you be so careless with yourself!"

’...’ I’m upset about this. It’s not my fault. They don’t protect me properly, and Flora keeps showing up all the time.

But what I’m feeling the most is indignation. I’m accepting Flora’s whims to protect them, how can she come and judge me like this when I’m trying my best?

Does she think I like this? Does she think I don’t know I’m getting dumber every day? She doesn’t know how powerless I feel having to obey Flora’s whims.

But in the end, either I obey or I die, and I don’t want to die. Flora seems the type who cares more about the moment, so if she gets bored with me trying to escape or resist, she’ll kill me.

I’m sure that as soon as I give her a reason, she’ll try to kill me, and I won’t even be able to resist.

"Angelica, I’m fine..." I try to stay calm. I beg her not to continue, or I won’t be able to handle it.

"Don’t make excuses. What have you been doing?" She insists. I’m completely losing my composure now.

"Nothing," I speak a single cold and short word to her to make her stop. Can’t she see I’m uncomfortable with this?

"Stop lying to me! Tell me now what you’ve been up to in secret," she continues. She really won’t stop.

"..." I decide to remain silent. If I ignore her long enough, she’ll give up. It’s worked the other times she’s questioned me.

"Do you think staying silent and throwing a tantrum like a child will work? I’m tired of giving in to your childish tantrums and giving up. Tell me now why you’re getting worse." She gets up from the table and comes towards me.

"..."

"Come on, Shizune, say it now or I’ll have to take action on this matter. You’re throwing your life away, don’t you realize that?"

’I’m tired of this...why do I get scolded when I’m just trying to keep everyone alive...’ I’m doing everything to keep Flora from killing them. Why is she destroying my hope like this?

This is so cruel. What’s the point of having hope that they’ll help me when all they do doesn’t help me at all?

"You want to know?" I say, reaching my limit. I can’t hold back anymore. If it were in the past, I might have, but my low IQ and low mental tolerance don’t allow me to try to contain myself anymore.

"Yes, tell me already why your condition has been worsening. Don’t hide the truth anymore," she speaks with a certain urgency.

"It’s Flora. She’s satisfied, she comes to mess with me every day, and you don’t do anything. She plays with me, and all I can do is try to endure and accept it. You don’t know how tired I am of this."

I start to vent, leaving the consequences aside. Everything has been so difficult lately to endure in silence. I get up from the chair and turn my back to her, ready to run to my room as soon as I finish venting.

I also don’t want to see her judgmental look or any other look she might have for me.

"I hate it. I hate being treated like a domesticable animal. She treats me like a damn dog, and just to keep you alive, I try my best to endure this humiliation."

I vent what I’ve been holding back for the last month. My voice has more sorrow than anger. I could normally endure in silence, but it’s impossible to endure if Angelica keeps insisting like this.

"How can you be mad at me! When I’m just trying my best to stay alive." No one has the right to judge me.

No one understands how bad it is to go from one world to another. The feeling of leaving one world and arriving in another adds so much weight on me that some of the deaths don’t even compare.

That’s why I’m so afraid of death. If it were just about dying and going to another world, I could even look for good worlds using instant deaths.

But the act of leaving one world and arriving in another is one of the worst parts, and besides the serious problem it causes me to go from one world to another, there’s also a Yandere I don’t know what she’ll do.

Some are even acceptable, like Alehandro, but there are others like Himari that are simply unacceptable.

"I hate this, I hate Flora, I hate you, I hate this world, and I hate Sayuri who forces me to go through this hell for a single mistake." This is undoubtedly the worst world so far.

Because it’s a world that’s taking everything from me. In the previous worlds, the most they took from me was my life.

But in this world, they took my power, they took part of my masculinity, they took my pride and trampled on it like trash, and among what they took from me the most is my intellect.

One of the few things I’ve had since the beginning was taken from me. How can I bear this? There is no human who could withstand such a thing.

’Why the silence...’ It’s strangely quiet. I expected Angelica to say something or try to hold me and turn me to face her in the eyes, but everything is silent. I turn to look at her to see why it’s silent.

"K-Kyaaaa!" I fall to the floor, quickly backing away in fear. I see Angelica lying on the floor, full of cuts. There’s blood all over the floor, as well as blood in a few other places, and it’s also messy, as if people had been fighting.

"W-Why?" I look at my hands, feeling something strange on them. They’re covered in blood, and I’m holding a knife. I also notice there’s blood on my clothes.

Out of fear, I grip the knife tightly as a reflex.

"I warned you what would happen, Shizune," I hear a voice and quickly look to the side, seeing Flora taking a sip of some drink.

"Do you think your collar is just an ornament? Certain owners put GPS in their pets’ collars. Of course I would do the same with you. I can’t risk you running away and never finding you again," she speaks with a certain calm.

"But another very good function is a built-in camera." When she says this, I look down and touch the collar around my neck, the collar I’ve been forced to wear this whole time.

"!!!" She killed Angelica, just as she said she would if I revealed something I shouldn’t. I broke a rule and was punished for it. This realization hits me quickly.

"Did you think this was outside of my plans? I always imagined you would talk too much at some point. After all, you’re not very smart. It must be hard to hide a secret like this." Her composure in the face of this is disturbing as I tremble with fear.

"But that’s not the main point here. You failed me, but since I liked your obedience in some respects, I only killed this magical girl. The others are alive."

"But I don’t leave punishments half-done. I hope you can argue well, or maybe you’ll be treated like a delusional schizophrenic." After saying this, Flora disappears.

I’m left without understanding what she meant, feeling only the fear of the situation. Angelica just died in front of me, and it’s all my fault because I couldn’t contain myself.

This is the first time an innocent person has died directly because of me. Even though Angelica was a Yandere, she never harmed anyone or hurt me.

She was worried about me and was trying her best to help me. I had a moment of anger, so I argued.

"..." I hear the sound of the door opening. From where I am, it’s easy to see who’s at the door, and the person at the door can easily see me.

"S-Shizune..." Rose and Azuli enter. I don’t understand why they’re here at this exact moment, but I soon attribute this to Flora’s doing.

Flora said I should argue well. I look at Angelica’s corpse. She was brutally killed by stabs. The scene looks like there was a bit of a struggle, but she couldn’t react and was murdered.

I’m holding a knife and am covered in blood...and worse, I have a mental problem that could "be" the reason I committed murder.

"..." Rose and Azuli stare at me. Their gaze goes from my blood-stained body to the knife in my hand and to Angelica on the floor. Out of fear, I gripped the knife tightly, so I still have it.

Flora was brilliant. She set everything up perfectly, probably stopping time to do it all.

"I-I can explain" I say in a way that doesn’t inspire much confidence. How can I explain this? There’s no explanation. To anyone who sees it, it’s obvious that I killed Angelica with the knife.