My Curse? A Different Yandere in Every Reincarnation
Chapter 49: Irrecoverable Loss

Chapter 49: Irrecoverable Loss

"...Angelica?" I wake up in a bed in some place that is obviously not a hospital since it doesn’t have that characteristic smell that many hate.

"Shizune!! I’m so glad you’re awake," Angelica says with extreme happiness as she gets up from the chair she’s sitting in and runs to press a button near the bed, soon Azuli and Rose appear.

"..." They start talking about something while I ignore them, I try to notice how stupid I’ve become.

’...I can’t do complex calculations...I can barely do basic division...’ I think about this almost crying, I’ve always been relatively intelligent because I had to deal with the management of several companies I had.

But now I can barely perform basic calculations, and it was extremely difficult for me to do them in my head, showing that my intelligence has declined greatly, I don’t even know for sure what to do.

Angelica and the others approach and see me counting on my fingers, after all, to do basic subtraction I needed to use my fingers.

’That’s right, laugh at me...’ I’m so stupid that I need to calculate with my fingers because I can’t visualize the result in my head, of course they don’t laugh at me, but for me it’s just humiliating.

"Shizune, our base has a medical evaluation system and the result was...not very pleasant for you, some strange drug was used on you and we couldn’t quite identify it."

"But this drug had some...negative effects on your brain..." Rose says with a pitying look that irritates me.

It seems they didn’t identify that there are two, after all, both were used together and both are modified drugs, so they’re treating it as one.

Of course, I can’t even say anything about it, so I stay silent with a sullen look.

"The cameras at headquarters didn’t capture anything strange...Shizune, could you say if you saw who did this to you?"

"I didn’t see anything," I say angrily, all of this is stressful, it’s as if they’re throwing in my face that I’m now stupid.

"...Shizune..." Angelica was going to say something more but stays quiet, Rose just sighs, but decides to leave it at that.

"Shizune, your general mental abilities have dropped a lot, according to our analysis, it seems to have declined by 60% to 70%, which is a lot for a person..." Azuli says, holding some papers.

’!!!’

"That’s... that’s... how much?" I don’t know, the percentage doesn’t make sense in my head, the numbers seem too complex for me, I can barely do division, the percentage seems like something out of science fiction.

"...Okay, let’s use an analogy that your childlike mind can understand, your previous mind was like 10 candies...your current mind is 3 candies."

"T-That’s absurd!!!" I was able to understand when she put it that way, that’s more than half of my candies, although the symbolism was strange, I understand that they took a lot from me.

"Angelica, do you want to take care of Shizune? With her new mentality... it’s kind of difficult for me to let her stay at my house," Azuli says, as if I were a troublesome child.

But I quickly lose focus of the conversation to look at my hands, everything is so strange.

"Besides, as a capable adult, I think you can handle this... infantilized Shizune better, we couldn’t figure out who did this to her, and we don’t know how to cure her."

"So we need someone to keep an eye on her," Azuli continues, ignoring my presence.

’I’m so stupid that they ignore the fact that I’m here...’ I may have had my mental abilities reduced, but I have memories, I can understand that I’m a nuisance for not being smart.

"..."

"Okay, I’ll take care of her," Angelica agrees, it’s obvious she would agree, she’s an obsessed Yandere, I bet she’ll take advantage of the opportunity to deceive me... and I bet I’ll be deceived.

"Listen, Shizune... your mind isn’t in a good state, but I think you understand that you still need to follow the rules we discussed before."

"Yes, I understand," I’m not a scatterbrain, she’s just insulting me.

"We need you to avoid... well, acting in a way that becomes noticeable at school, you don’t need to copy the assignments... you wouldn’t understand them anyway, so you just need to pretend, and then Angelica will give you a grade."

"It may seem like cheating, but this is not a common matter, we’ll also be busy looking for the source of this suspicious drug, as it is dangerous."

"We also recommend that you never enter your magical girl form... we don’t know what kind of problems it could cause you, but one guarantee is that you won’t be cured."

"There are also the problems she could cause, using magical girl powers requires knowledge... and she’s kind of... childish," Rose says, doubting my current abilities.

’I CAN HEAR YOU’ It seems they’ve teamed up to insult me.

"Guys, please, could you stop this!" I say to them with barely contained anger.

"I’m not a stupid child just because my intelligence has declined..."

"Intelligence?" Rose questions, as if I had said something wrong.

"Shizune, you didn’t understand, it wasn’t your intelligence that fell, all of your abilities were reduced, your current IQ is only 90, the equivalent of a 4-to-6-year-old child."

"You only don’t act like a child because you remember everything normally, since the only part of your mind that wasn’t affected was the memory area," Rose says, as if I had been stupid for not noticing the entire scenario.

"Several of your adolescent and adult capabilities were already gone, you have the mental capacity of a child, it’s not just because you have memories that you’re okay."

"Shizune, how much is 10+10?" Rose asks me with a simple math question, but even though I should remember the result... I don’t remember, looking at my memories seems confusing.

"..." I start counting on my fingers.

"Don’t use your fingers."

"..."

"I-I don’t know..." It’s very difficult to visualize the result in my mind, everything seems confusing if I try to put the numbers together without anything to show me the result visually.

"...T-This... this doesn’t prove anything!" I say, trying to deny this frightening reality.

"Shizune, you had one of the highest grades in our class, and your grade wasn’t higher only because you were late and skipped several assignments."

"Do you think someone who has one of the highest grades can’t even say how much 10+10 is? Without a visual or physical stimulus, you won’t be able to do most of the things that used to be easy for you."

"...I can prove it’s not that bad!" I say as I quickly think of how to prove it, there has to be a way.

"...Shizune, the very fact that you’re trying to argue this just shows how childish you’re being, you don’t have the responsibility or mentality to admit you have problems," Angelica says to me in a professional tone.

"T-Then just teach me! If they teach me, I can learn and..." I say this naive idea I thought of.

"It won’t work," Azuli interrupts me.

"Shizune, you don’t understand, you... you lost these abilities, it’s not something you forgot and can learn again, they were simply destroyed, do you understand?"

"If someone loses an arm, there’s no way to get it back, you lost these basic mental abilities permanently, at most you can learn to control yourself a bit and try to give a more mature appearance."

"...T-This is a joke, right?" I say, half desperate.

"Y-You’re joking, tell me you’re joking, I can’t have lost so much permanently." The despair in my voice is noticeable, even though in a way I had imagined it was permanent, I thought maybe they could fix it with machines or magic.

"Shizune... there’s nothing currently that can repair damage to your brain, it’s a delicate area, our base has one of the largest medical systems and we could only do a general analysis of the damage."

"At most, what we can try is to feed you foods rich in Omega-3 while stimulating your brain with activities so that you can at least increase a little bit of your remaining abilities."

"But what was lost is irretrievable."

The tears flow.

"G-Guys, this isn’t funny..." I say, still not believing it, but Angelica, Rose and Azuli just avert their gaze as if they feel guilty to look at me in this state.

Anger and sadness arise, I feel sad for having lost something so important and I feel angry, but it’s not anger at Flora and anger at these 3, they should be helping me.

They should keep me safe, but they’re so incompetent that they don’t even know that Flora has come to me twice already.

"Get out..." I say angrily in a low voice.

"GET OUT OF HERE!" I scream at them, my anger easily noticeable in my tone, I grab the closest thing to me and throw it at them in anger, Rose dodges and decides to leave along with Azuli and Angelica, apparently they want to give me some time alone.

"F-Flora, why... why did you have to screw me up like this?" I mumble through tears, my hands rubbing my cheeks trying to stop the flow of tears, this is terrible.

I feel a terrible pain, it’s as if a part of me has been torn out by force, I’ve always heard of cases of people who suffered accidents, lost something, and cried, but I never really understood.

But now I understand, this is bad, very bad, it’s as painful as dying, losing a part of myself makes me feel incomplete.

A desire to kill myself arises, if I died I could recover something said to be irretrievable, but as quickly as the desire arises, it disappears.

I’m too much of a coward to choose that path, I don’t have the courage to take my own life, even though the situation is bad, it hasn’t reached the extreme of resorting to suicide.

I can only try to adapt to this life.

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