My Curse? A Different Yandere in Every Reincarnation
Chapter 139: Farewell

Chapter 139: Farewell

I look at Yeom as she examines my wound. It hurts, it really hurts a lot. I feel like my blood is boiling inside my body, but I think it was worth it to help Yeom win.

I knew Yeom wouldn’t win, that was a sure thing because I saw how Yesheon was quickly gaining the advantage as Yeom started to lose.

I can even say that fate affected Yeom starting to lose and Yesheon becoming stronger, which in the end would have Yeom killed and then me becoming Yesheon’s target, as she seemed to have little control over herself.

Just because she spoke and thought like a normal person doesn’t mean she was being rational.

Yeom approaches, kneeling next to me and placing her hand on the wound in my body. If it were just the wound, she could even heal me, but my blood is strange.

Yesheon did something to me and it’s slowly killing me. As a cultivator, even though the wound in my body is severe, I haven’t died yet, so there’s time for a farewell.

"Y-You know... I thought you would cry... h-haha" I laugh, an empty laugh at the situation. Yeom doesn’t cry, she seems sad, but there is no anger or tears on her face.

"Are you... going to another world now?" Yeom asks in a cold tone.

"...Y-Yes..." She seems dissatisfied, very dissatisfied with everything, while pressing on my wound as if analyzing it.

"That’s unfair..." She just murmurs that, and unfortunately I agree with her, my life is a completely unfair mess.

"Y-You know, it’s kind of ironic to die like this..." It reminds me of the way I killed Lyuei, it’s a true irony that similar injuries happen.

"Why did you interfere? Why did you do this?" Yeom questions me as I avoid groaning in pain. It’s all so hot, normally during my deaths it was cold, but now it’s hot, as if I’m burning from the inside.

"You... were going to lose..." I say honestly, making her face show how annoyed she is.

"I wasn’t going to lose," she denies, but she and I know the truth. She was going to lose because fate favored Yesheon. That power increase was too convenient to be just chance.

"...S-Shouldn’t you say goodbye?" I ask as a little blood drips from my mouth. I notice that the blood is bubbling as if it’s being boiled at extreme temperatures.

I wonder what Yesheon did to me. She had no fire ability, so it’s really curious.

"I never say goodbye to anything or cry... maybe... I can meet you again" She speaks, but I don’t believe that. It’s impossible for her to find me again. It would literally be a 1 in infinity chance, which is practically 0.

"If I... gave you my cultivation maybe..." Yeom murmurs, but I interrupt her.

"No... i-it wouldn’t work" I know it wouldn’t because I feel like my blood seems to be affecting my Qi as well. If my cultivation level suddenly increases, my blood will get even hotter.

So if she gives me her cultivation, all that will happen is that I’ll die faster. I’m barely keeping myself alive now, it’s all thanks to my Yin Qi, which is very cold and reduces the damage I’m taking.

"Y-You know... it’s really hot... not cold like I imagined" I tell her the feeling. Normally getting cold is because I’m dying, who would have thought that in this situation it’s the opposite.

"..." Yeom looks at me with pain.

"You’re so stupid... you could have run away..." She says that, but I know it wouldn’t have worked. If I ran away, Yesheon would have killed Yeom, and at some point she would have found me.

"H-Hey, it’s not that bad... I-I feel good dying like this..." I’m not as afraid to go to another world now since the memory valve will take care of the impact I would receive.

I just fear having a terrible monster with a completely psychopathic mentality as my Yandere this time.

"It’s not that bad? Are you crazy?" Yeom speaks angrily with me. To her, it must seem like I’m abandoning her.

"Y-You know... it’s really not that bad... it just hurts..." It hurts, but it’s not the most painful death I’ve ever felt. There were others worse. This one is even "peaceful." My body is just very hot and my chest hurts a little.

Maybe because I’m a cultivator, my pain is less, or maybe it’s because I’ve converted a large part of my blood into ice mist to draw Yesheon’s attention.

And that has made the pain less now, the heat, although a little painful, is not worse than being frozen alive. That death that Azuli caused me was hell.

"Yeom... I didn’t even have time to love you... I’m sorry" I apologize to her. I still haven’t been able to love her.

"...It’s okay... I swear I’ll soar beyond the heavens and look for you..." She says, but without much confidence. Ascending as a cultivator is already difficult, and still having to look for me in who knows how many worlds is like looking for a specific grain of sand on a planet that’s just sand.

"Shizune, can I... have one last kiss?" She asks me hesitantly. I just shake my head negatively, which makes her seem disappointed.

"I-I see... okay..."

"If you want a kiss... then find me" I doubt she can find me, but I’ll at least leave that little motivation for her. Who knows, by the irony of fate, she might actually end up finding me again?

I feel my vision turn red and fade. It seems I’ve gone blind due to the blood that continues to increase in temperature.

’This... hurts...’ This hurts more than before. It seems to be getting worse, but I don’t die even with severe bleeding. I’m still alive, it’s almost torture.

I feel the blood coming out of my eyes, mixing with my tears and running down my face.

"..."

"Shizune, you look like you’re in a lot of pain..."

"Y-Yes..." It’s slow, very slow for me to die. It seems like it’s purposely causing damage so slowly. I think my high level of Yin Qi is also helping to keep me alive.

"Shizune, can I... ask you a few last questions?" Yeom asks hesitantly. I can’t see her, but I look in the direction of the sound before the blood affects my hearing too. I can no longer move my arms and legs.

It seems to be destroying me slowly from the bottom up, probably linked to the blood circulation in my body.

"A-Ask..." I murmur softly. Speaking is now difficult.

"Do you... think you deserve to suffer like this?"

"..."

"I-I don’t know..." I think I don’t, but it’s not like my selfish opinion is useful to say that. For any person suffering, if you ask them, they will say they don’t deserve the suffering they’re going through, even if they sometimes do, so it’s very subjective.

"Do you... not think about maybe just giving up?"

"...G-Give up?" I question with difficulty. I don’t understand why Yeom would tell me to just give up. What good is there if I just give up?

"I don’t mean just accept everything, or just try to live seeking happiness until the day I die... I mean not trying anymore, not doing anything and just leaving everything as it is."

"I mean trying to take advantage of the benefits."

"...Benefits?" I don’t know where she sees benefits in this.

"I’m evil, Shizune, I’m sorry it’s like this, but I’m not a good person, so all I can say is use the love of those who are obsessed with you to get ahead."

"Obey them, actively seek affection and affection, not seeking real love, but just to survive, do the bare minimum while just waiting."

"W-Why?" I question without understanding this.

"Fate and the heavens never stand still, so even if you just give up, everything will happen, but there’s something I can affirm, fate always needs to follow a rhythm."

"And it doesn’t matter if you want that rhythm or not, and ironically, precisely because it doesn’t care that by not doing anything, someone like you who always has new chances can achieve new things."

"For example... me, someone like me would give you everything, so ask for anything you want from that person, books, knowledge, power, influence, take everything you can take."

"You said you were trying to be good, so why not take everything from the Yandere to improve your life and with the rest help others?" Yeom suggests a pretty good idea.

I’ve never tried to actively take everything from the Yanderes, because that kind of just brings me closer to them and deepens their obsession. But thinking from her side, it might work.

I’m always open to trying something new to keep myself alive longer. It doesn’t hurt to try what she said in the next world.

"Yeom... a favor... would you do?" I say with broken words. It’s hard to speak, very hard. Soon I won’t be able to speak anymore.

"K-Kill me..." It’s starting to hurt more, so I want her to kill me to end this faster.

"..." I feel my senses becoming numb. I can’t do anything anymore, just avoid moaning in pain as the heat increases. I feel like my body will soon melt from the inside.

At first, this death didn’t seem so bad, but now that my blood is getting hotter and hotter slowly as the blood leaks through the wounds, it seems more terrible.

"I’ll do that, Shizune... just... please never forget me..." Yeom speaks as she does something touching my body. I don’t know what she’s doing, but in an instant, everything passes.

Everything becomes complete darkness, but without pain, without too much heat, or without my blood boiling inside my body. It seems I’ve died, quickly and without extra pain.

Yeom killed me as I asked, but before everything went dark, I felt something dripping on me. I’ll never know if it was tears or her blood.

But I want to believe that without me being able to see anything, she cried for me. That way, it’s a little happier for me.