My Curse? A Different Yandere in Every Reincarnation
Chapter 122: Blank Page

Chapter 122: Blank Page

I was extremely dissatisfied when Yesheon suddenly stopped, and simply left me in need, I couldn’t even masturbate in the next room because she would have heard, so I had to just endure the urge.

And this is something I have never gotten over, if someone starts something sexual with me, I being sensitive, will obviously want to finish, and if they don’t continue and stop before I’m satisfied, the dissatisfaction hits me full force.

The atmosphere was perfect, the soft candlelight, the not too cold climate warmed by our body heat, and the sight of our bodies which was undoubtedly beautiful.

Everything was so perfect that ending it in that way seemed terrible for both of us, I really wanted to at least have been satisfied once.

But I’m not stupid, she was clearly acting strange and bled a little, something seemed to have happened and she hid it, but she didn’t count on one thing! I have Yui with me.

Yui may not have seen anything, but I called Yui and asked why such a thing happened, when I explained how it started, Yui clearly seemed uncomfortable and embarrassed to talk about something so intimate.

After all, Yui doesn’t seem to have much interest in it and is always easily embarrassed by these things, preferring to avoid them.

But shortly after, she told me that it’s probably because I have a tremendous amount of a certain energy called Yin Qi in my body, I don’t even really know what that is, but it seems to be Sayuri’s fault and partly Yui’s fault as well.

Yui said that my frequent contact with Sayuri and her has earned me this dense energy called Yin Qi that has accumulated in me, and incredibly, I was supposed to die having all this unrefined energy in me.

Since this energy would cause serious problems to an unprepared and unaccustomed body to deal with high levels of Qi of any kind.

But exactly what I had thought happened, only a Yandere can kill me, and since Yin Qi is not a Yandere, it cannot kill me, so the same curse that forces me to be killed protects me from this energy.

And that’s why I have a higher amount of Yin than the amount of Yang that Yesheon has, and that caused her a problem, but if I have all this energy, why am I still miserably weak?

The universe is playing a joke on me, what the hell is the use of having so much Yin Qi if I can’t use it in any way? At least Yui said that’s why Yeom was stealing my cultivation.

This clarified that Yeom is not completely shitty in this regard, although only in theory, because from my memories, she seemed to like sex itself more than cultivating with me.

She stole my cultivation to deal with the mess I was making in her internal energy caused by a suppression of Yang.

Because Yeom herself also had trouble absorbing all this Yin Qi for herself, at least it’s not so bad to know that I have these advantages, and it also makes me notice how the curse Sayuri put on me is careless and full of flaws.

I think this is what happens when you try to curse someone based on momentary anger and hatred, but I’ve learned my lesson, if Yesheon needs time, I won’t force her to anything.

In the end, acquiring strength in this world is useless, I think it would be more advantageous to learn a "martial art" that doesn’t involve powers, so in normal worlds I’ll know how to fight.

So after having slept, I went to Senior Lyuei to train together, she’s actually a nice person, so I can deal with it, it’s just that I feel a strange and bitter feeling.

I can no longer recognize myself with the past, it’s hard to say that I’m still me, it’s as if my first version had died so much and I had changed so much that I’m no longer myself.

When I told this to Yui, she said that maybe it was an opportunity for a fresh start, I’m a blank page ready for new experiences, Yui said that my sins, compared to the physical and mental suffering I’ve endured, have already been paid.

Since the suffering caused by the exchange of worlds and the acquisition of memories and personality traits would be equivalent to thousands of times the normal dose of pain that someone should feel.

Yui even said something disturbing, which was the fact that if I had stopped in a world where I have more than 5,000 years of memory all at once, my head would literally explode.

This is terrifying to think about, the pain of it would be unimaginable, something no human should ever experience, it’s a blessing that I now have a valve so that the memories don’t make me suffer anymore.

So even though I’ve killed many, I’m ready for a true redemption, I just have to stop committing evil and distance myself more from Sayuri, and I agree with Yui.

I think the current positivity is a good thing I feel, I can very well start over everything, forget the past, forget Sayuri and focus on the current life and the present, I must go on with my life the way it is.

Clinging to the past will only cause me more unnecessary pain, what’s gone can’t come back, and past mistakes can’t just disappear, I just have to avoid making the same mistake by learning from what I’ve been through.

Yui went to check on Yesheon and then came back saying she’s studying a lot about cultivation, so I decided to earn positive points with Yui by helping others, I, along with Senior Lyuei, went for a walk through the orthodox sect helping whoever we could.

Of course, no one was comfortable with me, but I decided to see things positively, so with a somewhat fake smile on my face, I started to help them in the way I could.

Whether it was carrying buckets of water and plants, feeding the animals since there seem to be many here and with Yui’s blessing they seem to like me quite a bit among other things.

Lyuei doesn’t seem to have as many prejudices as others because she has a huge admiration for Yesheon, so she’s the only one who doesn’t have much prejudice against me.

Especially after a "fairy rabbit" tried to befriend me, I don’t know what it is, and it seemed like a completely normal rabbit, but Lyuei said it was an animal that didn’t like to approach strangers much, rarely getting close to others.

So getting close to me was a sign of good luck, and lately I’ve been feeling a bit lucky, so I decided to just accept and enjoy the wave of enthusiasm to ask Lyuei for help in training in common martial arts.

She promptly agreed, giving me a ridiculous and difficult training, running around the place without stopping, then carrying heavy things from one place to another for hours.

Among other things, to then actually teach me a little when I was already exhausted on the ground, she just gives me healing pills and forces me to train more, it even seems personal that she’s being so mean even though it’s just training.

"Come on junior! Get up!" Lyuei yells at me when I lie on the ground after she punches me, I get up exhausted, my vision is a bit blurry and my muscles hurt.

"Punch right! You punch like a little girl!" She speaks as if we weren’t both girls, I rush at her giving a punch that she easily dodges and sweeps my legs, making me fall face first on the ground.

Yui just watches it all sitting on a nearby water barrel.

"What a shitty, crooked, slow, weak punch and worst of all, no sense! How do you just punch forward expecting the enemy to receive the punch?" Lyuei speaks with disappointment.

"Seriously, how were you part of a sect! Compare you to a common person? You’re weaker than a common person" That hurt, it really hit the wound when she says that, I’m really weak.

"W-Well..."

"And all those stories about you! Like that one where you evaporated a lake with an attack!" She says recounting my supposed feats.

Okay, I really did evaporate a lake, but that was using one of the papers that had Yeom’s abilities, without those papers I’m useless in combat, but with that paper only high-level cultivators can defeat me.

"It’s a lie..." I say to her, admitting the farce of the situation, I won’t talk about the papers or anything like that.

"They just exaggerated, I’m a common person, that’s why I want to train with you and learn to fight" I say, getting up completely and dusting off my robe.

"...Great! Get ready because I’m going to teach you to punch like a real cultivator! I’ll beat you up a lot too! In no time you’ll stop punching like an inexperienced little girl" She speaks honestly.

’...’ I’m regretting having chosen to train, but there’s nothing I can do, Yesheon said she wants a week before we try to cultivate again.

And unlike cultivation, which will be useless in another world, learning to punch for real will be very useful in any modern world I end up in.

"Okay, ...Senior Lyuei, I’ll try my best to learn" I say not very enthusiastically as I see Yui giving an innocent little laugh, I can only sigh, it seems I’ll be taking a beating.

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